Saturday, January 1, 2005

First day of 2005. nice. I did nothing for New Year's Eve, as is my custom. Mark wished me Happy New Year at about 3 after midnight & I went in & kissed him, but then I was back in my room.

I was looking for Robin Slashy Fan Art online, when I got a call from Shawn Foreman; drunk; happy; contemplative. He & Jonathan have an apartment in Hillsdale now, and they had a few people over for the holiday. Shawn wants us to hang out & he thought that I was freaked out about seeing him before. But I was actually freaked out that I wasn't freaked out if that makes any sense. I'm not attracted to him anymore, which...is odd. I recognized his voice right away though, and that does still give me chills, because it's SHAWN. lol He wants the CD's I've been working on, which is nice, though I don't know when I'll actually be finished with them. I have most everything recorded, but I've been putting off mixing them, and I don't have access to a working printer so I haven't done the covers. Also, when I listen to what has been recorded...I think it's honest, and powerful, but it's also...crazy; naked crazy. And it's all about things that don't apply any longer, and how I came to this place, and I don't want it to start something dramatic when there's no need, you know? And yet, I always intended to give him a copy; it would seem dishonest to not do so, and I have a hard time keeping stuff from him, which I actually love.

Anyways, Shawn called and it was a nice surprise, though it may have been better if he were sober, though I'm not sure exactly. The last time I heard him that drunk was a party at his & Lynn's shack. I really do like him & Jonathan together, now that I've met him, and I hope Jonathan will like me eventually too, though I guess I freaked him out before. I'm always too direct; it freaks people out a bit. Damn.

So after that I called Mollie & Laurie to wish them a happy new year. Then I continued with my search for slashy Robin pix, but I found slash stories instead which are usually fun. I found a site with Flash/Batman stories, which I never really thought of as a hot couple, and yet...they so are. lol I'm so insane. But the stories were hot. Here's a link to them.

I slept till about 2pm; Mark woke me up. We were going to go see Series of Unfortunate Events today, but I don't really feel like going, so he's gonna see Blade 3. And here I sit.

   posted by Bald Jason at 04:40 PM
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I took a shower with Mark; I'm feeling a bit better. Listening to One Man Army by Our Lady Peace. I told Mark about the Justice League Slash & he said he could never get into it, because he could only see the characters as cartoons, and would be imganing the voice actors recording their dialouge: "Oh Yeah! Right There!". lol

Mollie & I might do something later. I should see if my e-mail is fixed so I can reply to whatever has arrived. I wanted to give Carrie a Trek tape today, but Mark doesn't have the "motivation" to set it up for me, and I have no clue what has to be done. bitch. lol Anyways...

Maybe I'll get some more work done on Shawn's CD's; the call last night left me motivated. Maybe I won't ever be finished with them; I'm never going to be completely happy with them; I keep tweaking them. Hopefully, they will one day be heard, and understood as the desperately needed tool that I once required, which served it's purpose and allowed me the freedom to love friendship, as much as I once did.

I've got to get out of here. lol

   posted by Bald Jason at 05:23 PM
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