Bald Jason's Musings
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Jason I dont know what to say or do..Dont hate yourself..Hate me, destroy me, love me, leave me. Its what you might need. It was a mistake, it was stupid, it was nothign you did ot did not do. WE discussed this last night and now its time for you to heal. Grieve, scream, yell, hit, smash do what you have to do. Its inside you.
None of this makes any sense. The only thing I know is I hate myself for hurting you so much. I hope one day you and I can be together as we were before. That Mark will trust me once again and we can be friends. That Mollie and Chris wont want to kill me. Which I probly should die for what I did. I dont ever remember thinking so much about dieing in my past as much as I do right now.
The Michael you knew before is not dead he just got lost. Got taken by the one person who has no feelings for anyone. It makes no sense I know. But love me once more and you will see Michael again. That other person is gone he will never return. Hes been locked away forever...
YOu asked me not to give up on you just yet well please dont give up on me or our future just yet either.
We need to bury this, file it away in a file that can never return.
You are an amazing spirit. A life force that can not be changed. A life that I love so much that has shown me so many thigns in this world and one that I need in my life to continue. Please for give me so we can find that love once again and make it grow into something that this world will cherish. PLease be safe so we can continue on this quest of love. Please................
posted by Michael at 02:09 PM