Saturday, August 21, 2010

Friday. Got lots of sleep. Shaved off the beard & fur. Went to Necto to meet Shawn. Drama. Sadness. Why did I fall for a bottom? The signs were all there, but I hoped for the best because he's so fucking awesome. :-0( We can be friends of course...but aside from our biology there was the potential for something more. It was like falling in love with a woman only worse. What the fuck? If I fall for a guy, or start to fall for a guy and he feels the same for me then it should just fucking work goddamn it. :-0( Erg.

Apparently "I Love The Way You Lie" by Eminem & Rihanna is our song. We danced to it and they played it at the end of the night too. He said it was ironic and when I pointed out that we never lied to each other he said that he thought we lied to ourselves. How fucking sad is that? Erg.

Shawn's Facebook status when he got home from the bar: "and with a tear in his eye he says good night"

My stomach has been worse the last few days. Wondering if it's because I've exercised less? Perhaps exercise is key to my stomach working?

I just finished Season 4 of Six Feet Under. 1 Season / 12 episodes left.

1 year ago today, my boyfriend Michael cheated on me with 2 men (Rocco & Brad); the lastter was bareback. He then took me to his grandmother's funeral where his mother thanked me for coming. Later Mollie was rushed to the hospital and I took care of Michael instead of going with her and Mark. Michael fucked me without telling me he was putting me at risk and then accused me of cheating when I stopped by the bar to see an old friend on my way to see Mollie (even though he was invited to both destinations). I was sick all weekend.

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