Monday, October 25, 2010

Still awake. Read Oz related stuff online. Jacked off and showered. Took Prilosec. I'm still sleepy but I want to eat. That's a fairly simple sentence yet it's also profound for someone like me, who's relationship with food has been antagonistic to say the least. I want to eat. :-0)

Michael called. He's very sad. He's afraid that by moving in with his grandmother he will be losing me forever. I don't see it that way. In fact, if we're ever to reunite, I must be given more space, and more importantly, time to heal. Also, it can't be forced. If we try to force it, as we did last time, we'll be screwed. It's just got to happen. And though this is a huge change, my love for him continues to grow and evolve. There are many flaws within him that hurt me deeply in the past which I'm coming to love (or at least not be hurt as deeply by) as his friend.

Mark & I will be helping Michael move today so I'll most likely see the apartment for the very last time today.

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