Thursday, February 2, 2006

So I have a sty ("an Inflammation of one or more sebaceous glands of an eyelid) in my right eye again. I had one several months ago. They hurt, and are really annoying. The last one went away on it's own, which was good since I couldn't get in to see a doctor, because it didn't present itself until the weekend. Part of me is slightly worried about it, and part of me isn't worried at all, as I've been through this before, but what if it's different? One thing that isn't different is that I probably can't get a doctor's appointment before monday, as it's pretty late in the week as it is. Another thing that isn't different is that I don't have insurance. I was signed up to get insurance through my domestic partner, and his business was all for it, as I became his domestic partner on their very premises, and they all know me, but the insurance company gave my insurance a delay, when it didn't delay anyone elses. So my insurance, assuming they give it to me at all, doesn't kick in until April. This really pisses me off now. It annoyed me before, but now, when I probably need to see a doctor, and I don't have the cash for it - now I'm being screwed by the government. Michigan no longer recognizes domestic partnerships, though some businesses allow for them anyways (such as UofM), and Mark's company is willing, but that this is even an issue is just disgusting.

I was going to ask DJ about the schedule next week, and see if it's possible to get some time off late in the week, like Wednesday-Friday so Jonathan could come visit us. Mollie has Friday off, so if I did have to work that day, I could leave him with Mollie so they could bond ;-0) But if this eye thing doesn't clear up... erg. I do want to talk to a doctor about this problem, and I was going to bring it up at my next visit. I was going to talk about the sty I had, and how my father has them really bad, and ask if there was something preventative that I could begin; eyedrops or something. Erg.

I saw the new JLU yesterday; with the Legion of Superheroes, "Far From Home". I hope the new LOSH series in the works is a spinoff of this episode, because that would rock. And while continuity is a difficult thing, it's worth it, and would be so much easier in a series set a thousand some years after the last one. A few crossovers, and Supergirl's outlook on things, and you've got it covered! But as much as I want the new series to be part of the DCAU, and for the new Superman DTV to be part of it as well, I'm not holding my breath. But the new episode had some of my favorite Legion heroes; these are characters I knew nothing about 4 years ago, and only learned of through collecting slash art! Now I know them all by name, and their histories & stuff! See - porn is good! ;-0) The new episode also featured more precursors to Zeta. I wish I was one of those people who worked on the DTV story ideas, because I'd interject little ideas that could connect the shows even more than they are. It would be sweet to see a Zeta followup, in which he seeks the help of the Justice League Unlimited featuring Micron, Superman, Aquagirl, Batman Beyond, Warhawk, Barda Free, and Static - he'd relate the main story of the series, and the JLU would help wrap everything up. Maybe get a hand from Dick Grayson, and help explain why Zeta looks different on his show than he did in his first appearance on Batman Beyond. That kind of stuff goes on in my head all the time. lol

I wrote 12 new poems in January. That's over half of the number that I wrote in all of last year. And I got art finished for all of the poems this year too, which was not the case at all last year. I've got some extras finished, but I don't feel like writing right now; maybe later. I'm proud of myself for getting the art & poetry done though. I didn't realize how much I missed it. I was caught in a rut, poetry wise. But then I was thinking about how I used to write a lot, and what inspired me then, and that set me on my current course, which is a lot of fun, actually.

I should probably at least call work, and see if I can get tomorrow off. I have Saturday off, and I close on Sunday; perhaps my eye could clear up by then? I don't know. I get all wishy washy when I have call in. This has never been a problem for me at any other job - but this one, people depend on me, and they're people that I care about. My other jobs, I blew off work all the time. I've missed less work in nearly 4 years at this job, than I did in any one of the 3 years I did working at Meijer. I'm proud of that too.

I'm hungry. I'm gonna eat, and maybe watch an episode of ANGEL. Mark is picking Mollie up from work at 7pm, so she can come over and watch some Desperate-Together-Nip/Tuck episodes. Watching stuff is less fun though, when there are spikes inside your eyelids. But I don't want to miss seeing Mollie. I'll make the most of it. I want some raspberry poptarts, but I don't have any. And Mark has the car, which is fine, since driving might kill me right now.

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   Saturday, February 4, 2006

So my eye is almost completely healed. I got a really good night's sleep. I hung out last night with this cool guy I met on line. Not sex - just hanging out, by my request. I'll hopefully get to know him better, because he seems really cool.

Mark just left for his mom's for a visit, and he probably won't be back until late tonight, or early tomorrow. That means I don't have the car. Not sure what I'm going to do today. I'm going to watch at least 1 episode of Angel/Buffy. But I'm thinking about reorganizing a bunch of stuff, and maybe getting some art finished. I'm working on a poem; it's being written the way I used to write all of them, with planning and time. It used to be that I couldn't just WRITE; back in the day I had to plan everything out. Both methods offer impressive results; they're just very different.

I don't think I wrote this out the other day, because I wrote it all out in an e-mail, and didn't feel like writing it again...I still don't, so I'm just gonna cut & paste it - this was written yesterday morning in an e-mail to my boss (DJ):

My eye hurts a little less today (I think) but it's still all swollen. Mark brought Mollie over last night, and we watched some Nip/Tuck while I gave myself repeated warm compresses on my right eye. It mostly sucked because you take those things off your eye, and it's all wet and bleary from the warmth & the moisture, and the eye is already not the greatest.

(we actually watched 6 episodes of Nip/Tuck, and now Mollie is all caught up)

Mark fell asleep but Mollie really needed to get home - so in a fit of really poor judgment I said I'd drive her home. Nearly died. A couple times. Not only was my eye all screwy, but I was super-tired, and it was raining. Coming home I rolled the window down; the cold rain helped with the tired feeling (as did me singing at the top of my lungs) but the eye troubles persisted. I drove through town instead of
taking the express way - figured if I crashed this way, at least I'd
probably survive - plus the stops at lights & signs would give me a breather. It worked in that I made it home without killing myself, the car, or anyone else - but I went right to bed.

So I wanted to say I'm sorry that I'm not there for work today, but that it's really for the best. I just feel bad when I can't make it into work. Bright light screws up my squinty eye, so I've got the contrast on my monitor turned way down. Anyways - I hope work is dead today, and that
whoever covered my shift really wanted to work - and no one is put out at all.

And I'm hoping that Buffy/Angel continues to enthrall you ;-0)

Bald Jason
http://www.gothboy.com

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By the time the sun went down on Friday, my eye was so much better...it was such a relief. I considered calling work and asking if I could work a shift today, but then remembered about Mark's trip, and me being without a car. I went to gay.com out of boredom and got chatted up by like 6 guys, including Sam. I ended up inviting this other guy over, who is just really interesting. He's young & OUT, and an artist, and extremely sexual, and he's got a hot voice, and a nice smile, and we had fun, without having sex. I really enjoyed myself, and it would be nice to hang out with him in the future; and if we just remained friends, I'd be fine with that, though I'd have to jack off alot, which isn't a problem per say. lol

I don't want to hang out near the computer too much; even though my eye looks almost completely healed, I can still feel how it isn't; just like I could feel it before it even looked bad. And I don't want my eye strained by looking at the computer all day. Maybe I'll go for a walk.

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I'm doing laundry, and reorganizing my closet. I'm going to work out later (really). I've decided I need to start working out more, and writing more; they seem burned together in my mind for some reason. Perhaps I'm crazy? lol My eye doesn't hurt, but it feels weird. I talked to Janice on the phone earlier. I'm thinking about getting in touch with my cousin Joy; I haven't had anything resembling a conversation with her in at least 9 years, and it would be interesting to me, to hear how her life has progressed, and see if we can be friends.

I'm sweaty; I've been dancing around my room. One of the things I've been thinking about lately is that I'd like to keep my energy up. If I can do it by sheer force of will, that would rock. lol Hopefully I don't stumble. We'll see. I haven't had a serious infusion of pictures on my webpage since last February, so I should probably have some pictures taken sometime soon, but I don't know what to do to make them different than the last ones; I don't like to repeat myself overly much.

I watched the Angel/Buffy episodes. I usually get sucked in and want to watch more, but today I kind of feel locked inside of myself. I don't want to get lost in the show or anything - I just want to exist with myself, if that makes any sense. Let's just say I've been inspired, and leave it at that. ;-0)

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