Friday, June 30, 2006

I think I just realized something about myself; about my memory. I remember things very clearly; things that people tell me; things that people probably shouldn't remember... But I don't remember things like that when I'm at ease with someone. If I'm comfortable with someone, then this "muscle" I've developed relaxes a bit, because I don't have to be the memory for the two of us. I don't have to remember everything; don't have to be the repository for all that remains of these people like I was for the hospital children. That's when my memory really started getting scary. So when I first meet people, I remember every detail that falls from their lips, afraid that they'll leave and what they shared with me will be lost... And later, when I feel they probably aren't going anywhere soon...the muscle relaxes and I forget all kinds of things, which would have been horrific to me years ago, but now strikes me as being kind of wonderful. Wow.

I don't know where that came from, but I hope I remember it. lol

   posted by Bald Jason at 04:05 AM
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