Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I've been throwing up for more than 24 hours. It's been at least 3 weeks since my stomach was this upset (for which I'm grateful). It's not health threatening yet, as it has been in the past, but it's very annoying and has caused me to cancel plans and reticent to make plans with Matt this weekend. Hopefully it will calm down...or Reglan pills will help control it. Lately, I've been lucky enough that my symptoms have been pretty mild. But days like this remind me why I'm not currently employed...and why I might never be again. Though that is not certain. "Horrors."

My financial situation is dire. Mark's financial situation is dire and getting close to being as bad as mine. This isn't good. We could lose the condo; our home. We could lose a lot, in fact. This sucks. It might even be why my stomach is freaking out. As much as I'm trying to chill and relax, I'm stressed.

Matt & I talked today. We may go out Friday night or Saturday, depending on how my stomach is doing. I like him. :)

Michael & I talked yesterday about our friendship. We don't want to lose it. I feel that I'm strong enough to be his friend, even while healing from wounds he's inflicted on me. What I'm coming to realize is that he might not be as strong. He wants me to NEVER AGAIN bring up the fact that he cheated on me. I told him that this was unacceptable as I'm still grieving the relationship I thought I had, plus I have lots of anger and pain that I need to work through and if he's around that's the price of that. I've told him that if he wants to not be around me as a result that's his choice and I'll respect that, but I can't just suppress this shit; it would kill me, or at the very least hurt me on levels that he'd never know about...and I feel I'd be allowing him to victimize me again, which I'm not going to allow. It remains to be seen what the outcome will be but we're playing it be ear for now.

I watched the new Glee last night with Mark. It was ok. It wasn't a standout episode, but it wasn't terrible. I just think it suffered by comparison to the last few episodes which were all amazing. I also watched the season 2 of finale of Ally, and 3 episodes of Season 3. I also read the first 3 chapters of the Trek book I'm reading - which is actually a 10 chapter piece set between the prologue & the rest of another book that I'm reading; I'm just on this so I get the whole story in chronological order.

I just got the new Caprica and intend to watch that at some time tonight. 2 more episodes after this one and it's over. I also now have the complete 4th Season of The Sarah Jane Adventures, of which I've only watched 1 of 12 episodes so I might watch some of that soon; I just don't feel all that excited about it for some reason. I have the mini-Doctor Who episodes, so the only installment of Season 32 that I'm missing is the Christmas Special, which will air (SHOCKER) next month, on Christmas Day.

   posted by Bald Jason at 06:54 PM
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