So all night long I talked with Michael.  And he tried to convince me that it was all lies and he was completely faithful and asked if I believed him and said he couldn't be with me if I didn't believe him.  I told him I did.  And part of me did.  I wanted so desperately to believe him, that even though part of me knew the truth, another part of me was extremely happy to live in that beautiful lie.  Mark wasn't having any of it though and set about finding proof that it was Michael.  He explained about the IP Addresses showing that the e-mails to men came from Michael's computer.  Michael said he's on wireless and that anyone in his area could have sent the message - ignoring the fact that if Scott was doing this he'd have to come to Michael's house to do it all - and then only in the OFF CHANCE that I would one day discover what Michael apparently never noticed any day that he went to his e-mail accounts.  It didn't make any sense, but I'd come to believe everything this man said and wanted him to be right, no matter how obvious it now was that he was lying to me.  It was so bizarre.  I can't really explain it.  I suggested that we use Michael's accounts to catch the real culprit but he wanted to delete everything and I think that's when I started accepting that he was really lying to me.  Why delete the evidence if you're not the guilty party?  He left early in the morning, emotional and refusing to admit he'd done anything. 

06:22 AM:

Michael: "Take care of yourself.  I love you and always will.  I don't want to lose you but afraid i am."

06:23 AM:

Me: "That sounded like a goodbye."

06:27 AM:

Michael: "I dont know how to handle this.  Not sure how to.  I just dont know what to do.  I feel lost and scared"

Me: "Well you're not alone."

06:34 AM:

Michael: "Feel like i am.  I dont friends like you watching out for me.  I just ant to die.  Im sorry just i love you"

06:56 AM:

Michael: "Ok really scared now your not talking to me"

06:58 AM:

Me: "I didn't know what to say."

06:59 AM:

Michael: "Help me.  What should i do we do"

07:02 AM:

Me: "I don't know what there is to do...except for what I suggested last night and u said you don't think u can do that...  Part of me can't believe any of this has happened and just wants to forget it...but we can't."

07:05 AM:

Michael: "So thats it then just go through this all the time distrust.  Thats a hell of a way to be together"

07:07 AM:

Michael: "And now i dont even feel comfortable at your place with mark and you cant stay at mind"

07:09 AM:

Me: "That's how we started.  Its not perfect but I think you're worth that much trouble and more.  But maybe you don't."

07:13 AM:

Michael: "Im not worth shit right now.  You completed me.  You make me so happy.  I need you in my life.  I want a future with you.  I want to marry you and grow old with you.  But not sure how to make you or mark believe me."

We spoke on the phone for a bit.

10:41 AM:

Michael: "You up"

02:16 PM:

Michael: "I am going to library in plymouth.  Jesse is going with so there will be no question as to where i am going"

02:18 PM: 

Me: "Ok.  Maybe I could see you later."

02:19 PM:

Michael: "Later when"

02:27 PM:

Michael: "Miss you when do you want to see me"

04:49 PM:

Michael: "Hey hope everything is ok.  Have not heard from you about when you want to see me.  Worried here"

06:52 PM:

Me: "Sorry!  I finally fell asleep.  Gonna get something to eat now and call you when finished.  Ok?"

Michael: "Okay"

09:43 PM:

Michael: "Take care of me"

09:45 PM:

Me: "I don't know that I can; I can barely walk I'm so dehydrated.  I'm sipping water though.  You should stay hydrated too."

09:46 PM:

Michael: "I want to be with you though"

09:49 PM:

Me: "We could suffer together...but I'm no sure we should be driving and ambulances are expensive."

09:51 PM:

Michael: "Ill figure it out"