Wednesday, March 2, 2005

I didn't go to City Club Saturday after all; I went to Mollie's house to hang out with her & Carrie; they're so excited about Las Vegas. I went to Factory Night at Necto Monday night though, which was amazing, really. I know I should go more often; it clears my head. Goth music is sexy; that's something I've always known but I don't think I've ever expressed to anyone; it's very sexual, but without being repellant like the shit they play on Pride night. There were two girls there who were so fucking hot, I almost drooled; watching them dance next to me...they weren't together, but on either side of me; they were just amazing. I hit on a guy, who I'm pretty sure was straight, but he was just too delicious for words! He took it well, with a smile, a thank you, and a nice blush. All & all it was a great night, back in my element - I really should go again this coming Monday.

I have to work today, maybe I should get some sleep. I should work on my webpage, but I don't really feel like it, so I'm not going to. I should catch up on my e-mail, but I don't feel like that either, at least not tonight. God, I'm so fricking horny; I haven't had sex in months, and I haven't jacked off in days, but this tension is actually hot in & of itself... Everything's more sensitive; evernthing is more intense; it's like a drug, I think.

I'm listening to Assemblage 23's "Naked", the God Module Remix, which I'm pretty sure I've never heard before... I like it. I've been listening to Tori Amos for most of the last week or so; her new CD should arrive at my door on Thursday, along with the new Antony & The Johnsons cd, which I'm really looking forward to hearing. Paul got me hooked on Antony when I visited his San Francisco apartment for Halloween 2000.

There's a new ALIAS on tonight; I let my friend Carrie borrow the first 2 discs of Season 1 a few weeks ago, and I started watching from the 3rd disc so I could talk to her about it; I just gave her the rest of season 1 the other day, and I'm half way through season 3 which is a lot better this time around then when it originally aired. It's a great show; I hope it lasts; all my other tv shows seem to be dying off. As it is, I watch ALIAS, JLU & Enterprise; and Mark downloads The L Word for me every week. That's really all the television I watch, and Enterprise will soon be over. A few years ago Buffy ended, then Angel was cancelled. I guess it's not that big a deal, but I feel like my brand of television is passing away for a new generation of reality tv bullshit. blah!

I updated my gay.com profile pix earlier, which was oddly enjoyable. God, this song really rocks; I'll have to request it on Monday ;-0) I was thinking of making a mashup cd for Shawn Forman the other day, just for fun, but then I realized that I don't know his address anymore. Wacky.

Alright, I'm gonna end this so I can dance around my bedroom, naked ;-0)

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   Saturday, March 5, 2005

So I was just at the Aut Bar again; it wasn't leather night this week, that's only on the last Friday of the month, which is fine since I was in vinyl ;-0) I saw Rusty Parker, and chatted with him for awhile; he always has such crazy stories to tell me, and in far too much detail. Maybe that's how others feel about me though, so I laugh and I listen. lol

I was about to leave, feeling...out of sorts, like I was clashing with the entire environment, and then my new friend Andre introduced me to his friend Jason "Kap" who is 31, born in 73, lives in Romulus, works for Washtenaw County, and I, we...I think we were clicking; it felt really good. I don't ever end up dating people around my age; it just never, ever works out; there's always something, and this time was no exception, but before I found out what that something was he had pretty much stated that everything I said was interesting; he said my eyes were sexy, and then after talking to me said that my eyes weren't the only things that were sexy, and he was handsome, and I was hot for him in ways I haven't felt in so long that I'd thought that I had stopped feeling that way, period. I undressed him in my mind, and while our eyes were constantly locked, smiles & laughter & conversation - I was imagining being with him; rimming him, kissing him, and I was so fucking hard for him. He asked if I was seeing someone, but then remembered that I had said I was 'very single', and when I inquired where his boyfriend was, he revealed that his boyfriend was in Turkey. ;-0(

So...they were leaving & I left; I just met this great guy, who has a very lucky boyfriend, and I knew I wasn't going to meet another guy like that at the bar tonight; besides, I'm kind of still buzzed on him; I don't really want to think about anybody else right now. I don't do 'married guys' but I can jack off thinking about them just fine. ;-0)

He said he'd check out my webpage; I hope he does.

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I slept a lot today, which was great. I watched the extras from ALIAS Season 3 and laughed a lot. I listened to the new Antony & the Johnsons CD, and the new Tori Amos one as well. As I was drifting off to sleep, I was processing all the stuff I've watched, read, & done this week, and I found an apparent flaw in the ALIAS storylines, which has me kind of pissed off cause I was really enjoying it, and I don't really think they can fix it. Blah.

I wrote a poem for the guy I met last night, and I realized I had no clue how to spell his name, so I looked it up online; there was an e-mail address there so I e-mailed him a link to the poem; hopefully this doesn't anger him, or scare him; I just think, that when you write about someone, they should know what you've written; it's as simple as that. I don't know why I would write him again, unless he replied with a question or something like that. And it only took me one search on google to get his name, e-mail & phone #; and I didn't even bother to write down the # since I have no need of it. Erg. I'm paranoid I guess; I don't want him to think I'm stalking him. Of course if he goes to my webpage, then he'll know a hell of a lot more about me, then I do about him, so maybe that will make him feel better.

I have to return my movies to Hollywood Video today; and I was hoping to not go there until work tomorrow. Whatever. I'm going to Vegas. ;-0)

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   Tuesday, March 8, 2005

I'm bored. I didn't go to Necto last night; the persistant cough I've had the last few weeks was a little worse today than it has been recently, and the temperture dropped outside, making me less than thrilled to leave the condo. It's just as well; my book got really good, and I finished it off; it had a horrible cliffhanger ending; probably have to wait until next year at the least to see how that one turns out.

So I'm sitting here, with nothing to watch or read or play or... I'm not tired. I'm thinking I should get something to eat.

I have today off, but I don't seem to have any plans. hmmm. I don't think I'll have the car today though; which sucks, but I'll survive.

Why am I whining?

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   Wednesday, March 9, 2005

I ended up (happily) watching the Criterion Collection edition of My Own Private Idaho, on DVD this morning, which rocked. It was one of the first gay themed movies I ever sought out on my own, and it has remained a cherished film of mine over the years. I actually hadn't seen the film in at least 4 years; my vhs copy wore out, and I decided I would wait for the dvd release, but little did I know how long that would actually take.

I slept today. Very nice. My days off are all about the sleeping lately; maybe because of this damned cough.

Tonight I learned the basics of Black Jack; these gambling games seem to be more about watching my friends play, than the actual games themselves; I would never go to Vegas (or any other casino ridden place) alone; it would be pointless for me. I had fun tonight though, and when I got home I had the best orgasm. Being single is turning me into quite the bottom; these toys are fun! ;-0)

I work today. Alias is on tonight. I long for this cough to end, and the weather to improve, so that I can go to Bowling Green for goth night on Wednesdays; at least once in a while; it's always fun, and I usually see people I know, or meet some new ones.

I need a new book to read. Or maybe an old one. I could jump into the Star Wars books; get pumped for the final movie... Or I could reread the Harry Potter books - get ready for the 6th one. I don't really feel like either one though. Maybe I could actually read something that isn't geeky. Probably not, but I'm not ruling anything out at this point.

I'm off.

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   Tuesday, March 15, 2005

I went to Necto tonight, but I didn't end up dancing much; mostly chatted with friends (Dolly, DJ Dan, Vince & Sandor); I haven't talked that much with Sandor in the last few years, and he was really drunk so lots of things were discussed that I didn't expect. wacky. He's in a band; anyone reading this might want to check them out at http://www.electrophile.org. Too bad I'm not his type; he's a cutie, and I actually wrote a poem about him years ago, before I even knew him. I'll have to track that down, because I'm pretty sure it's not even on my webpage. hmmm.

I'm sitting here, naked except for my jewelry, my socks & a whole lot of eyeliner. lol Oh - and that damned bar bracelet thing they put on me at the door. blah.

The new Star Wars movie looks awesome. Sin City, Batman Begins, and the Ring Two are also on my radar, but I seldom go to the theater these days. We'll see if I actually make it out to any of those.

I'm so fucking horny right now. And I'm kind of...sad. I don't want to be one of those people that whines about being single, but lately I've been so horny, and I just don't like anyone enough to fuck them, you know? Sandor said he would make out with me (lol) but he has a boyfriend, and there's no good there. Plus he's disgusted that I once made out with Dorian; I imagine many people are. If only I didn't have a memory sometimes. lol

Oh, some guy recognized me from meeting me 2 years ago at City Club; apparently he'd been to my webpage; he said it was hot. hmmm.

I wonder what Shawn is up to? I do that a lot. Actually, I've been thinking lately that I haven't talked to anyone from that...group(?) lately. Hmmmmmm.

Oh, and if I wasn't geeky enough; I just read about the next 10 episodes of JLU, and they sound freaking awesome! ;-0) I'm just so incredibly lame. lol Which is fine with me, actually. blah blah blah. I need to take a shower. Or possibly masturbate.

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My throat feels swollen; I think I've caught a new virus. Yay! Only so not. I'm supposed to go to Vegas a week from Wednesday, and I can't really cancel, and going would... Ok. I'm a bit stressed out about this; I have a hard time planning things, because they never happen the way that I plan, so I prefer to not plan things; in cases like a trip or something I have to plan for them, which annoys me beyond the telling of it. blah. today sucks. I'm gonna take lots of vitamin C, and try not to worry about this.

blah.

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   Friday, March 18, 2005

I hate the President of the United States. I can't stand the man. Seperation of church & state; there's a reason why that is meant to exist. Of course equal gay rights are going to be found in the courts; if equal rights for African Americans depended on a majority rule - they'd still be sitting on the back of the bus. The constitution is meant to protect minorities; not used against them. I fricking can't stand this bullshit.

And what makes it worse; and really truly horrible, is I know that most of my family voted for Bush; I even think that one of my close friends did, and it rips me apart; how could they do this to me? How could they love me, and put me through this nazi bullshit? Of course the Michigan vote didn't go to Bush, but just the thought of someone I know being that ignorant, kills me.

So, if you seperate religion from the equation, what exactly is so threatening about people getting married? I don't understand what the fuss is about? I really, truly don't. I do wonder why married people get special rights though. Everyone should have equal rights, even if they're single.

And I'm tired of news programs and the like saying: "Well a gay man was arrested today." - or whatever, when they don't say "A heterosexual man was arrested today." Or "A white man was arrested today" - you never hear those. blah.

I'm just disgusted with this country - maybe the world.

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I'm tired, and I'm cranky. I don't have any food; I was going to go grocery shopping after work, but Mark isn't feeling well, so we skipped the store. He turned on the heat in the car, and I was so warm I wanted to put down the windows (before the heat) - but I tried to tough it out. I told him I was going to bed when I got home, and that I'd like it if he didn't turn the heat on at home (I wanted to turn the air conditioning down low, but didn't expect that would be happening) - he said ok, or something to that effect, but here we are & the heat is blaring, instead of the cool air that drives me to sleep, which is going to leave me tossing & turning, and my cough, which had subsided has returned, and my eyes hurt, and 13 years ago tonight I slashed my wrists & ended up in a hospital with a bunch of wacky people who are mostly dead now.

erg.

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   Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Going to Vegas tomorrow. Had a horrible headache the last 24 hours, but it's fading now (I think) thanks to cough medicine. blah. I'm doing laundry; finally packing and all that stuff, in a much better mood than this morning. I talked to Shawn, Mark & Janice on the phone; Janice said the kids ask about me, and want to visit the condo again, which made me smile. I told her to tell the kids I said I loved them (in case the plane crashes). It was nice.

I'm still kind of dizzy. I should get back to it. Listening to tunes while I clean up. Oh - Shawn is listening to Radiohead? lol Nice. I made a Radiohead music video once; I wonder if he remembers; probably not. I'm listening to random music; Melissa was just on, and now A Flock Of Seagulls.

My gay movie shelf is full; I need a new shelf. lol I hope the headache is really gone. Well... I'm off.

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I feel like everything will be fine, which maybe means that it won't be. lol 13 years; it's crazy. No wonder I don't remember them so clearly; just in bursts & random sparkles. I think the trip will be fun, but I kind of wish we were on our way home already, and laughing about how much fun we had.

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   Thursday, March 31, 2005

So the Vegas trip was alright; I wasn't feeling that well during most of it, but I managed to have some fun. The Star Trek Experience, was mostly lame, but the rides were fun, and I have wacky stuff from the trip. I just mixed in some Vegas pix in the Assorted Jason Pix sections; we didn't take nearly as many pictures as we had hoped to, but that's ok. The trip is all kind of a blur now. I drank more than usual while I was there; all alcohol is free if you're gambling and I played the slots quite a bit. I put a quarter in one slot machine & won $20.00; which was fun, and on my first try I won playing the Price Is Right slot machine; I put a dollar in that machine and won $10.00. Mark did really well, and I'm so glad that he had fun. I got a lot of rest while I was there, which was the point I guess. I didn't get to go clubbing though; and I wish I'd gotten to see the wax figure of Buffy, and also Thunder Down Under ;-0)

Work has been fun since my return.

Been having a debate with some ignorant Trek fans online, but was surprised to see some of my favorite Trek authors take up the argument, and compliment me on my post, which rocked. Roar. ;-0)

I need to catch up on my e-mail; I don't seem to have any energy today. I need to clean the condo, and get ready. I need to take back my movies tonight, and maybe hit Common Language. Maybe Mark & I will watch some Enterprise later...or maybe the Clone Wars. hmmm.

Still haven't heard from Shawn. Hope he's ok.

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