Sunday, January 1, 2006

Got home from the Shawn/Jonathan gathering a bit ago; it was mostly fun, though there were undercurrents of the S/J breakup. Shawn's brother Lee was also there. It was cool. I'm so dead tired, but it was fun seeing and speaking with Jonathan, and I had a really killer converation with Shawn just before we left. I don't have enough energy to say anything else though.

Happy New Year

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   Wednesday, January 4, 2006

Monday I slept. And then I cleaned. And cleaned some more. And then Mark got home and we cleaned some more. And then we wrapped presents and watched Dawson's Creek. And then we wrapped more presents. And then we cleaned some more. It was now Tuesday morning & I wasn't going to get any sleep, but I decided to take a nap, and woke Mark up at the right time to drive him to work - then fell asleep, only waking to find Mark saying he was taking the bus to work; what a sweetie. I got enough sleep, though not as much as I would like. I ate, and shaved and showered, and I was at the Hospital to meet Dad, Janice, Justin & Jordan about 5 minutes later than I planned, but with no troubles. We all came back to my place to open Justin / Jordan / Janice / Jerry / Dad presents, which was fun. I read Janice a letter I wrote her about gay history and how I wanted to share it with her, and then gave her 4 documentaries, and a book - which she didn't seem upset about - in fact she seemed surprised by a lot of things where I was concerned...it was nice. We had a fun, visit all around, and I took Dad back to the hospital, around 4pm, with Janice following me to the expressway so she wouldn't get lost.

In the car with Dad, he spoke crazy talk for awhile. But he had this moment of clarity where he expressed his deep regret about the way he treated my Mother when they were married; saying that he had been jealous of her previous boyfriends. It was nice to hear, but the sanity portion of the conversation was short lived, as he then talked about seeing a demon when he used to work at the paper mill (I have no idea where this Paper Mill is/was, but it seems all my older male relatives worked there at one point or another; some of them losing their fingers in the process). He also said that an angel resides within me, that goes by 2 different names: "Zo-Non" & "Octogon"; I told him that was nice. He also mentioned troubles in his youth that he refused to speak of in detail. It was classic Dad stuff; a bit mysterious; a little creepy, and oddly...comforting.

I took a 20 minute nap before going to pick up Mark from work who had a headache. He went right to bed when we got home, because he knew we were going to Grandma's house later to meet Jill, Jon, Janice & Brooke to give the kids we didn't see earlier their gifts. I slept for maybe 10 minutes, after watching the beginning of Lord Of The Rings. I got Mark up, and he said his headache had gotten worse, but when I asked him if he wanted to stay home, he refused. We got to Grandmas's maybe 7 minutes before Janice's group - and Mark got to see them open their presents, which they really enjoyed - and Jonathan especially liked his Spider-Man doll - I wasn't even sure he would know who it was...but hearing him call out for his "Piderman" really made me happy. And the way he's so protective of Jill, reminded me of me & Janice when we were little. I said goodbye to Janice and also told her about Dad's ramblings after we parted ways earlier and she said he'd said similar things to her as well. I later talked to Mom about what Dad had said. I was a little worried that it would upset her; she hasn't seen him face to face in at least 20 years, and usually hates any mention of him, but she seemed to take this well. It was nice to see everyone.

On the way home Mark was talking about how his headache was worsening, and he felt like he was going to throw up. I knew the sensations he was describing so well. I've had headaches like that almost my entire life - when others tell me they have a headache, I just assume they are experiencing what I am, but Mark said that he had never felt anything like this before, which made me realize that I've been suffering a lot more than some people, but it also made me realize I'm probably stronger because of it. It also, made me really worried about Mark. I got him home safe, and got him to bed in his dark bedroom, with a bucket, 2 bottles of water and 3 Midrin; 1 of which he lost when he was throwing up. He mentioned wanting bread, and I kind of felt like driving...so I went to get some groceries.

Before going to Kroger I went to Video Hut for porn. It was a completely random act. I just felt like going, and so I did. It was funny because these newbies and their fag hag wandered in, and they dissed everything while obviously not being able to take their eyes off of any of it; they weren't even looking at each other! lol I couldn't stop laughing at them. They were also absurdly young, and the 2 guys made me realize that I'm really not attracted to that many guys who are that age anymore. It's not completely out of the question, but it's increasingly rare for me to be attracted to someone that young - which is fine with me, actually. I rented some dvds, which I haven't watched yet, and headed to Hollywood for a moment, before hitting Kroker.

I talked to Mollie on the phone while I shopped; she was glad to have finally seen the end of Dark Shadows, but was still pissed that it ended where it did; we bonded. lol I told her about New Years & my day, and she mentioned that Karen was with her and that she has presents for me & Mark. She also said that she tried to convince Jonathan to move to Ann Arbor, which Jonathan mentioned to me too. The conversation was short, but Mollie sounded better than she has in at least a week.

After shopping, and dropping by Hollywood Video - running into Soloman & Janella at random, and Mike Pangborn - I headed home, and watched the rest of the first disc of Lord of The Rings, climbing into bed around 12:20am. I slept until 4:30am. Then I had a snack, and read the news, before writing this. I haven't heard a peep from Mark since I got home; I hope that he's ok, and that his headache is gone when he wakes up.

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   Friday, January 6, 2006

Work on Wednesday was very slow. DJ wasn't there, because his Grandparent had died. It was slow, but the day went by fairly quickly. Mark still had his headache so I stayed in my room and tried not to bother him. I watched "Three Dancing Slaves" which I enjoyed, though I wouldn't say I loved it. I watched some Buffy and later slept.

Thursday, I woke up late, but stayed late at work, which was fun. DJ borrowed Firefly from me, and is already watching Season 2 of Buffy; he really enjoyed "When She Was Bad", which is my favorite episode up to that point, so that was cool. I straighted the Star Trek section on video (it was in alphabetical order instead of chronological order. lol) And I talked to Jeef about Enterprise. After work, Mark & I went to Media Play again, as their going out of business sale was still on - but I went there to look at the books, and that section was cut off; darn it. We got some cool shirts, a poster, and two movies. We went to the party store for spoons & cups, then the storage unity for a minute, and then home. I fooled around in my room for an hour or two, and then Mark & I watched the last 3 episodes of 4th Season Dawson's Creek, which was nice.

I went to bed around 5am, and woke up around noon. I have to be at work at 1pm; Mark is picking me up soon. I'm eating and then I have to get ready. Before sleeping last night, I played some games, and read a Star Trek Book. I work today, then have Saturday off, then close Sunday, then have Monday & Tuesday off, work Wednesday, then have Thursday off, work Friday, then have Saturday off.

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