Sunday, December 2, 2001

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Boys & Girls

So I sent this boy flowers on Friday, & he got them & he finally called me. I actually met him a month ago, outside of a bar; we never made it inside. I've never been much of a TOP - I just never felt I was that good at it... but this boy - he takes me so easily it's like fucking a girl - only I have no troubles performing, with him. lol It's neat ;-0)

arg.

Got E-Mail from Kelli this morning asking about Jennifer & Tracey; I wonder: does this mean trouble's a foot?

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Hexedene

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Breaking Out

Arg. My face is breaking out - like all over!?! I don't know what that's about... It isn't helping anything.

So the more I think about this boy I've been seeing the more confused I get. He says that I'm mean...he says that over & over so why is he with me? He says I'm the best lover he's ever had & that he loves my dick; he goes on & on about my dick & how he likes big ones; size queen much? Anyways - I think he's just using me for my body. I don't worship the ground he walks on so I don't know if this should bother me or not... I guess I just think that if we're just fucking to fuck - we should drop any pretext of a relationship & just get together & screw. Otherwise we're just headed for doomsville... & that would be a shame because he's right - the sex is awesome.

Well... I'm going to attempt to get dressed, go to Borders & then get groceries, as I have none.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Blue Oyster Cult

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   Monday, December 3, 2001

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Still Awake...I think

I got the groceries yesterday, & I bought a companion book to Misty Lackey's Valdemar/Velgarth books, which is pretty kewl. I watched some tv (Enterprise, Justice League, & Alias), read some, & went to sleep. I slept for maybe half hour & woke up with the feeling that I was going to die. This has happened 4 times in recent memory - I don't know where these thoughts are coming from, but is really odd. I thought I'd pretty much dealt with the whole Death thing years & years ago... so to have these wacky fears pop up out of nowhere is pretty strange.

I'm getting tested for HIV again tomorrow (though I won't have the results for like 2 weeks) & no, I don't think these things are related. I'll be in Adrian for the tests, so I'll most likely hang out with my sister Janice, & her 3 kids; I really love them.

After I woke up, I went downstairs for a snack & watched some more tv - caught up on some Alias that I had missed & finished watching THE HOUSE OF YES. I've seen it a couple times & I love it... Parker Posey is so kewl.

"It's like fucking a mirror."
"Anthony just said fuck."
"Yes, I heard."
"Fucking a mirror...that sounds painful."

gotta luv it.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: New Order "1963"

   posted by Bald Jason at 03:39 AM
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My brother in law is a dick.

Arg. I went to Adrian today, to get my latest HIV test & I stopped by my sister's house to see her & her family. My brother-in-law who I don't see very often was there. He asked me why I was in Adrian & I told him I was there to get an HIV test & he was like: "So you have AIDS now?" !?! What the fuck!?! I tried not to rip his head off, as this would piss off my sister, so I calmly said that, no, I was fairly certain that I didn't have AIDS & I then asked him if he had AIDS, to which he got very upset & probably would have struck me if my sister wasn't smiling at my response. ASSHOLE.

arg.

the test went fine - I'll get my results in 2 weeks & get tested again, as some of my recent activity may not appear on this test.

So...that's about the it.

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Nina Simone

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   Tuesday, December 4, 2001

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la la la la la

My friends Mollie & Adam came over tonight to spend time with me which was so much fun ;-) We played Aliens Vs. Predator I & II, which is always fun for me & releases all sorts of emotion. lol I don't play many pc games... But when I do, it is always fun to play against Mollie because she makes me laugh so much.

We watched the most recent Buffy episode, "Wrecked", as Mollie & Adam hadn't seen it yet, & they watched Ally with me, since I needed to tape it.

I love watching Ally with my roomie (who still isn't back from visiting with his brother), because he laughs a lot during it, & I don't think that Mark finds much in the world to laugh about. He called me earlier & said that he & his brother were at a theater & were going to see The One.

Anyways... not much to tell...

Things seem swell.

Except that my eyebrow piercing is never going to heal & the spot on my arm where the nurse drew blood still hurts.

arg.

Current Mood: rejuvenated
Current Music: Cibo Matto

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   Wednesday, December 5, 2001

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Wacky

I'm working on this CD for an ex-bf of mine. His name's Trav & he just graduated from Navy Bootcamp; the cd is kind of closure... but I'm tired & I feel like doing something crazy... but the only wild things in my life lately are my crazy thoughts. arg. How I have fallen...

Current Mood: weird
Current Music: Linkin Park

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