Sunday, January 25, 2009

I watched some of Jay Brannen's music videos on myspace early this morning. Someone mentioned them to me in passing a few weeks ago, and all I knew him from was "Shortbus", but I'd listened to his song from that for months afterwards...so I figured I'd check him out eventually. His songs are amusing. I downloaded some from ITunes.

I made an impulse purchase this morning. There was a sale on Amazon that was ending today - $59.95 for the entire series set of Six Feet Under. That's more than half off. And it's something that I've always wanted but never thought I'd spend the money on, as it was just too damned expensive. Well...I ordered it on the spot. But then felt weird about spending the money as I've been really good about NOT spending lately. I tried to cancel the order but it was too late. I could ship it back once it arrives, and then just pay the return shipping cost - but I'm thinking I'll probably keep it. Or not. I don't know. I want it. But...I don't know. It would be different if I had a job. If I had a job I'd just write it off as no big deal, enjoy the sale and purchase, and then not spend for the week or whatever. Blah.

I hate feeling like my life is on hold until this fricking surgery that may or may not work...I'm trying not to get depressed about all that again, but it's hard. I have to constantly distract myself with other things...or I fear it may consume my every waking thought...and I'm not convinced I could survive that.

I have 4 episodes left of Ally's 4th Season, though I haven't watched any since this morning before I slept. I had odd dreams about fighting vampires; hiding from serial killers; 4 wheeling down country roads; playing vollyball. The country road is an extension of Mooreville Road in Milan Mi, but in my dreams it's like a completely different world - that remains the same in all my dreams. The vollyball game also took place in Mooreville, in the same spot that a few weeks ago I envisioned Shawn & Jonathan living... Hmmm. Something going on there in my brain I guess. Don't know what it means though.

I'm listening to the "Roslin & Adama" theme from Season 2 of BSG. It's so pretty. A new version of it was played in Friday's episode.

I made a new BSG page on my site, devoted to the movie "The Plan", which can be found here. This way I don't have to keep doing updates in my blog; I'll just update my site and maybe post a link in my blog for those that are interested.

Mark & I had a disagreement. He remembers things one way. I remember them another. It's upsetting.

The BSG music is pretty, but sad. It fits my mood at the moment.

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