Monday, June 20, 2005

After the last entry, I decided I'd head back to Aut Bar; it had only been 10 minutes, so I changed my clothes in a hurry, and headed back to the bar. I figured I was taking the whole thing too seriously, and I should go chill with Patrick, Ian & Redcloud, but when I got there 10 minutes later they weren't there anymore, and Patrick was still not answering his phone. I was hoping that he might get some food with me, since I missed my lunch earlier while waiting for him. I looked pretty hot, if I do say so myself, but it was all for naught. I hate eating by myself, and I was not more disappointed than before because I couldn't even just sit & talk to my friends. I left a message on Patrick's machine & I drove around for a little while; feeling like I should be out doing something. When I did get home, I sat in the car for awhile; just listening to music & trying to figure out how this all happened, and why I was taking it so hard.

I don't know why. Except that I had fun the other day, and was looking forward to more of it, and that didn't happen. It didn't even come close to happening. And when I tried to overcome that situation, and head back, and take it less seriously, there wasn't any chance to.

James was there, with what looks to be a new boyfriend named Kane/Cain; they looked cute together. James used to have a crush on me, and I had one on him too, but he's a smoker, and I try not to date them, because my body is so sensitive to that kind of stuff now. It annoyed me slightly that even James couldn't be my buddy tonight, but then I looked at them, and I smiled for them. At least somebody's getting it right; good for them. ;-0)

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