Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Saw Michael Monday. We were both cranky, and I had a bit of a bad moment when I had happy memories of being in Michael's car with him & Jen on our way back from Cedar Point - and then realized just 2 days later (3 before my birthday), Michael had another boy in the same seat (the one I was sitting in while remembering sitting there) to have sex with him. Also felt weird seeing Michael's dad that night. I used to feel so special that Michael introduced me to his family; that this meant we were solid and I really mattered and he'd never hurt me, only he was fooling around the whole time; even the day of his grandma's funeral he screwed 2 boys before fucking me. I'll get past all this uglyness eventually - but for now it's destroyed my happy memories.

I drove Mark to work on Tuesday, then went to the bank, then to Michael's to get some DVD's he'd thought I'd meant him to take, and then hit LC on the way home for pizza. My jaw was still locked (is still locked) but was hurting less. I took my last dose of antibiotic. I saw Sean online (this Sean is one that Michael cheated on me with, and who claimed he was my friend, but then stabbed me in the back again) - I confronted him with the truth, which just made me feel worse somehow.

Later I ate and picked up Mark from work; we went to Michael's after, with me returning the dvds (Doctor Whoniverse / Firefly) with some discs that were missing before and instructions on how to get the most out of watching them. Mark worked on Michael's computer while Michael & I cuddled. I slept a bit before Mark woke me up to leave. I was slightly buzzed as I'd had some apple pucker earlier. We didn't get home until after 2am - way passed (is that the correct use of that word? - I get passed and past confused) my bed time of late.

I slept well. I ate. I started taking motrin again for my jaw. Hope it helps. Mark is going to call about having an exam somewhere else. I'd love to have some ANSWERS and some HELP for my jaw. I've been ill in some form or another for over 2 months and it's not getting any easier. Blah.

I'm excited to see the 5 new Whoniverse episodes in the next 9 days (especially Sunday night's "The Waters of Mars"). There's a new Glee on this week. And I'm seeing Michael later tonight.

I should drive Mark to work; I need more ingrediants for stuff, but I might just go tomorrow. Not sure.

I wish I had a game to play. Aliens vs. Predator won't be out for 3 more months, and who knows when Diablo III will be released? :-0(

Tomorrow is Bryan Alfaro's birthday. I'm giving him the Pandemic game that Michael gave me. Getting rid of the birthday presents he gave me helps with the pain a little, plus I know Bryan will enjoy it. Also letting Bryan & Chris borrow the final 11 installments of BSG:

4x11 Sometimes a Great Notion
4x12 A Disquiet Follows My Soul (Extended)
Battlestar Galactica: The Face of the Enemy
4x13 The Oath
4x14 Blood on the Scales
4x15 No Exit
Battlestar Galactica: The Plan (Extended)
4x16 Deadlock
4x17 Someone To Watch Over Me
4x18 Islanded in a Stream of Stars (Extended)
4x19 Daybreak (Extended)

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:07 PM
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