Bald Jason's Musings
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Well to comment on all this, I do hate myself for what I did. I shouldnt have and honestly cant figure out why. I love Jason ans miss him terribly. I wish I could turn back time and change it, but maybe this will even make us stronger. Who knows what the future holds. I am a self destrucible when it comes to relationships. I have never been truely happy in my life. Well not until Jason and howI could hurt the one person that I truely care about is beyond me. Just not used to happiness since there is so much sadness in my past. I dont think I am attractive, never have. So hard to hear from others when they say I am its a perception that I could not possibly accept. I hope in the future Jsaon can trust me because I knwo I messed up that trust and want to earn it back. There is no excuse for what I did but hopefully in the end I will be with Jason. Its a mess I have to clean up not him. I am a part of this a part of him. When I think about being with out him its a pain I can not handle. I love you Jason and you will feel that everday we are together.
posted by MIchael at 02:48 PM
I hope what you said about the future is true, because that's what I want now, more than ever.
posted by Bald Jason at 02:53 PM