Thursday, February 2, 2006

So I have a sty ("an Inflammation of one or more sebaceous glands of an eyelid) in my right eye again. I had one several months ago. They hurt, and are really annoying. The last one went away on it's own, which was good since I couldn't get in to see a doctor, because it didn't present itself until the weekend. Part of me is slightly worried about it, and part of me isn't worried at all, as I've been through this before, but what if it's different? One thing that isn't different is that I probably can't get a doctor's appointment before monday, as it's pretty late in the week as it is. Another thing that isn't different is that I don't have insurance. I was signed up to get insurance through my domestic partner, and his business was all for it, as I became his domestic partner on their very premises, and they all know me, but the insurance company gave my insurance a delay, when it didn't delay anyone elses. So my insurance, assuming they give it to me at all, doesn't kick in until April. This really pisses me off now. It annoyed me before, but now, when I probably need to see a doctor, and I don't have the cash for it - now I'm being screwed by the government. Michigan no longer recognizes domestic partnerships, though some businesses allow for them anyways (such as UofM), and Mark's company is willing, but that this is even an issue is just disgusting.

I was going to ask DJ about the schedule next week, and see if it's possible to get some time off late in the week, like Wednesday-Friday so Jonathan could come visit us. Mollie has Friday off, so if I did have to work that day, I could leave him with Mollie so they could bond ;-0) But if this eye thing doesn't clear up... erg. I do want to talk to a doctor about this problem, and I was going to bring it up at my next visit. I was going to talk about the sty I had, and how my father has them really bad, and ask if there was something preventative that I could begin; eyedrops or something. Erg.

I saw the new JLU yesterday; with the Legion of Superheroes, "Far From Home". I hope the new LOSH series in the works is a spinoff of this episode, because that would rock. And while continuity is a difficult thing, it's worth it, and would be so much easier in a series set a thousand some years after the last one. A few crossovers, and Supergirl's outlook on things, and you've got it covered! But as much as I want the new series to be part of the DCAU, and for the new Superman DTV to be part of it as well, I'm not holding my breath. But the new episode had some of my favorite Legion heroes; these are characters I knew nothing about 4 years ago, and only learned of through collecting slash art! Now I know them all by name, and their histories & stuff! See - porn is good! ;-0) The new episode also featured more precursors to Zeta. I wish I was one of those people who worked on the DTV story ideas, because I'd interject little ideas that could connect the shows even more than they are. It would be sweet to see a Zeta followup, in which he seeks the help of the Justice League Unlimited featuring Micron, Superman, Aquagirl, Batman Beyond, Warhawk, Barda Free, and Static - he'd relate the main story of the series, and the JLU would help wrap everything up. Maybe get a hand from Dick Grayson, and help explain why Zeta looks different on his show than he did in his first appearance on Batman Beyond. That kind of stuff goes on in my head all the time. lol

I wrote 12 new poems in January. That's over half of the number that I wrote in all of last year. And I got art finished for all of the poems this year too, which was not the case at all last year. I've got some extras finished, but I don't feel like writing right now; maybe later. I'm proud of myself for getting the art & poetry done though. I didn't realize how much I missed it. I was caught in a rut, poetry wise. But then I was thinking about how I used to write a lot, and what inspired me then, and that set me on my current course, which is a lot of fun, actually.

I should probably at least call work, and see if I can get tomorrow off. I have Saturday off, and I close on Sunday; perhaps my eye could clear up by then? I don't know. I get all wishy washy when I have call in. This has never been a problem for me at any other job - but this one, people depend on me, and they're people that I care about. My other jobs, I blew off work all the time. I've missed less work in nearly 4 years at this job, than I did in any one of the 3 years I did working at Meijer. I'm proud of that too.

I'm hungry. I'm gonna eat, and maybe watch an episode of ANGEL. Mark is picking Mollie up from work at 7pm, so she can come over and watch some Desperate-Together-Nip/Tuck episodes. Watching stuff is less fun though, when there are spikes inside your eyelids. But I don't want to miss seeing Mollie. I'll make the most of it. I want some raspberry poptarts, but I don't have any. And Mark has the car, which is fine, since driving might kill me right now.

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   Saturday, February 4, 2006

So my eye is almost completely healed. I got a really good night's sleep. I hung out last night with this cool guy I met on line. Not sex - just hanging out, by my request. I'll hopefully get to know him better, because he seems really cool.

Mark just left for his mom's for a visit, and he probably won't be back until late tonight, or early tomorrow. That means I don't have the car. Not sure what I'm going to do today. I'm going to watch at least 1 episode of Angel/Buffy. But I'm thinking about reorganizing a bunch of stuff, and maybe getting some art finished. I'm working on a poem; it's being written the way I used to write all of them, with planning and time. It used to be that I couldn't just WRITE; back in the day I had to plan everything out. Both methods offer impressive results; they're just very different.

I don't think I wrote this out the other day, because I wrote it all out in an e-mail, and didn't feel like writing it again...I still don't, so I'm just gonna cut & paste it - this was written yesterday morning in an e-mail to my boss (DJ):

My eye hurts a little less today (I think) but it's still all swollen. Mark brought Mollie over last night, and we watched some Nip/Tuck while I gave myself repeated warm compresses on my right eye. It mostly sucked because you take those things off your eye, and it's all wet and bleary from the warmth & the moisture, and the eye is already not the greatest.

(we actually watched 6 episodes of Nip/Tuck, and now Mollie is all caught up)

Mark fell asleep but Mollie really needed to get home - so in a fit of really poor judgment I said I'd drive her home. Nearly died. A couple times. Not only was my eye all screwy, but I was super-tired, and it was raining. Coming home I rolled the window down; the cold rain helped with the tired feeling (as did me singing at the top of my lungs) but the eye troubles persisted. I drove through town instead of
taking the express way - figured if I crashed this way, at least I'd
probably survive - plus the stops at lights & signs would give me a breather. It worked in that I made it home without killing myself, the car, or anyone else - but I went right to bed.

So I wanted to say I'm sorry that I'm not there for work today, but that it's really for the best. I just feel bad when I can't make it into work. Bright light screws up my squinty eye, so I've got the contrast on my monitor turned way down. Anyways - I hope work is dead today, and that
whoever covered my shift really wanted to work - and no one is put out at all.

And I'm hoping that Buffy/Angel continues to enthrall you ;-0)

Bald Jason
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By the time the sun went down on Friday, my eye was so much better...it was such a relief. I considered calling work and asking if I could work a shift today, but then remembered about Mark's trip, and me being without a car. I went to gay.com out of boredom and got chatted up by like 6 guys, including Sam. I ended up inviting this other guy over, who is just really interesting. He's young & OUT, and an artist, and extremely sexual, and he's got a hot voice, and a nice smile, and we had fun, without having sex. I really enjoyed myself, and it would be nice to hang out with him in the future; and if we just remained friends, I'd be fine with that, though I'd have to jack off alot, which isn't a problem per say. lol

I don't want to hang out near the computer too much; even though my eye looks almost completely healed, I can still feel how it isn't; just like I could feel it before it even looked bad. And I don't want my eye strained by looking at the computer all day. Maybe I'll go for a walk.

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I'm doing laundry, and reorganizing my closet. I'm going to work out later (really). I've decided I need to start working out more, and writing more; they seem burned together in my mind for some reason. Perhaps I'm crazy? lol My eye doesn't hurt, but it feels weird. I talked to Janice on the phone earlier. I'm thinking about getting in touch with my cousin Joy; I haven't had anything resembling a conversation with her in at least 9 years, and it would be interesting to me, to hear how her life has progressed, and see if we can be friends.

I'm sweaty; I've been dancing around my room. One of the things I've been thinking about lately is that I'd like to keep my energy up. If I can do it by sheer force of will, that would rock. lol Hopefully I don't stumble. We'll see. I haven't had a serious infusion of pictures on my webpage since last February, so I should probably have some pictures taken sometime soon, but I don't know what to do to make them different than the last ones; I don't like to repeat myself overly much.

I watched the Angel/Buffy episodes. I usually get sucked in and want to watch more, but today I kind of feel locked inside of myself. I don't want to get lost in the show or anything - I just want to exist with myself, if that makes any sense. Let's just say I've been inspired, and leave it at that. ;-0)

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   Sunday, February 5, 2006

I did work out yesterday. Later, while watching Buffy, Jennifer called me! She's going to be in town for a week starting February 18, and Mark & I are promised a visit!!! Yay! ;-0) I finished Buffy after the phone call, watched Angel, then went to sleep.

I did more crunches today, and I watched some more B/A. I wrote the rough draft of a poem for David, and I finished the artwork for it. I have no idea what my work schedule is like this week, but I hope to finish his poem (along with a few others) no later than Tuesday. After I get my schedule tonight, I'll know more. If I have Wednesday & Thursday off I'm going to see if Jonathan can come out those days, and stay for Friday as well; Mollie has Friday off and they can hang out. She's very excited about the idea.

I'm extra horny today. Need to finish up my never ending laundry; maybe take a short nap before work. I work 7pm - 12:30am. There should be 2 new JLU's this week (possilby 3) and then the DCAU will come to a close (for now). Blah.

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   Monday, February 6, 2006

Work was fun last night; I worked with Heidi & Andrea. We were kind of dead because of Superbowl Sunday, and we got everything done super early, but it was fun to work at Hollywood, and chat, and gossip, and some of my favorite customers came in: Solomon, Janella & Erich. It was a good time. It actually looks like Erich & I might end up being friends the way S&J have become close. Heidi actually told me that she really admires the way I just tell people what I feel & think, and that made me feel really good, because I wasn't always this way; I worked at it, and it's nice to get some positive feedback on your personal choices, you know? Oh, and we were listening to a mashup/goth cd, and this guy actually complimented the track that I made, so that was cool. ;-0) And I showed Heidi & Andrea the rough draft of David's poem, and they were really grooving on it; asking all sorts of questions about him; Heid commented it was cool that I had so many inside stories included, and Andrea said it was really Beautiful.

Erich and I talked for awhile, and I told him I want to meet his wife; she has to be good people. I also told him that I'd considered writing about him more than once, which he encouraged, which is cool. His band is playing Leopolds on Valentine's Day and he invited us to go. Also, he got a haircut; there was a discussion about flirting - and he ran into the wet floor sign on his way out, which was highly amusing. Also - he said college is highly overrated & that he was a hippie when he was there. lol I hope his wife is cool, and that we can all be friends. Hey, it worked with Janella, & Chris, and well, Jess & her guy (which is kind of the polar opposite of the sitch - in that I liked her) but still. I think I've proven I'm good with the friend thing ;-0)

I have some poetry to work on today. I get to do crunches & biceps today. New JLU later, but probably not until late; possibily not until tomorrow. I might call Grandma later, and try to get info to contact Joy. Might not. I called Jonathan last night, and let him know I have Wednesday & Thursday off, and that Mollie has Friday off - so if he wants to come hang out with us, I can get him a ride out here. Hopefully that works out.

I'm listening to covers. I like covers; hearing what different bands do with the same songs. Well...I'm gonna read the news, and then do something away from the computer for awhile; probably the workout thing. Have lunch, and then probably hit the poetry.

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Well I never made it away from the computer, as decided I needed to post on the toonzone forum about gay themes in JLU! That actually took a huge chunk of time, and I ended up eating while I did that. I'm big on the Dannon Water lately. I'm trying to drink more water than soda, and so far that's working out nicely. But now that I've eaten I have to wait awhile before I can work out, and I really do want to get away from the computer so I don't want to do the poetry right now. I'm going to get dressed, get the mail, and then decide what to do next.

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   Thursday, February 9, 2006

Work went well on Tuesday, though I had some grumpy customers, and there was a big rush in the last hour or so (a line of people, a dozen phone calls, and a million movie returns) that killed any chance I had of getting a project done, that DJ had been nice enough to give me; I like projects. After work I was seriously grumpy, and I slept for a couple of hours. I finished David's poem, and I e-mailed him a link to it; which will hopefully lead to feedback, and possibly another visit. Then Mark & I watched the new JLU which pissed me off; I want Shayera & John together NOW! lol And then I slept.

I woke up early, not having heard from Jonathan about his visit this week. I got in touch with him and he was going to come over tomorrow and stay the night, and then spend time with Mollie while Mark & I were at work - but he cancelled, which sucks. We all wanted to see him, and Mollie had stuff planned for them. Oh well. We're going to keep trying to get him out here for a visit.

Mark & I watched an episode of Dawson's Creek, Season 5. The final season comes out April 4, so we're pacing ourselves until that release. Then we watched Part 1 of the final JLU finale, which had a huge shocking ending that really makes me want to see the final installment, only nobody seems to be sure when that will air; it might not even air for a couple months!?! Erg!

I'm sure there was still more stuff that happened today...but it's escaping me now that I'm so tired. Oh! I wrote a rough draft of a poem dedicated to Jessica, Bryan & Erich. Now I want to write a different type of one for just Erich, and then I want to write a bunch of different ones just for me! ;-0) I'm going to bed soon.

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   Friday, February 10, 2006

Mark stayed home from work Thursday; he was feeling icky. I found David online, and brought his attention to the poem, which he really enjoyed. We hooked up again, and it was all kinds of smiley fun. But after he left (leaving me with a serious case of blueballs, relating to his visit being cut short), I got kind of down, and I couldn't place my finger on why at first. I talked about it with Mark, and then Mollie & Carrie, and I realized that I'm kind of jealous of David! lol He's passionate about something, and he busy and going off to school, and he's got all this stuff going on, and I never really had that... And a lot of my friends feel the same way, which made me feel better. And it prompted me to do something. I'm taking some classes with Carrie in the Spring at WCC. That's not much, but it's a start; I've never been to collge before. I graduated at the top of my class, but I graduated 10 years ago this June. I was also thinking about how no one in my immediate family has gone to college for more than a year; none of us have graduated or gotten a degree or whatever, and maybe I'll do that. Oh...& I'm still working out. It's fun.

Later I went to Mollie's & played a game of Pictionary with Mollie, Kenny, Carrie, Adam & Karen; also there was a lot of discussion about dodgeball (the game) while some of the movie was seen. It was really nice. ;-0) I have to get ready for work NOW. lol Oh...and I had a really fun chat with Bobby yesterday too! ;-0)

There was more craziness, but I'm not sure I'm ready to write about that yet. Which is for the best because I don't have time.

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   Saturday, February 11, 2006

I had a good day at work, though it was freezing in the store. Working with DJ was especially cool, but I also had lots of fun with Bryan, Pat, Jeff, Nate, and eventually Heidi & Andrea who were all about hearing an update on David, Bobby & School. It was wacky fun, and I again worked over, which was actually cool.

After work, Mark & I went to Meijer to get some stuff, then went home where I watched an episode of Buffy, before sleeping for a few hours. I woke up around 12:30am. I felt kind of groggy and weird, and a little disappointed that I'd slept, because I kind of hoped that I'd go out.

Well...I did go out! As I was leaving Mark said he was glad that I was getting out (which is unusual, but it really hit home how little I've been going out lately - which isn't like me at all). I went to Aut bar for all of 2 minutes; said hello to Redcloud and Scott, then headed to Necto, which was actually really great (considering the horrid music). I got to see Robert of course, and Scott & Becky; Becky gave me a free Fuzzy Navel, and then Scott insisted on buying me one of those wacky test tube shots, which tasted like pure sugar. While waiting for my Fuzzy Navel, the guy next to me said: "You're name is Jason, right?" and I agreed that it was. He said he slept with me 5 years ago, and he assumed I didn't remember him, but when I looked at him I knew who he was right away: "Ross Wiltshire" which impressed him that I remembered the whole name. He also remembered my webpage addy, and he said I was memorable because I was a fantastic lay. lol Which was nice to hear. We saw each other again at the end of the night, and he said I was still fricking hot. Awww. It was a nice encounter; I only saw him the one time, and I always wondered what happened to him, because he was really hot, and we had such a good time. I wrote about him, which you can read here.

I also met Dan & Mike, the gay mafia from Ypsi. Dan is 23, and Mike is 24. Dan had a fantastic jacket on that he had just made, and wanted to wear out; he agreed the music was better on Mondays and that most of the people on Fridays are not his cup of tea. They were both cute and funny, and amused me greatly. They said my eyes were amazing. Dan had his head shaved; I think he said he's been shaving it since he was 16.

This other guy stopped me to tell me how hot I am, which was nice to hear, but he kept saying he was sorry, which kind of killed it. lol

And I got some great moments with William A., who I really enjoy hanging out with when we're actually run into each other, though it's always really random, but maybe that's part of why we have so much fun? Who knows? But I'm not knocking it.

The whole night was really great for me. It just really...relaxed me, and I haven't been going out at all lately, so while I didn't love the music, the company was really nice. Oh, and a couple people commented on the firmness of my handshake; I guess working out is starting to show? lol It was all good fun though. ;-0) yay.

Mollie, Mark, Bryan, Chris, Robert & I are all (I believe), hanging out at Di's new house Friday night. I'm really looking forward to that, since we haven't done anything in ages. If we don't hang out too late, and I'm awake, I may go to City Club; Mike & Dan are going that night, and it would be nice to dance, and maybe run into them. They invited me, but I told them I had plans with friends.

Becky said that Monday night at Necto is like Goth Prom this week. Maybe if Bobby is up for it Monday then I can actually experience prom. lol I missed mine because of...well...stuff. I probably wouldn't have gone anyways. I didn't have a boyfriend at the time, or anything cool to wear, and I didn't know how to dance (being raised Baptist and all)... But it sounds like a fun time, with music I love. Oh, and Dan & Mike mentioned that Oz Wednesdays are now kind of retro new wave goth kind of nights with The Cure and stuff like that, so I might have to give that a try. I've been to Oz twice and both times it sucked, despite the cute boys hitting on me.

Well...I'm off. I don't know exactly what I'm going to do now, but I'm tired of writing.

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   Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Went to Pizza House Saturday night with Carrie; had great fun just chatting it up; we were there for around 5 or 6 hours. It was nice to see everybody. ;-0) I slept fairly well that night. I worked on Sunday; the store was dead - it seemed like time just stopped. But there was no horror or anything, so that was good. After work, Mark was still up, and we watched some Dawson's Creek. Then bed. Monday, I checked out stuff for applying to WCC. I also got in touch with Shawn and had a really good talk about our families and stuff. I was hoping to go to Necto with Bobby or Carrie, but I never really saw Bobby to ask him, and Carrie forgot about it because she had an emergency with her breaks. After she took her car in to Sears Auto I gave her a ride home. I went to Necto around midnight (in a fabulous outfit), and had a good time dancing & chatting at the gothic prom. Afterwards I showered, ate & watched the "Old Wounds" episode of Batman. I played a game, read the news, and then wrote this. I need to brush my teeth, and I want to do some reading, but I'm not sure I'll get very far because I'm tired, and I've got a bit of a headache.

I'm contemplating going to Leopold's tomorrow to see a friend's band play, but I might just stay in... I don't know. I work tomorrow, 1pm-5:30pm, though I'll probably stay until 6:30 or thereabouts. blah.

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   Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Work was fine on Wednesday, but I didn't want to be there; not really. I was a little tired, and I felt like I was coming down with a cold or something. Usually, when Mark drops me off at work, and I have to wait for a ride, I work over, and get some extra hours in, but yesterday I just punched out and watched Angel in the break room. I took a nap after work, and later felt up to going out, so I went to Leopold Brothers to see the Moody Veto; a band that my new friend Erich is in. He hadn't told me what time the show was starting, and I didn't get to see them perform, but I got to chat with him, meet some of his friends, and a bandmate or two. Plus a guy that was in one of the other bands was a Hollywood Video patron. It was fun.

I first noticed Erich when he rented Predator 2 back in October; there was a spark there that's been present among all the people that I've come to love; both as friends, and as lovers. Only thing is that he was married. Over the years, through most of my life, almost every person that I've enjoyed as much as Erich...I've expressed that enjoyment sexually. But there are an increasing number of people who that isn't a possiblity for, which is something I didn't foresee. I seldom if ever have crushes on women, and the ones that I do like, tend to be really cool, and really open minded, and really open to...whatever. And the boys I like tend to be GAY, and when gay men spark the way I'm talking about...sex usually follows. But I've met some amazing straight/married men over the last few years, who have been so cool, or so outspoken or something, that my walls came tumbling down...only I've had to reign in my natural impulses for the followup. It's a bit frustrating, & yet I enjoy it. I felt this way about Bryan Alfaro & Solomon Davis, and now I'm great friends with both of them; not to mention my friendship with Bryan's girlfriend & family, & Solomon's wife. I haven't met Erich's wife yet, but we're supposed to hang out sometime soon, and I really hope I like her, and that we all get along, because I'd very much like to be close friends with Erich.

Linda Marie e-mailed me today (and she was actually a topic of conversation at the bar the previous night) and the Detroit Derby Girls (of which she is a member) is having their first big Brawl this Saturday; I'd love to see her go!!! This girl is so amazing, fun, and did I mention hot? Check out this story (with Linda quotes) from this week's Metro Times.

My throat's all scratchy, but I can't tell if I'm actually getting a cold or something, or if it's just from shouting over the loud music Friday, Monday & Tuesday. Oh...My phone blinking at me.

DJ called a while ago, and left me a message letting me know he'd finally seen the "HUSH" episode of Buffy and he loved it. I called him back and we spoke about his recent Buffy adventures. He just watched "The Bachelor Party", "I Will Remember You", "Something Blue", "Hero" & "Hush". Some fantastic episodes of Buffy/Angel. He says he's gonna watch more tonight, and probably some tomorrow, and we'll catch up on stuff at work on Friday. lol I've gotten almost all my coworkers hooked on Buffy over the years; DJ was held out longer than expected, but is now deep in the throes of Buffy love. ;-0) He's about half way through the 4th Season, which means he's not even half way through the Buffyverse yet (including Angel as part of the series - there are 254 episodes; he just watched #075). I'm in the process of rewatching Buffy/Angel myself, and just finished the fan favorite "Fool For Love" (#113); the 5th Season is my favorite.

I want to relax for the rest of the day, in case I am coming down with something; get some rest; read & work on my webpage;and stay in. That's my plan. I'll probably work out later though, just because I really want to.

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   Thursday, February 16, 2006

My throat is still scratchy, and I'm very tired, but my room is like an oven. Or maybe I have a fevor? I don't know. It gets really warm in here, if the neighbors have the heat on. blah. Of course if I had a fever that might explain some of my erratic behavior in the last 14 hours. I keep doing the same things over & over again, and I accomplish nothing. This is like hell, only hotter.

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   Friday, February 17, 2006

Thusday is something of a blur. I'm pretty sure I had a fever for a lot of it, but I din't really have any other symptoms so I don't know what that was about. I chatted with some friends; did some laundry; cleaned my room a bit. I did some artwork later & wrote a poem or two. I started getting a massive migraine, and took some midrin, which made me really sleepy; I laid down aroun 3:30am. I just woke up feeling really spacey; my medicine does that, but it feels more powerful right now, which is odd. I also feel like my stomach is all acidy, or like I'm gonna puke, which mixed with the spacy feeling is really not fun. I know I took my Prilosec yesterday, but I just took an extra one, and hopefully that takes care of the problem. I should so be asleep, and if I don't get any sleep, I'll be cranky at work later, and more prone to acidy problems. blah.

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My stomack seems to be calming down. I used my unwanted awake time to get some poetry written. One of the things I've really been proud of myself lately for, is my return to writing more often than in the last few years. Sex still informs most of what I write, but the methods by which that writing is achieved is wholly different, or more precisely it's actually retro. I write now, the way I did years ago; about people & about art, which is extremely satisfying to me. You can see what I'm talking about here.

I'm still not sure it's safe to sleep. I might take a shower with Mark before turning in. Or I might just collapse. I have to work 1pm-5:30pm. And we're supposed to visit Di tonight with Mollie, Bryan, Chris & Robert. Hopefully we'll have fun, no matter what happpens.

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Everything that can go wrong today seemingly has/will. Not enough sleep, because of my damned stomack; which still isn't happy. I didn't call in to work, because I always try to make it in... but then when I went downstairs to get my work clothes out of the dryer, I found that I never put them in. I remember now that I was waiting to do that before my headache hit last night and the drugs knocked me out. Ugh. I have to call work and tell them I'm going to be late now. And I hate being late too. But I'll have to stay late anyways, so as long as I'm not more than an hour late I should be ok. Still...it's annoying.

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   Saturday, February 18, 2006

Work went by fairly quickly; my stomach settled by the time I got home, and I had time to eat & change before Mollie was ready for us to pick her up and go to Di's house. It was great to see Diana, Bryan, Chris & Robert (along with Robert's girlfriend Kayla[?] - who knows David - and Robert's friend Paris, who we met previously at Robert's 16th Birthday Party). We stayed until about 5am. We talked, and played Rook, Euchre, & Poker. It was a lot of fun.

After we got home, I had a cough, which seems to have faded now. I also had a bloody nose. I hope Janice is alright. I ate, and Mark & I watched a moving episode of Dawson's Creek (a funeral episode). Afterward, we fell asleep together on the couch, and I woke up really spacey. A lot of that happening lately. This time it was good though.

The final episode of JLU should air in the UK today, and I'll hopefully have it some time tomorrow. I worked on my own DCAU viewing guide the other day; check out my humble beginnings here. I only have a listing of what I believe are the first 5 episodes, but I have my reasons posted, and that's a good start.

I need to brush my teeth, and stay up for awhile before I sleep, but I'm really exhausted, and looking forward to getting some rest.

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So...I may have a cold, which sucks. And that would probably totally have ruined my day. Except that by the end of this day, I may have access to every episode of Batman Beyond (not the best copies, but that will make the dvds special), & every epiosde of JLU, with a few Static Shock episodes in the mix as well. It's good to have friends. :-0) I actually just saw the JLU episodes of Batman Beyond and was really impressed. I've heard about those episodes for years, and the only negative view I'd read about, didn't make a lot of sense when I actually saw it. So, even though I'm feeling less than stellar...I'm feeling less than stellar in happy land.

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   Wednesday, February 22, 2006

I didn't have a cold...or I don't, which is good. I'm sleep deprived. I haven't signed up for school yet. I haven't cleaned my room in like a week. I haven't worked out today. Amber, Jamie & Mollie will be visiting tonight. Jennifer is in town this week. JLU ended (& most likely the DCAU with it). I have problems to solve with cds, the DCAU chronology, and some Star Trek stuff I wanted to get done for Carrie. I'm behind on my writing, and what I have written, I haven't completely finished or had time to do artwork for.

Besides that I'm great. Now lets see if I can get some of this shit done.

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I cleaned my room. It's not pristine, but it's nice. I'm so exhausted, but I'm really hungry, so I'm going to eat (while watching Angel, or possibly the last Desperate Housewives), and then try to get some art finished. I may need help with the application to WCC; I just looked it over and there's some stuff that I'm not sure about. I'm sure Carrie will help me with it.

Feels good to get some stuff done. ;-0)

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I still haven't slept. I tried. It's just not working. I got quite a bit of art done; it happens like that sometimes; 5 or 10 pieces just happening as if it were nothing unusual. Then the words come, and years after posting them, I look back, and think how amazing those moments are. I'm not waiting years this time; I'm cherishing them now. ;-0) So, I ate & watched Angel; I watched 4 episodes of Angel while I worked. I usually watch Buffy/Angel at work, but the Angel disc I needed has been checked out the last few days, so I've just been watching Buffy, but now I'm caught up; 22 more episodes of the 5th Season (my favorite). I didn't have a chance to work on the DCAU chronology. The one that's currently posted on my webpage has a flaw in it, that I'm trying to fix. I'd like to get some more recording done for Shawn's cds. I haven't worked on them in months, and that's one of those projects that I'd really like to finish, but I don't have the means. I don't know how the recording would work with the computer set up downstairs the way that it is now, and I'm still not sure that my computer is up to the task. But I was listening to the bits & pieces that I have finished and they sound amazing. It seems a shame that it isn't finished.

I should get some writing done, if I can. I'm very tired now. I turned the heat way down, & hopefully that will help me sleep. I'd like to be rested before Amber, Jamie, Mark & Mollie get here. I haven't heard from Jennifer since she's been back; I hope I have time to see her. I've been wanting to hang out with my friend Paul, but he's been extra busy lately. I haven't talked to David; I haven't even e-mailed him the last poem I wrote him. I haven't really talked to Bobby in about a week.

Erich came into Hollywood Sunday night just after I got to work; he returned a racing video game he had bought; exchanging it for another one. He also got my number again; said he put the one I gave him on Valentine's Day through he washer. He also asked me what I was doing 2 weeks hence, and I didn't have anything planned. He said that would be a good date for us all to hang out; 'us all' being me, him, his wife Erin & their friend Sheryl(?); I haven't met his wife yet, but I met S at Leopold Brothers, and she was a lot of fun. I think Erich is awesome, and I'm really looking forward to meeting his wife, and getting to know them all better. It would be nice if we could be really good friends.

Mark cleaned the bathroom & living room last night; he also picked up some food & pillows for me at Meijer. I don't think I really thanked him. I guess I did sleep for awhile after work last night, but only for a couple of hours... hmm. Even though I'm really tired now, I feel good. Which is nice.

I might do some more art actually, or something. We'll see.

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I slept for about 3&1/2 hours. I don't know why I can't sleep. Luckily I have tomorrow off too, so hopefully I'll be able to sleep in or something. Amber called earlier, and she & Jamie should be here around 6pm. Mark is going to pick up Mollie after he gets off of work at 6pm, so everyone should be here by 7pm at the latest. It will be nice to see everyone. I guess Amber saw Shawn yesterday, and met Jonathan. Jonathan thinks I'm mad at him for him not making it out here yet, which isn't true. I was disappointed when he had to cancel the one time, and we were trying to get him out here last week, and then I didn't get back to him about it because of that weird fever thing. I don't know if I mentioned this, but Mollie had a fever around the same time I did last week - and no other symptoms. Weird, huh?

Anyways, I'm gonna have a snack or something, and maybe workout; get ready for tonight.

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   Saturday, February 25, 2006

Amber & Mollie both cancelled on Wednesday, and then rescheduled for Thursday. Then Mollie cancelled again; she didn't feel well. I had a good time visiting Amber, Jamie & Chris. Friday, I woke up around 10am and was kind of vomity. I went to work though because it was the pre-inventory shift and I figured there would be plenty to do, but there wasn't and I ended up coming home early. Probably a great choice. I did not feel good. I thought I felt better later, but then spent all night throwing up, and I woke up today with another fever (101), from nightmares about Buffy, which I watched before sleeping. Hopefully my fever breaks soon, because I'm really sick of being sick.

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   Monday, February 27, 2006

My fever has come & gone & come & gone so many times now...that when it does go down I just assume it will be back. My fever was down last night, but I woke up around 5am with 101.5; unthrilled. I've been able to eat crackers without them coming back up. I've been drinking a lot of water. It's still impossible to get comfortable. I tried eating some yogert, but I couldn't taste it. My fever has risen and fallen so many times since Thursday night that I'm...so tired of it... I didn't go to work Sunday (obviously). Around the time I was scheduled I was in the bathtub. I've taken a disturbing number of showers and baths, but I can't help it; I'm constantly sweaty, and uncomfortable, and when my body aches, I like the hot water. My temperature is down to about 98.7, which seems like good news, but I've had it down to normal, and seen it shoot back up. I've been taking ibuprofen for fever.

My niece Jillian has something similar right now. Mark was sick last week, but it only lasted about a day. And Mollie was also sick, but it was also for about a day. She says she still doesn't feel well, but it doesn't sound like her temperature is all over the place the way mine is.

Even though it's not comfortable watching movies, I've watched "Rent" twice (once by myself - louding & feverishly singing along - once with Mark). I also watched "Don't Tell Anyone" and "Dorian Blues". I watched the rest of Buffy Season 5 (which is so less fun when you're sick); I only have the last 4 episodes of Angel's 2nd season to watch now, but I think I'm taking a break. But I'm not sure. I keep changing my mind; I blame the fever.

I hope I feel better tomorrow. I'm scheduled on Tuesday & Wenesday. If I'm not feeling better by Tuesday I should probably see a doctor. I hate going to the doctor when I'm sick; even when I think it's bad; they always say: "You have a cold" and then send me out the door. Even when I was hospitalized that one time on an I.V. and everthing - all the tests they ran came back negative. I know I was sick because Janice was sick, but I don't think Doctor's believe that kind of shit.

It's so fricking hot in my room, but I don't know if that's just me feeling ill, or if it really is sweltering in here.

I was bummed that I didn't get to see Amber, Chris & Jamie more. I'm working on something for Jamie. Also, Jennifer was supposedly going to be in town last week, but I never heard from her. Not that I could have seen her since getting ill Thursday night. But still.

I ache.

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I had some toast this morning, and like the crackers, I was able to keep it down without too much effort. I figured this was a good sign. I woke up around noon with a horrible bout of diarrhea, which I hadn't experienced in days. I took some pepto & my temperature which was now 98.1? I slept some more, and Mark woke me up; he came home from work sick, feeling cold. I took my temperature again, and it's now 97.8. What the fuck? I feel like I have a cold now. I'm not coughing (much), but my throat is killing me, and there's a bit of phlegm. Mark suggested calling a nurse, but I don't feel up to talking to anyone, which is probably stupid, but I'm sick, and I'm stupid when I'm sick.

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I still feel crappy. I'm trying to eat, but I have a feeling I'll be seeing the food again real soon. I really thought I'd be find by Saturday night, but no such luck. I keep thinking that if I were reading a book it would help me forget that I'm ill, but I can't make up my fricking mind about what to read. I've started like 12 books since Friday, only to change my mind about what I want to read when feel like reading again; it's crazy. My throat hurts so bad now. I feel like I have a cold or something along with everything else. And I haven't shaved since Friday, which probably doesn't seem like a big deal, but I hate it. Maybe I'll work up the energy to shave later? Why does my hair grow at all? erg. I don't foresee me going to work tomorrow, but maybe I'm wrong and this horror will end tonight. (yeah, right)

Oh, & my voice is...interesting.

If I sound miserable, I mostly am. I'm not completely beaten...but I'm tired. And if these last few entries have been really disgusting or gross, just know that this is the somewhat edited version, and that things are even worse than they would seem from these entries.

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I shaved (mostly), and showered, which helped me feel less icky; at least on the surface. The food I forced down is coming back up. I'm trying to work on my webpage to distract myself, but I'm getting tired of distracting myself.

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I'm at 98.6 now, which is nice; hopefully I stay at 98.6 or thereabouts, as that's pretty normal. I haven't taken any ibuprofen since before dawn, so my temperature has naturally come to this place, which is probably very good news. Not having a fever helps things a lot, but my throat is still all kinds of clogged up; it feels like there are squirrels nesting in there, and if they are they should be paying me rent or something; that's all I'm saying.

Hopefully the throat part will clear up soon. I might just be able to go to work tomorrow after all! ;-0) I'm tempted to take some Robitussin, but I'm afraid to in the state that my stomack has been in. I don't have diarrhea, currently, but I took a huge swig of Pepto earlier, so I don't know if I'm in the clear yet, or if mr. pinky is just working overtime.

My arms & hands are a little achey, and I have very slight pain in my back, but that's nothing compared to the pain I felt only hours ago, so I'm ok with that.

I'm attempting to reread the Garak book "A Stitch In Time" again; only this time I'm reading it in chronological order instead of the way it's presented. It's neat. But I find I tire of reading very quickly lately.

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   Tuesday, February 28, 2006

After feeling better than I had in days, took some vitimin C with a Boost Protien drink, and some crackers. Later I slept. I woke up in pain. My temperature is currently 99.5 - why won't it just stop?

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I feel better, again. I had a pop tart, and some more boost, and another vitamin c. I just took my temperature, and I'm back down to 98.2 - my throat just feels horrible though. I don't want to talk because it hurts, and feels odd. Yet I sing in the shower, and I'm ok. What's that about?

I don't know what to think about my constantly changing temperature. If it switches again then I'm going to have to go to the doctor today, or make an appointment, or if not I'll most likely go to work, with the understanding that I can't talk much. Or maybe I'll just speak quietly? I don't know. It's hard to work and not talk. erg. Hopefully the temperature thing stabilizes; that's my big worry right now.

The Garak book is good. ;-0) It's weird reading it in chronological order though.

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Back to being ill. And stupid too. I was supposed to work today. I knew this last night. And then I didn't. And then I did. And then I didn't. Know, that is. My brain has been fried for 5 days, and it's starting to show in more ways than just my voice sounding funny, or my shivery fits, or the newest symptom: obsession with '80's music.

Anyways, I called in after I was supposed to be there, which is never a good thing. It's not fair to the people you work with, and it stresses DJ out (which is one thing that the man does not need). But I swear that in my brain it made sense...and now it doesn't. DJ was at the bank though, and I left a message with Jeff. For the first time since I started feeling ill, I was almost grateful that my voice sounds off, because it was like my shred of proof that I was really ill and not just being an asshole.

I talked to Mark about all this online, and he said he'd been reading about fevers online and that my problems with alternating temperatures was normal, and that I should see a doctor if this persisted longer than 10 days. He also had all kinds of scary theories about the cause of my illness, which fit the facts, but aren't a sure thing by any means (thankfully). He's on his lunch now. I'm fine being on the computer for right now, but I know that in a little while my brain will switch or something and I'll not want to be sitting here.

I'll probably read more of the Garak Book later. It helps me forget that I'm basically stuck inside the condo; I'm a hostage of this fricking virus or whatever. erg.

I read Poppy's Blog, and then Kiernan's, and I learned that I'm cisgender; I like it.

I have Information Society ("What's On Your Mind"), Alphaville ("Big In Japan") & Howard Jones ("Things Can Only Get Better" & "What Is Love?") stuck in my head. There are worse things to get stuck in your head, so I'm mostly ok with that. Oh, and RENT songs too. Which is fine. Except that I start to sing without thinking about it, and then the pain kicks in, which is annoying.

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I'm feeling better than I've felt at anytime since Friday morning. Hopefully the fever doesn't return. I think it will stay gone this time, because the other times it went away I still felt all jittery, but this time I feel way better. My throat is still messed up, but I don't feel like I have a cold... Not sure what's going on in there; it's uncomfortable, and it's not pleasant...but it's better than I've felt in awhile, and I appreciate that.

The Garak book continues to be good; time hasn't killed it. It made me want to revisit the Garak episodes of DS9. He appeared in 40 of 176 DS9 episodes; though 4 of those appearances were an alternate universe version of the character, and another stand alone episode featured a group dillusion version of him. So the actual Garak character only developed through 35 episodes. That seems odd, because he's such a well done character. I skipped Garak's first episode, because I had a craving for "Cardassians"; his 2nd appearance. I talked an uninterested Mark into watching it with me, and it was great to see him laugh at the lines, and get into the episode. ;-0) It is a great episode. I'll probably watch "Past Prologue" (his 1st episode) & then watch "Profit & Loss" & "The Wire" sometime soon. It's great to see all these episodes while reading the book because the continuity is so perfect.

And I realize this is all a distraction from my illness, but I'm enjoying it. Ouch! My throat, every once in awhile will hurt really bad, and I'm not sure what's setting it off. I do know that after I sleep, and my throat is dry it hurts like a bitch.

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