Monday, May 2, 2005

Not much has happened since Wedneday. My health has continued to improve, with a smattering of random coughs being the only lingering sign of what was, last week, a very annoying illness.

I talked to my friend Paul, who lives in San Francisco; he's coming to visit his friend Michelle, who is getting married again, in a few weeks. He should be here May 18 - May 24; he wants to hang out, and maybe see Episode III. On a side note, Paul & I both went out with Michelle's first husband, Dean. My life used to be such a soap opera. lol It will be good to see Paul; he even mentioned he might be able to bring me to the wedding as his date. lol That would be amusing, though I have no idea when the wedding is per say, or if I work.

Mark's twin brother, Marcus was fired from his job of 7 years; he & his wife just had a baby; this pisses me off more than I can say! But he makes a fairly good sized amount of money from some software that he designed, and he'll be able to collect a good sized unemployment, so maybe he'll be ok. Maybe he'll find a better job, and get to spend a lot more time with his new son. That's what I'm hoping for anyways. ;-0)

I've been working on my D.C. Animated Universe character guide, and I believe I'm done with Justice League, as it is at this moment in time. I wish the 3rd Batman Boxed set would be released NOW, but I've only got about 24 days before it arrives, and I'm sure I have more productive things to do in that time.

I'm still single. Still not having sex. And it's still ok. But it's still kind of odd too. And I wouldn't mind meeting an interesting guy right around now. One who is not taken, and who is not going to intrigue me right away, and then disappear just as fast as he arrived. But I can wait. Apparently, I can wait. My hand's getting quite the workout though...

Mark e-mailed me some links to stuff he wanted for his birthday; a subtle form of blackmail. "Get me one of these things or else!". I feel bad that I didn't get him anything for his birthday, but I suck at birthdays. I used to tell everyone I knew that I didn't do birthdays; I would even give them something small, but meaningful the day before, or after, maybe to selfishly set myself apart? I don't know; I want to connect with people, and giving them something they want, seems...lame somehow. Like it's too easy. Like it lacks depth. So I've kept my eyes peeled for something more impressive. I thought maybe a cd, with poetry and the like, which I do have started, but I've been so uninspired in that arena as of late, that nothing has really come of that. I don't know. When people give me things that I want, I tend to find it anti-climactic, but maybe I'm just really weird. Mark gave me the most amazing birthday party last year, and the gifts that I got weren't anything that I could have wished for, and were therefore, welcomed. Just seeing everyone together was enough for me, actually; that was the thing that still haunts me... And the thing that finally destroyed my friendship with Darla, at least at my end; but that's another story; one that I still don't feel like telling.

Back to Mark, he made me some chocolate chip cookies yesterday (without the chips, which I can't have), from scratch, but they ended up just tasting like sugar cookies. I've been trying to not eat as much crap lately; trying to eat a little more healthy, but I tried one of the cookies, and I didn't really like it. I did like the effort though (it was sweeter than the cookies themselves); but something kept us from connecting, I think... I don't know what it is lately, but we seem distant, somehow. I should set aside some time for us.

So I'm awake, and showered, and Mark needs to be at work soon. Maybe I'll drive him, and then visit my sisters, or Mollie & Carrie, or...I should take Dad some clothes; I washed them for him, but then I was so miserable last week that I didn't want to leave the house at all. We'll see. I actually feel kind of tired. And I have no idea what today may bring.

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   Thursday, May 5, 2005

Something's going on with my face. There's this red spot that's appeared in the last few days, but it's not scary red; it's not a scary AIDS lesion kind of thing. Probably just one of those things you get at around the age of 30, that my doc mentioned to me once. I had a similar spot on my face once, but it was worse, and I was going to have it removed, but then it went away on it's own. This new spot isn't half as bad as the previous one; it's just reddish; but it would be nice if it went away on it's own.

There's a big bump on the back of my head, that I've had for a few years now; it still annoys me, & I cut myself more when I shave around that area, because it wasn't there for years & years, and my hands/brain are still having trouble dealing with the spot. Apparently it's completely normal for someone my age; it's fluid, and many, many people get these kinds of bumps on their scalps, but they have hair to hide them, and many people aren't even aware that they themselves have them. It doesn't make me look freakish or anything; it's just...annoying. lol They said I could get rid of it, and I still might; they said it could possibly leave a scar though, which is fine with me; I think scars are sexy.

A week from Friday the last 2 episodes of Enterprise will air, and Trek will, in effect, be dead to the world. It's not really dead; novels & games & conentions will follow; but next season will be the first time season without Trek in 19 years; crazy, isn't it? That's not necessarily a bad thing; but Enterprise was really kicking ass in the last 2 seasons. blah.

I slept last night, instead of watching ALIAS; Mark & I will watch it before next week's episode, I'm sure. I preordered the 3rd Batman Animated Boxed set the other day, and I got Mark one of the gifts that he asked for, but it turned out to not be what he thought it was; he said he still liked it though, because it was from me. I also got the new NIN (which is a lot like old NIN, which is kind of sad; like time bassed Trent by, and he didn't necessarily notice; only he did, according to one of the tracks), and the score to Episode III, which was spoiler heavy all on it's own; lots of Episode IV cues to bridge the saga ;-0)

I got a message from Jennifer a few hours ago, which she left long before, suggesting we hook up Friday night, so we can spend some time together, before she moves to Seattle. I almost always refer to Jennifer as my ex-gf. In truth, we only dated a few weeks, if that, though our flirtation lasted much longer. We've been friends for a decade, but I refer to her as my ex, because she's like this trophy that I hold up, and say - see that girl - she went out with me! ;-0) She's only 9 days older than me; both of us Leos; both of us children of crazy people; both of us, unlucky in love. And both of us lucky to have known each other. I'm going to miss her.

In my April 21 entry in this very blog, I talked about my new friends Solomon & Janella, and I mentioned that I used to be hot for Solomon, but that those feelings changed once I learned he was married to Janella; and I let it be known that I was happy with those changes. Then I didn't hear from Solomon or Janella for awhile. I wrote Solomon an e-mail, but got no reply, and I called Janella on the phone from work on Sunday night, but didn't have time to really talk with her, though she thanked me for the call. But a short while ago, I checked my e-mail, to find an e-mail from Solomon, with a link to a post on his blog, which very nearly made me cry (in a good way).

Now I have to share that with everyone I know :-0) Thanks Solomon. I hope all is well with you & yours; hope you & Janella are still enjoying the Buffyverse, and that we can hang out sometime soon. Maybe we can go bowling; my friends enjoy bowling, and you could meet them ;-0)

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I wish there was a way I could post all the slash art I've collected over the years, here on my webpage, without being hounded by the companies that own the characters there depicted. I also don't really keep track of who the artists were, though I invariably thank them for their efforts when I find them online. My favorites are ones of superheros; or Star Wars, or Lord Of The Rings (as if it wasn't queer enough), and I just wish I could share those with everybody.

I'm sucking on a Robitussin Sunny Raspberry vitamin C supplement; one of a dozen wacky things I bought when I had that terrible cold; their yummy, and they're a good source of vitamin C (probably), so I'm enjoying them.

I need to drive Mark to work so I can get some vitamin e oil, which Mark says may help with the unfortunate blemish that is jumping up & down on my once proud visage. I also want to pick up some Nair For Men, not to use on my head, but I've been thinking of getting rid of everything else. I used to shave everything from 1994-2000, but then stopped when I noticed how much I enjoyed the body hair of a boy I dated, and decided to give it a go. I'm tempted to get rid of my eyebrows too, but I like to pencil them black, and I missed them horribly when I used to shave them when they were pierced, so perhaps I won't go that far. I should also drop off some clothes for my Dad; I've been procrastinating about that one; the idea of going there just makes me nervous.

I'm seeing Mollie tonight, at least briefly; I have to return our 'haul', and present her with her long delayed birthday present of ZIM.

I so need to get dressed now.

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