Sunday, June 18, 2006

I went to Aut Bar around 12:30am. Any time I feel like going out lately, I do. I've had all sorts of physical problems lately, but when I feel like I can work, or clean, or party, I jump. I spent time talking with James, Scott, Redcloud, Matt, Robert, Terry, Joseph, John, and a girl named Casandra. It was mostly fun. After I got home around 3am (after taking some pix of me with Casandra, and James), I read my e-mail, and worked on my webpage; the poetry 2006 section. Then I wrote this. It's about 4:20am...and I'm very tired. I should get some sleep. I'll call work later today to find out what I'm scheduled to work.

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   Monday, June 19, 2006

I got a lot of sleep Sunday; only I didn't. I mean, it felt like I got a sleep, when in fact I just got 8 hours, which should be normal, but somehow, isn't. I got ready for work early, but when I arrived, ontime, I learned I wasn't scheduled. I should have called first. They were super busy, and I offered to help, but Nate said not to worry about it. Joe & Andrea were also there. I guess they took Pat to the emergency room Friday night, and he has an ulcer in his colon, which sounds horrible! I hope he'll be alright.

I came back home. I responded to some e-mail. I played a game of Zuma. My computer needs a new video card so I can't play any of the games that I'd usually play (AVP, Diablo II, Freedom Force). Mark played Diablo II most of the day, which I thought was cute. ;-0) Mark watched Munich, and I worked on my webpage.

I kind of felt like going out, but City Club wasn't open on Sundays the last time I checked. Even Necto is usually closed, I think. The only club that I knew was open was Club Divine. Tracy called while I was getting dressed; he's in Chicago now. He told me to call him back on my way home. I knew that Jeremy probably wouldn't be there; even if he was back from Chicago, he'd most likely have the night off. I thought this might be a good time to check out the club on a Sunday to see what the music was like. He had once told me it was bad. But it wasn't bad. It was tragic. It was the worst music I've encountered in years. And there were maybe 10 people there, including the staff. I thought it had been lame when it was packed with frat boys, but this was worse. I stayed for maybe 3 minutes, then went to the pharmacy to pick up my perscription. Then I headed over to Aut Bar, where I chatted with Matt. The Matt part was fun, but everything else was boredom overload. I came home, called Tracy, who was at a club or something, and then I wrote this, while I had a snack.

I'm going to attempt to see my ex-gf Catherine, her son Avery, and possibly her husband Jason...that's on Wednesday. I'm pretty excited about that. I have a doctor's appointment today, which will hopefully get me some answers. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. I don't work on Thursday or Saturday. Hopefully I'll see Jeremy this week, sometime. Elvis actually wants him to cut her hair...or she said she did. So maybe I could visit with her while he does the hair thing. Elvis time would be fantastic.

And if DJ is reading this, I just want to thank you for being so thoughtful about the schedule this week, given what little you knew of what was going on with me on Friday! I'm so glad I don't have to juggle everything with work on Monday! That's a huge relief. I should go.

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   Tuesday, June 20, 2006

So, my doctor's appoinment on Monday went well. It was strange though because they gave me an eye exam, and then asked me a lot of strange questions, but it turned out that Mark had freaked out about my arm going numb Friday night, and had told them that I was also there to talk about my migrains, which I wasn't. I talked to my doctor about it, just to get her opinion, and she agreed that I simply suffered a fairly normal side effect of intense migrains. The rest of the visit went quickly enough. I got a referrals to Gastroenterology & Dermatology. The former, so that I can get some idea of what is going on inside my body. My acid levels are out of control, and I want to know what that's doing to me, and what I can do to prevent them. It's also possible that I have an ulcer. This was news to me, and doubly shocking only hours after learning that Pat from work was suffering from one. Why has this never been mentioned to me before? Also, I was told that I was taking my meds wrong, even though I followed their directions from years ago, which they have since changed their minds on. They should send out a memo or something. Anyways...The dermatology referral is for this random skin thing, which I've been told isn't harmful to me or anybody else; I just want it taken care of. I've had odd rashes my whole life; I had a really strange one on my neck for a year or 2, with all kinds of strange patterns; it was almost pretty.

Before I went to the Doctor, Mark & I had to trade the car, and so I had to go with him to the bank & the post office, and he had to go with me to drop off my film. I'm only pointing this out now, so that when I talk about picking up my film it will make sense. lol

Anyways, the doctor visit went well, and hopefully my insurance covers the visit this time. I swear that Mark told me that it didn't pay for my last visit, but now he doesn't remember that, and says he has no idea where the paperwork is. Maybe I'm just going crazy. It's not like it doesn't run in the family. As a matter of fact, when I picked up my film on the way to pick up Mark from work, there were a couple of the black & white pix that made me realize how much I still resemble my father. They're really good pictures though; I might have some of them framed for friends & family, even though Mark (who is his own worst critic) isn't impressed by them at all.

After we got home, I scanned all of the pictures, plus half a roll that I missed last time (about 90 pictures); it took me about 8 hours to finish the scanning. Then I started working on resizing the ones that people had requested seeing, and e-mailed those out. I posted 3 of the new ones on myspace, including one that I made into my main picture, which has already earned a positive comment from Chris; I love her. I also started working on a dedication page for Jeremy. I had a dentist appointment this morning, but I had to reschedule it, because my acid was pretty bad, and I couldn't deal with all those people in my mouth at the same time. My new appointment is on Thursday, next week. I continued working on my webpage for several hours, and got a call from Jeremy. He sounded tired, but it sounds like he had a blast in Chicago, and he said that he can visit my family with me on Monday, which I'm psyched about. I called Janice to tell her Monday's the day, and I'll stop by Hollywood later to put in my requests for Monday & Thursday off, plus I need to return Munich & some Smallville dvds that are due today. I haven't called on my referrals yet; I'll probably do those next week, as I don't think I'm free for anything until after that.

I eventually took a nap, which helped a lot. I then finished the webpage stuff (for now), and had a snack, then wrote this. I'm going to take a shower, and then go pick up Mark from work. I have to do an insane amount of laundry.

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   Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Mark & I watched some Smallville last night. The show is getting good again. Even when there a stupid plot point, there's always something interesting going on with the characters. I don't know how long it can sustain itself though; we'll see. I did some laundry, but I couldn't get to sleep, no matter how hard I tried. Sleep & I aren't on good terms lately. My doctor wasn't surprised about that, given my acid levels. I'm kind of trapped in this horrible cycle, but I just want off.

Pretty much everything that can go wrong today...has. I was supposed to visit Catherine today. It was another one of those big events in my mind that I've been excited about and it's pretty much fallen apart. It's not that big of a deal really; I'm sure we'll hang out sometime soon. It's just a disappointment. :-0(

The only good thing to happen today was the arrival of STAS V3, JL V2, & Superman: Brainiac Attacks. I haven't seen the movie, but I've seen all of the Justice League episodes and those are some of the best. The Superman episodes I've seen in this final set are fantastic, and this volume contains 9 other key episodes that I've been wanting to see for years. So that rocks.

I worked on my webpage some more; I started working on Mollie's friend page; updating it with new photos & stuff. I promised myself I wouldn't update my own photo section until November, but until then, I'm trying to update everyone else's. It's fun, and worthwhile; it lets my friends, family & other people informed on how my life is unfolding. It also distracts me when my stomach feels like it's going to implode.

I should call Encore and talk to Kim about possible pictures tomorrow. I should do a lot of things...like stop whining. I'm really glad I got those referrals from my doctor; I'm anxious to learn what's going on inside of me, but it freaks me out too, which I'd guess is fairly normal. That doesn't help though. What does help, is having so many cool people in my life that care about me, and are happy to spend time with me, when I'm able. ;-0)

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My stomach has ceased to be my stomach. It has transformed into some kind of weapon of mass destruction. I'm calling that referral in tomorrow for the soonest possible appointment. It's not like this is new, exactly; I've been struggling with this for nearly 5 years, but I've had it. I'm so sick of not being able to plan things. I'm sick of a lot of things. It feels good to be angry.

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   Thursday, June 22, 2006

I'm feeling pretty good right now. My stomach's not bothering me at this moment, and I'm not taking that for granted. I'd go out, but I'm kind of tired.

I got a myspace message from Shawn last night saying that he misses me. That made me feel good, and I sent him a long response. He also asked for a link to my blog, which I provided, so maybe he'll be reading this later. Hey Shawn. ;-0) I told Mollie about this message, and she said that she'd spoken to him recently too, and that he wants to chat with her online. I love it when my people get along.

I talked to Jeremy. He was a bit freaked about meeting my family on Monday. I think he thought I was going to propose or something, but I explained that I just wanted to give him the tour, so he could understand me better, which seemed to make him feel a lot better. I then thought that the page I made for him might be further freaksome, but he said it made him smile, and that he really enjoyed the poetry. No one has given him poetry before. That was nice to hear. I'll see him on Saturday. Mark & I are going to Encore at 3pm for a big photo shoot with Jeremy & Kim; it should be fun. Then the family outing is Monday. Those both sound like fun things. Highly unlikely that we'll be...um...(I'm trying to find a nice way to say we probably won't be fucking...and failing). That sucks, as I'm uber-horny.

Sleepy Time.

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   Friday, June 23, 2006

I had a good night last night...mostly. I took a walk, which was nice, and I talked to Jeremy on the phone. I finished the 2nd season of Smallville. I think I'm going to take a break from the show, at least for a few days. Mollie helped me out in ways I can't thank her enough for. I went to Kroger and picked up some stuff.

Mark brought home his father's dog, Heidi last night. She smelled really bad, but Mark gave her a bath. I'm not an animal person. I don't hate them; I just don't want them around me. Heidi's cute though; she looks like a stuffed animal, or a small polarbear. I have no idea what kind of dog she is. Except I'd have to say she's really fucking annoying.

I went to bed around 6:30am, which is plenty of time for sleep before work. Mark took the bus to work this morning. Heidi woke me up barking at 8:30am. I tried to ignore her, but it was no good. I called Mark, and he suggested that I put her in his room, which I did, only she was now barking louder, and closer to where I was trying to sleep. I thought maybe she was lonely, so I left my bedroom door open. She smelled really bad again, and I just figured that's how dogs are. She was getting in my closet so I got up to close it, only to find that she shit all over the floor. All over it. A lot. Mark had let her out twice this morning.

So, I'm beyond tired. My acid reflux is going to be bad today because I haven't had enough sleep. I had to clean up dog shit from my floor and vacume and I think the dog has fleas or something; I'm itching. This is not cool. Mark had said something about keeping her at his dad's house, and just visiting her to take care of her. I was going to be cool, and try not to worry about it, but now I'm thinking that might be best. I'm so tired, and so pissed off right now - I was so excited about going back to work today, and now it's going to suck. And there's nothing I can do about it.

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I stayed awake, and took care of the dog. I made it to work early, and the day was mostly cool. I used my humor to make everything less horrible. My acid levels didn't reach the monstrous proportions that I expected them to, which was a nice surprise. I worked with DJ, Bryan, Bill, Joe & Kyle. Last week, or the week before I helped this woman in the store who thought she was going to faint; she got really dizzy and sat down in the store. Bryan got her a chair, and when she came to the counter where I was working, I could tell she was still not herself. I talked her through a lot of it, and I talked to her 5yr old grandson Zach who was really freaked out. I bought her 2 bottles of cold water, and I walked them to their car, letting her lean on me. I offered to drive them home, but she said she was feeling better. I stayed and talked to them for quite awhile, because I wanted to make sure that she was ok before she drove off with Zach in tow. She seemed to be a lot better, and she said she lived very close by, so I said goodbye. Anyways - the point of all that, is she left a card for me at work last week which I only just got today, thanking me for all the help. It was a very long, descriptive card, and she said that Zach now referres to Hollywood Video as "Jason's Place". She found out the trouble she was having was medicine related, so we don't have to worry about her now. And when DJ (who was with me when I opened the card/letter) saw/heard what she'd said about me, he asked if he could keep the card for awhile so he could show all the district managers at some meeting within the next 2 weeks! The helping her just seemed like common sense at the time, but now it might help higherups look at our store differently, so that rocks.

I went to McDonald's after work. When I was little I used to go there constantly, but I seldom if ever go these days. It wasn't that big a deal, but it did the trick, and I didn't have any bad reactions to it, which was a nice surprise. I picked up Mark, and we rushed home to see what the dog had done now, but she seemed to have behaved herself while we were out. Mark wanted to go get the reflector for the photographs we're taking tomorrow, but decided to get it tomorrow before the pictures are taken. I went to bed (at last), while Mark & Heidi watched the new Stitch movie that comes out Tuesday. I rented a movie for myself, but I don't know that I'll actually watch it.

Now I'm awake, and considering going out. I don't know that I'm up for Necto. I could at least go to Aut Bar. If gas wasn't so expensive I'd maybe go to City Club. My myspace profile has been playing Dead Can Dance for a week, so that's put me in the mood... but I just changed it to 24 by Jem, in honor of the sure to be pretty (but probably very lame) Ultraviolet movie coming out on Tuesday; the song plays in the movie trailer.

Well, I'm off.

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   Saturday, June 24, 2006

Ok. Probably not going to a bar now. I kind of feel like reading. I'm really hungry though, and I might get some more groceries. Oh! I forgot about that. I bought these Froot Loops; the regular ones are kind of disgusting, but the ones with less sugar are ok. Anyways, when Heidi the dog was in my room she really liked the bag they were in, and ripped it open and got dog germs all over them - as in - they smelled like dog. I tossed those. I'm hungery. I'm looking forward to taking pictures of Kim tomorrow. Having my picture taken is fun, and though we got some kick ass pix last weekend, it was hot and horrible, and I had to change my clothes a bunch of times and pose in uncomfortable positions. I don't have to do that tomorrow. ;-0)

If I'm going to the store, I should do that now. Oh, and I've already changed my myspace profile music. I changed it like 6 times today.

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Ok. So I did go to the bar. I only intended to stay for a few minutes, but I ran into Warren on the way in, who was chatting with this guy Chad. Chad was kind of cute, and he had a cool jacket, but he was leaving and I was just getting there, but when I entered the bar I didn't see anyone all that interesting. When I went to leave, Chad & Warren were still outside. I ended up chatting with them until Warren left, and then Chad & I went back into the bar to talk some more, until they closed, and then we chatted for another hour outside. I thought it was kind of chilly, and I wanted to go to Meijer, so he drove there too, and we chatted some more while I shopped, and then chatted for another hour in the parking lot at Meijer. We finally headed to our homes when the sun started coming up and the birds started chirping.

So Chad seems really cool. He's 25. His birthday is September 9. His full name is Chad Tilman Wiekert. He's from Illinois. He wants to be a mortician. He's moving home with his family while he goes to school. He's got a great sense of humor, and a fun way of rambling. I like his body, and his way of being... He lives very near where I work. But he smokes, which is annoying. And he gives good hugs. Which is a requirement. We might hang out on Sunday.

I have to get some sleep. Mark & I are hanging with Kim & Jeremy later. I don't know if Jeremy will be hanging out with me later or not. Both he & Mollie are coming with me to visit my grandmother (and other relatives & places of my youth) on Monday.

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