Tuesday, May 25, 2010

The pizza from the last entry was divine, until a few hours later when it all came back up. My stomach just refuses to digest pizza and I don't know why. I still eat it once or twice a year though because I love it so much...it's just really disgusting a few hours later. Ugh.

Went to Michael's last night and kissed him goodnight. Picked up some food that I left there and hit Kroger's for a bit more and came home. Chilled. Watched some Sarah Jane. Took some pictures. Later I shaved and gothed out. Went to Necto with Mark. Had fun, though the music mostly sucked. I got to see friends. Made some new friends. Took some pictures before and a ton more after. It was all good, and so cool to see Mark at the bar!! And so great to come home from the bar and NOT smell like smoke!!!!

I spent the next hour or two getting the pictures sorted and uploaded to Facebook. I posted a message of love to Michael's page. Wished people happy birthday. Commented. Farm Town. The usual Facebook stuff.

I was just getting ready to make a shake and rewatch some Who episodes when Michael texted, asking if I was awake. I called him and talked about the Doctor Who he'd watched yesterday and told him about the bar with Mark. He said he had to go and when I asked if anythihng was wrong he freaked out saying his boyfriend had gone to the bar and hit on 2 guys (the friends I made). I told him I didn't hit on them and that I didn't think of them that way at all...and that Mark was there the whole time and to ask him...and that I definitely didn't flirt with them. He let me go.

Mark was shocked by the news and told me to not let it bother me; that I did nothing wrong. I know this, yet I can't stop shaking.

Michael just texted me saying "Sorry it bothers me".

I texted back that I'm sorry it bothers him too because I did absolutely nothing wrong. I took Mark to the club to meet girls. I saw friends. I made friends. I flirted with not a soul.

He texted back that he knows I didn't do anything and he's not mad. Just the jealousy bone in him.

I texted that I'm glad he knows I did nothing and I wish I could do something.

I wish I could stop shaking though. I've never dated anyone who had this kind of jealousy issue before. And the thing is, I kind of have one with him, but I didn't when I met him. He cheated and so I have moments where I don't trust him...but he gave me reason to, you know? I'm not perfect, but I've never cheated on him, and I've taken him back several times after he's cheated or attempted to cheat on me...so you'd think that would earn me some slack or something. I guess I just have to accept that it's not rational and he seems to know that, which is good.

I'm gonna have my shake.

   posted by Bald Jason at 07:11 AM
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