Tuesday, October 18, 2005

I can't express to you how broke we (Mark & I) are. We've been barely scraping by, but we weren't in serious trouble, exactly. And then yesterday, Mark found out that some random mistake he made when trying to save us $40.00 using his home business sent a credit card company out of whack and we now owe them $2100.00 that we don't have. No Car Payment. This Sucks. I need to get another job and I REALLY don't want one. I'll have to talk to DJ about getting more hours at Hollywood at the very least. This just really, really sucks.

I went to Necto on Friday, which was mostly lame. I relaxed on Saturday, which was fantastic! Sunday I closed at Hollywood, which was mostly fun; I only had one bitchy customer, and I didn't let her get to me, exactly. I've gotten a lot of random stuff done on my webpage, and in preperation for more changes there. And I've been extremely horny lately, which friends are saying is something we all have in common. weird.

So, we may sell the condo, and move into an apartment. If we sell the condo (which I love) then we can pay everything off, including the car, which means we'll basically have a clean slate, and a paid-for-brand-new-car. The idea is that we could save money on a lease and buy a house. That's just a radical plan, that we'll probably not be doing - but it's always there, just in case. I don't want to move. I don't want leave this place that I've lived in for 5 years; I have so many memories attached to this place - which I can't say about our old apartment - I wanted to leave that place. Sure, I have some amazing times there (mostly related to Mark), but when our boyfriend type relationship ended - it was just a good time to move. All my memories of Shawn are wrapped up in these rooms - I remember e-mailing him from this room, before I even had a bed.

I'm tired and emotional, and the things I'm trying to say, I'm not saying well. In fact I'm leaving out tons of things that I want to express, but can't seem to. I'm calling it a night.

   posted by Bald Jason at 03:03 AM
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   Thursday, October 20, 2005

I had a dream that Mark & I were having a 3some with this guy Jon that I know. It was odd because I'm not really attracted to Jon, but Mark & I were really getting off on fucking him; one in his mouth, the other in his ass - then we'd switch at random intervels - bareback. Weird, but hot.

I spoke to Matt (from Bowling Green) last night for awhile. I spent most of yesterday updating my webpage; putting more of my pix in order, and chatting it up on yahoo groups.

I work today. I'm almost out of food; I need to go grocery shopping, but I doubt I'll want to do that after work. Mollie is set to come over on Friday to watch Desperate Housewives, Season 2 with me. She called me, yesterday, after slipping while getting out of the tub and smashing her face on the counter. She's as clumsy as I am, but her scrapes tend to be worse than mine. There but for the grace of falling safes...

Anyways - I've got to finish getting ready, and get out of here.

   posted by Bald Jason at 11:58 AM
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   Friday, October 21, 2005

Work was a lot of fun yesterday; I worked with DJ & Jeff; Bryan stopped by in a retro brown 70's looking jacket; a new guy Pat started working, & I saw Ben before I left. I updated a bunch of stuff on my site, including a page about my collecting slash/fan/het art. I got to post 2 pix there, as the creator gave me permission! ;-0) I got even more pix in order, and I continued to update random bits of gothboy.com

I've been watching Voyager lately. It's not that it's improved, because it hasn't. But I think a lot of why I disliked the show is because of my memory. This isn't an excuse for the show's writers but I just think that most people that watch the show don't have a memory like mine. I think they watch the show and enjoy it because they don't remember the rest of the show in detail, and they don't understand that the writers are almost constantly contradicting something they've already written. DS9 actively fought against such crap. Every show has a few problems, but Voyager seemed determined to give us style over substance; new directions over established continuity. But if you just watch an episode here or there, and you just take it for what it is - it can be fantastic! Which makes me even more pissed off, because it could have been so much more than that! It's a great show if you just pretend that each episode is it's own seperate little Trek universe. lol Perhaps I'm being too harsh. I have enjoyed much of what I've seen, and it's been nice to be back in the Trek of things. And I think that Carrie might enjoy some of the episodes that I've enjoyed.

I slept pretty well this morning; more sex dreams; what's up with that? I'm not 14 anymore. Mark is picking Mollie up after he gets off work. Oh - Mark borrowed money from his parents to pay off the $2100.00 from his little mistake the other day, which means that instead of being desperately destitute, we are now just broke, which is...somewhat comforting. I knew that if Mark's parents had the money, they would lend it to him, because Mark has borrowed money from them in the past and he is very good about paying people back.

   posted by Bald Jason at 02:55 PM
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Just waiting for Mollie & Mark to get here. We're going to watch the first 4 epiosdes of Desperate Housewives (season 2). Well, Mollie & I are; I don't know what Mark is going to do, because he doesn't care for the show. Maybe we'll play a game later. Mark & I started collecting board games not that long ago. I wish Carrie was coming over too; we could play LOTR Trival Pursuit; or if Adam came too, we could play the Desperate Housewives game, though I haven't seen Season 1 as recently as they have, which gives them the advantage; it would still be fun ;-0)

I got a whole slew of new supehero pix today, but it was kind of exhausting in a effortless way. blah. But it will kick ass later! ;-0)

I've been posting in a lot of yahoo groups lately, and because of this (I think) my webpage is getting a lot of traffic; I wish I could have finished the overhaul before all these new peeps discovered the place, but I may never finish the overhaul, so I guess now is as good a time as any.

I think Mollie & Mark are here; I could be wrong; but I'm gonna go now anyways.

   posted by Bald Jason at 07:23 PM
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   Saturday, October 22, 2005

So, there was this little stand of forms at work, that allowed Hollywood Video people to get a discount at Sprint - I took one of the forms but can't see to find it; I tried to get another one on Thursday but they were gone. According to DJ they weren't all taken, but he wasn't sure where they were. DJ is awesome, but he has no memory for stuff that he tells you he's going to do; you have to remind him over & over again. I didn't think to remind him until after he was already gone. I called Bryan at Hollywood today to ask him about it and he said he'd check around for it, but it's likely that someone just tossed them, which would really suck, as any kind of daily savings like that would really help us out right now. Mark really wanted to get it taken care of today so he's pissy, and I'm upset, so today kind of blows.

My friends are going to Wiards Orchard tomorrow evening for fun times, but I can't go because I'm working. I'd take it off so I could join them, but we are so broke that I need to take all the hours that I'm given. It sucks too because while we've seen each other randomly over the last year, we haven't really gone places, and I'm jonesing for some together time in a non-home-non-theater setting in which there are many conversations and fun stuffs happening. ;-0( I might be able to join them after I get off of work, but it would be apartment based fun, which is nice too; it just seems like we never go do anything anymore - and I know it's because we're all broke, but I really miss it. We haven't gone to Cedar Point in nearly 5 years - which I can understand because our last trip nearly killed me. But we didn't do any of the wacky/lame/funny things we usually do; no LazerTag or trips to the cemetary. A few of us did go to Vegas in April, but I was so sick and uncomfortable that I wished I could have stayed home - I only toughed it out so that my friends could go and have a good time. We do have some great pictures & videos and stuff of that time - but I mostly just wanted to sleep while I was actually there. erg.

Anyways; I'll just have to make sure that we do more stuff together once we're less broke. Mark & Mollie have talked about taking the train to Chicago which seems like a reasonbly cool adventure. I bet Carrie, Karen & Adam would all enjoy that; maybe Kenny could go too - and Bryan & company. Hmmm. ;-0)

I want to be reading a good book. And I'm limited to the ones that I own, because I'm trying to save money (which I've been doing with some success!). I'm used to having a certain amount of money in the bank for emergencies and I don't currently have that, which troubles me. So I'm trying to at least get that back before I start buying stuff again; I might break down and buy a few things on my list that will cost a lot more if I buy them later, but I'm still not sure. There's a certain satisfaction in not spending money, though the urge to spend is great.

I have all these Star Trek books that I haven't read, which I want to read, but I'm having trouble choosing which one I should read. lol I'm so hopeless at making decisions like that; which my sister Janice used to love to comment on. I wish Janice lived in Ann Arbor. If she did I'd spend a lot more time with her & her family. I should plan a fun trip for us as a family.

I've been having an online e-mail exchange with this guy who found my website through a link in a yahoo message. He seems nice; he lives in California with his boyfriend, and they used to watch Buffy, Angel & Enterprise together. They watch Smallville too, though I never have. I told them all about me & Mark; maybe we'll all become great friends. Maybe we won't, but it's nice anyways.

I'm gonna have a snack or something; maybe call Janice, and think about train trips for everybody.

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