Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Mark, Mollie & I went to see Kevin's grave on Saturday, just as we planned. We went to Shawnathan's house, and waited with Jonthan for Shawn's siblings (Becky & Lee) to arrive, since they apparently, wanted to go as well. I hadn't seen either one of them since August 2003, and while I'd seen Becky several times before that, it was the only time I'd met Lee, and he was very drunk at the time. He eventually remembered me, and I enjoyed talking to him about Buffy & other wacky things.

Kevin's head stone is awesome! His picture is on it, and a poem that I'm pretty sure Jason Lyons wrote, or at least read at the funeral, is carved on the back. The whole thing made me smile. Mollie brought flowers, and we took some video & pictures then headed out for some food. We all got along famously. It was great, but it was weird not having Shawn around, and I wish he could have been there too.

After food & conversation, and a completely clueless waitress, I got McDonald's fries and we all met up back at Shawnathan's to watch my wacky videos (circa 1998-2000) which Jon had wanted to see. They held up remarkably well; considering I only had two crappy vcrs, and a decade old stero to work with when they were created. I hadn't watched them in years so it was kind of odd watching them again, with people around.

Laurie apparently called before I arrived back at their place, and said she was maybe moving back to Michigan in August, and that I should call her right back, so I did, but she didn't answer her phone; she never does. I hope she's ok. We're all super worried about her now.

After we left, we stopped at Walmart to see Shawn, but after he was paged twice & still hadn't shown up, we called Shawnathan's house only to get the machine, so I'm not exactly sure what happened there. We were all really tired though, so we just headed on home.

I slept some in the car, and before drifting off to sleep in bed I watched "Girls Kissing" which I would consider a grade A documentary for a college assignment, but something that could use a little more work if it was to be released to the public... But it wasn't horrible either. I slept well.

On Sunday, after thinking about a lot of what was said the day before, out in Hillsdale, and seeing Lee & Becky, and the videos and all that stuff, I took another look at the tracks I'd finished for Shawn's CD's, and I think the ones I've got so far are amazing! I know I want to finish this project now, but when I was warming up to record stuff, Mark let me know that his brother Marcus was coming over, with his wife Julie, and their new baby Nick. I set aside the CD stuff, and got dressed, and had a very nice visit with M, J & N ;-0) We played Euchre, and talked, and they waited to go out to eat, until I left for work around 6:45pm.

Work was dead on Sunday. I had pizza for lunch again, and it was really good. I watched AbFab on my break. I got sent home a half hour early because we were so empty, and everything was done at work. I slept at night again; I've been doing that a lot lately.

Monday morning I waited for Mark to leave for work so I could start recording stuff for Shawn's cd's but Mark wasn't feeling so hot, and he called in, which (selfishly) annoyed me because nothing was going my way. I set the cd stuff aside again. The thing is, when you're in the mood to record you have to just do it, or the moment dies. And the moment came & went, and is gone. I'm still going to work on the project, but I'll do more planning type stuff, in hopes that once I have that squared away (and it could be a long while before it is) that the final recording phases will follow soon after.

Mark eventually went to work in the afternoon, and I got a call from Carrie, inviting me to join her, Mollie & Adam for a game of badminton in their back yard. I had to wait for Mark to get home from work, which he stayed late for, but we were all ready to play around the same time, and had a lot of dorky fun. ;-0) I was sweating like crazy, and drove home with my shirt off, and had a very nice shower at home. And then went to bed early yet again, did some reading, before falling asleep around 11:30pm, and woke up at 7:50am or something like that.

I don't know why I've been sleeping at night lately. It doesn't really bother me though. I mean; my sleep patterns have always been odd, but if I sleep when I'm tired, and I get enough rest, then that's all that matters to me.

I drove Mark to work because I needed more prilosec, which I bought at Kroger, and then I came home and wrote this. Which was a lot to write, since I've skipped the last few days. I don't really have any plans for today, except the cd stuff, and that suits me fine.

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   Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Yesterday I watched "Straight-Jacket & "D.E.B.S." which were both adorable. I organized some cd stuff, and went places, but it was all too boring to recount here.

Today I've finished up the 5th season of Ab Fab, and I believe it's finally time to work out again. ;-0) What the fricking hell is wrong with me today?

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   Thursday, June 16, 2005

Hey, it's like 1:35am and I'm still awake (barely, but I am!). I was feeling hideous yesterday; blah blah blah... I went to gay.com which is never much of a help, though I tend to get hit on fairly often... I just... I don't know. It just isn't what I'm looking for, or something. But I met this guy (named Patrick), and we hooked up at Aut Bar to talk, and it was a boy that I'd actuallly met there a few weeks ago, whom I'd said hello to, and who had then disappeared. It went very well, I think, and he's very nice, very cute, and... it was good.

I met a guy named Ian tonight as well, who was very interesting. He's from overseas & he's 50 years old (I was thinking he was the same age as my Mother, but she's actually 55 this year). It was fun listening to him, and chatting. The Aut Bar is a really good place to meet interesting people sometimes, though at other times it's just dead.

Redcloud was there as well, which was nice. I don't actually think I've mentioned him before, but he's cute, and I like his voice; he's 27, and he's been out for 4 years, more or less. I think we might become friends.

Anyways, I'm really glad that I went out; the thing about working on these cds - they wear you out really fucking fast! They're very complicated, and they are beautiful when they are finished, but they are just so draining. Some parts, like the actual recording, can be incredibly uplifting, but the editing & planning can be killer.

Anyways. I had some fun, and now I really need to sleep.

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:43 AM
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