Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Talked to the law peeps, and the ticket I got, if not challenged, will result in 2 points on my drivers licence!?! Given the circumstances, it's possible a court will declare my actions an emergency, but I don't know that I trust that. I just don't have any faith in our courts, our police, or our government. I sped home, to use the toilet, and wasn't pulled over, but taken out of my home, sick, shivering, by multiple police officers, who gave me the speeding ticket in front of all of my neighbors... I was so sick, and I had to sit there and take it. It was horrible. I feel violated, but I thought I could just pay the ticket and that would be the end of it; I didn't expect that I'd also have points on my licence for a couple years, and watch my car insurance go up $1200.00, which I don't know how I'll pay. I make next to zero dollars a year, and I was going to start attending college in the Fall. And all this because drove 40mph for less than a mile, so I wouldn't shit myself in my car. I'm not saying that what I did was right, but I think that it was understandable. There were circumstances. And instead of being shown some small compassion I was treated like a junkie or something, and just splayed out on the curb while my condition continued to spiral away, and my future was tainted. It just sucks beyond the telling of it, and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm all acidy - which makes it so fun, to try to sleep.

I read in Mollie's myspace blog about her watching Jon Stewart. I love him. And since I couldn't sleep, I dowloaded a couple episodes of his show, and the laughter really helped.

Besides all that bile, Mark made it home safe & sound, for which I'm grateful. Our car has a new dent, which he noticed right away, and I had no explanation for, as I barely drove the thing while he was gone. He's like a bloodhound for dents and scratches, that I wouldn't have noticed...ever. And I didn't get to sleep yesterday (on my day off) because I had to wait for the law peeps to call me, which they didn't do until around 6pm - just as I was leaving to pick up Mark. While not sleeping, I did some artwork, wrote a poem, scanned some more pictures, and worked on my webpage.

I haven't slept since I got up for work on Sunday. I might be able to sleep sitting up at this point. Barring that, I'm going to sleep as soon as I'm able to lie down without screaming.

And just so we're clear, beyond all this minor whining, I'm glad to be alive, and glad to know so many amazing people. You guys make it all worthwhile somehow, even when the world seems like a brainless conservative repulican pleasure planet. Blah.

   posted by Bald Jason at 04:58 AM
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