Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I did watch 'True Blood' (4x01) before sleeping Tuesday
morning and it was pretty good. I slept well. On Tuesday I
watched what I ate and was pretty much ok. Mark & I went
for a great walk. We also watched quite a bit of Star Wars:
The Clone Wars. It was a good day.

My meds are affecting the way I think or process
information...but it's sort of random at the moment...or
that's how it feels.

Today I woke from extremely interesting dreams...to
cuddles with Mark. I hurt my upper back somehow, which
is really just annoying...and I ate too much, which made
me ill...which meant that we couldn't go for the walk we
had planned on because Mark had to be with Gen today. I
don't blame her for my messed up plans...I don't blame
Mark for waiting around either...I blame my stomach. After
he left I did something that's happened a couple of times
lately but never in the past. I ate. And ate. And ate. I'm
sure it's like what people that eat and purge go through
on some level, and I'm surprised it hasn't happened before
now because I'm always SO FUCKING HUNGRY. It's horrible
the way I have to eat small amounts of everything...and
even then some of it, or somtimes all of it comes back
up...and I'm just sick of it. I'm tired of being hungry all the
time.

I showered and scrubbed / brushed my teeth. I feel so
empty right now that I'm amazed that I'm sitting here.

   posted by Bald Jason at 09:22 PM
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