Wednesday, April 28, 2010

One really good thing that's happened this week is I've found a sunblock that I really like, which (assuming it works out well) I can easily apply and not worry about the sun. That would be nice. I'm hoping for the best with that. That could change the entire course of my summer. Also, just like with my eating disorder last summer, I'm trying to get away from the self hatred with my delicate skin. Everyone should be wearing sunblock anyways, and I just need to embrace that this is something I have to do instead of moping around about it. Easier said than done, but I'm trying. It's hard to not be down on yourself when there's SO MUCH wrong or different about you, but I just want my life to be better than that.

I'm choosing to not be upset about Michael's change in plans, despite the fact that I could have said no to doing any number of things tomorrow with other people because I was going to be spending that time with him, and that I infact had something planned for tomorrow with him that won't be happening now. I just need to communicate to him that in the future I need for him to tell me when he's available and stick to it - or I need to not be taking his word so seriously (an option I don't like as we were doing pretty well in the trust department lately - a huge hurdle for us) - or maybe we just shouldn't be planning things right now. I don't know what the answer is. I just don't want to be upset all the time, and I'm just not going to be. :-0)

   posted by Bald Jason at 05:10 PM
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