Monday, July 10, 2006

So, I just tried to call Mollie. Only I didn't call her. I called Jeremy. I just hit talk on my phone because she's always the last person I've called. Only she wasn't. And I'm officially stupid. I left a lame message, rather than hangup; I try to always leave a message, because people who don't are often annoying. lol

And on the random, annoying trouble side of things:

Our bathroom sink doesn't work. It's clogged. It's been shut off for over a week because we don't have cash for a plumber. I forget that it's off and I when I use my listerine I spit down the drain and then try to turn the water on, only there isn't any. I don't do this every day, but fairly often. I noticed there was something weird in the sink today, and Mark all but accused me of creating a problem, on purpose, and that the fumes from this, whatever it is in the sink, is going to kill him. It doesn't look like anything that came out of my mouth. He even stated that it looks like the remnants from my razor, which I used to empty in the sink, but I haven't done that since the water was shut off, as I usually rinse it out before I use it - so I know there's not water blah blah blah. He just keeps glaring at me, and when I ask him to stop...he doesn't. I had to ask him to leave my room, and then said that I wanted him to die alone. People don't see this side of Mark, but I'm not the only drama queen living in this house.

He was talking to me earlier about what he wants to do to get even with a company that's screwing us over. When he talks like this it makes me worry about him. When I worry, my stomach gets upset, and I get sick. I try not to worry about stuff. I try not to get angry or depressed because I don't like to feel sick. I told him that I was on his side, but that I just don't agree with his ideas of solving the problems - because they're more trouble than they are worth; they could potentially be quite a hassle for us, and most likely wouldn't be much of anything to those he's intending to annoy. He said that I wasn't on his side then. I told him that if he does anything like what he was planning that I didn't want to know about it because it would only stress me out and I don't want that in my life. We have arguments like this fairly often. It's one of the negatives of our relationship.

But there are a lot of positives also. We're not always like that. Mark forgets stuff all the time, and I get left with the blame for all sorts of things that no person with a memory would be blaming me for...but as annoying as that is, it's not the majority of our very close friendship. We have our jokes, and our cuddles, and our support and kindness...and our problems. It's almost always worth it. And I'm pretty sure anyone who sees us understands that. I just wish...

I don't know.

   posted by Bald Jason at 08:16 PM
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