Sunday, November 23, 2008

I left a message for Trevor. He had mentioned that he goes out with guys all the time who then never call him. I didn't want to be one of those guys and now I'm not.

I talked to Mark about the last entry. About how frustrating things are right now. How I want to be doing stuff, but I've got this crushing weight hanging over me, which is my surgery in February. My whole life will change in February. And it just feels pointless to start something like school or a job when it could come crashing to a halt in February - I could lose all of that again and that terrifies me. Mark had some good suggestions though. I need look into working at UofM because that would rock. He also suggested we get a 2nd or 3rd opinion this surgery and the pills I'm taking. And he also suggested I volunteer at HARC or something; something to give my time meaning, until I can get back to work and school. Assuming I can ever. (see what I mean - there's always this voice in my head telling me that February is a death sentence). I need to conquer that voice somehow.

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