Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I went right to sleep after the last entry. I plugged my phone in the charger first, which had died. I forgot that when you plug this phone in and it lights up it's not on; it's just charging. My previous phone was always 'on' when charging; when plugged in. I slept well, with odd memories of movies and a dream about my still living grandmother's funeral. Mark woke me up amidst blinding headache pain to tell me that Michael couldn't get through to me so he'd called Mark to let him know they were taking his grandmother off life support; Mark said that he had asked Michael if he should wake me, but Michael said no. Mark woke me anyways and I called Michael right away but there was no answer. He texted soon after to ask if he could see me later, and I said yes. There was a new text from him from earlier that read "I need you. Where are you?" which broke my heart. Last night I had something close to an argument with Mark because he and Mollie had planned on going to look for a new car today even if I didn't go - a decision that should be shared by Mark & I - but that I wanted to go visit Michael because of what was going on with him and I was worried about him. Mark and Mollie said that tomorrow is probably the only day that Mark can go look at a car on his vacation as we have plans every other day - but I'm not understanding why he needs to go on his vacation. It annoys me. I feel left out, ignored, invisible - and extremely useless. My head hurts so bad! And to add insult to injury...everything I've eaten in the last 24 hours seems to have made me extremely farty. Maybe this is normal? I wouldn't know. The foods I've been eating most of my life seldom had that effect. It's not fun. I just made sure the phone ringer was on full blast...and took my midrin with some tea.

My thoughts are with Michael.

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