Sunday, August 13, 2006

The birthday gathering was a lot of fun. Bryan, Chris, Mollie, Carrie, Adam, Jeremy, Kim, Heidi, Nate, Andrea & her friend, & our neighbors Zyba(?) & Alice all made appearances. Mark brought me a pizza, which was fabulous (I really wanted some). There was drinking, and cake, which I had a slice of after everyone left. Janice called. As did Catherine, who I haven't spoken to in 10 years! That was wild. I also got a bunch of e-mails, e-cards, and myspace messages. I talked to Shawn Foreman as well. It was nice. Really nice.

I didn't want gifts, but Carrie gave me a stuffed elephant, which has a certain significance for me, plus she gave me this heartbreakingly cool card. Mollie sent me a $30.00 Amazon e-mail thingy. Bryan & Chris said they were saving their gift for the 'real' party. I got some cards from family members. Mark gave me my computer weeks ago. Jeremy told me he loves me, and he was sober, which has never happened before, so that was huge. Though it was weird hearing it so soon, after drunken Jeremy told me that he loved me but that I shouldn't take it to heart. Jeremy also said he was making me a birthday gift, but that he just thought of what he was going to make me, and it would be done at a later date. I told him what I wanted was a movie night, where we could watch 3 movies of my choosing, and I think that will be fun.

The whole night was fun. There was Uno for some of my friends, and Euchre for me, with Jeremy as my partner. There was massive JENGA, with two sets combined as one!?! This was drunken Jenga. Chris borrowed a Mercedes Lackey book from me, and Bryan borrowed GLBT dvds. Kim borrowed "Billy Elliot". Lots of conversation with friends, and hugs, and pictures and videos. I'd write about more of the details, but I'm really beat, and I want to go to bed.

But I just wanted to thank everyone who came, and helped keep up my track record of fun birthdays; this is my 5th one in a row; all previous birthdays, pretty much sucked. So THANK YOU ALL!

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Woke up around 12:30pm. Mark was getting ready to leave; he was going to his dad's house to drop off our old scanner for Marcus, who's visiting this weekend. I had another slice of my birthday cake. It's not that bad, actually. I wish I'd had a slice when everyone was here so that they could SEE me eating birthday cake, but I had Mark take a picture of just that last night, so they could see it someday. ;-0)

I think I was a little short with my best friend Mollie last night. She seemed really kind of out of it most of the night, which had me worried, but she said she was just tired from...lack of sleep. I had wanted to play a hand of Euchre on my birthday, and I wanted Mollie to play, but the game kept being delayed, and I had to keep running all over the condo. It was fun, but it was weird having to run all over the place and make sure everyone got some attention. Adam, Mollie & Carrie stayed downstairs when a few of us went upstairs, and they played a game of Uno to help pass the time. Some guests told me that Mollie, Carre & Adam were bored. I didn't understand why they didn't come upstairs with us... But I told everybody we'd play Euchre as soon as Mollie was done playing Uno, because I knew she had to work early today. Then I went down and told Mollie, Carrie & Adam, but they were all screaming at each other about the Uno game ("Did you just skip me bitch?") and punching each other other for making the others draw cards, and they only stopped for a moment to explain that they were bored, and when I asked why they didn't join us upstairs they were again lost to the evil Uno. So I just left them to it, as I wasn't getting any feedback. And I figured they were having fun now; they sounded happy. But when they were done they said they were leaving, which annoyed me a bit, because Bryan & I had been waiting for them to finish so we could play the 1 game of Euchre. But as soon as I caught the annoyance in my voice, and the look on Mollie's face, I banished the base emotion from the room and ruffled Adam's hair, hugged Carrie & Mollie and thanked them all for coming. And it all worked out, as I played with Mark, Bryan, and Jeremy. Jeremy & I lost, but Jeremy did great. And it was sweet that he played as he hates the game. ;-0)

So, if there's any lasting bitterness at my moment of crabbyness, I just want to apologise to Mollie, Carrie, and Adam. And if anyone feels they were slighted, I just want to say that I was trying to pay attention to every person there, and it wasn't possible for me to do that with everyone all at the same time, and I didn't even try, because I knew that all my friends are friendly people and didn't need to be guarded by Bald Jason to have a good time with one another ;-0) My friends rock! And for anyone reading this, who wasn't invited to this gathering, this was meant to be a small thing, that would be a warm up for the REAL party that will most likely be celebrated in September. If you want to come to that party, don't hesitate to e-mail me and let me know.

The rest of the night was all fun. The JENGA game was just insane!!! I know a lot of pictures were taken too, which helps with my mandate of MORE pictures this year. The last couple of years, I've had 3 rolls of film developed over the coure of a year, with random photos taken at random events, but this year I've been really good about documenting lots of moments and times. I thank Mark for helping me with that. He recorded a lot of party video too. We got this video camera for our friend Kevin Clark in case he wanted to send out any message to people from his hospital room, where he was discharged a few days later to die in his home. Mark & I then said we'd use it to capture as much time as we could, only we haven't, so we've recently taken it up and started recording stuff. Good. Good. ;-0)

I think I'm going to eat some more, and maybe read. I work tonight, 7-close. I have Monday off, then work 1-5:30pm on Tuesday, then have Wednesday off, then I work 1-5:30pm on Thursday, then I have Friday & Saturday off, and then close the store on Sunday. My sister Janice and I are visiting our father on Friday. Those are my plans so far this week.

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   Monday, August 14, 2006

Work was mostly fun last night, with Nate, Andrea, & Heidi. After work, I came home to find Mark still plugging away on my computer. He installed some stuff that's pretty to look at, though I have no understanding of it. ;-0) I slept. I woke up around 9am. I said goodbye to Mark, who was leaving for work. I finished watching the first part of Anne of Green Gables; laughing and crying, as I always do when I watch it. I read more of "Magic's Price". Then I had a snack, and caught up on e-mails and myspace messages. Now I'm going to have something real to eat. After that, I have no plans.

Actually, Mark might be taking pictures of me later. I haven't had any naughty pictures taken for the fast approaching update. Jeremy was going to help with with some, but when that will be, I'm no longer sure. Maybe I'll get some good pictures at Necto tonight? I still don't know if I'm going though; we'll see.

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Mark got a new rental car, as ours won't be done until Wednesday. We now have high-speed internet again, which rocks! I finished watching "Anne of Green Gables", and later watched "Six Degrees of Separation". I love seeing movies that I love; reminds me why I love them so much. I've been trying to decide what movies to watch with Jeremy. hmmmmmm...

I've had such a lazy day. It's been great! Should I go to Necto or what? I have no clue what I'm doing next, but I'm not that worried about it either.

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   Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Mark wanted to eat before pictures, ate, watched the last half of HIGHLANDER, and fell asleep. Great. I went to Necto, where this trannie bitch asked me if I would fuck her up the ass, to which I said that she wasn't my type, and she hit my forehead with her fist. I knocked her hat off, and she grabbed me; I told her to let go and she wouldn't - and started burning me with her cigarette - I took the cigarette and put it out on her forehead, and left her screeching, while the lovely people that run the bar told her not to cause trouble again. Then I danced a lot. Didn't get any pictures though.

Erg.

Oh...Kim is on myspace!!! ;-0)

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   Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Slept until noon yesterday. I had to get ready in a hurry. I'm all out of Prilosec finally, and started my new meds. For now, they suck. I feel weird taking something new, when the old ones were finally starting to work for me. I was a bit late for work; Mark got distracted and forgot to pick me up, but he was nice enough to call my work and tell them that. Work wasn't as slow as it has been on recent week days, but it wasn't busy. I worked with Bryan, DJ, & Nate. Bill came in shortly before I left. Oh, and they gave me my birthday card for this year. I had expected it last week, and then I completely forgot about it. The card was cool. With many interesting comments. ;-0) Kim stopped by, got some work related info, and gave me a big hug; telling me I smelled really good.

That's a whole thing with me. Most everybody loves the way I hug, and comments on how good I smell. But anybody could hug the way I do, and I just bathe a lot, and throw on some cheap perfumy crap. But people seem to like it.

Well, then Jeremy called Kim, and there was a hello given, and she was off. I'm slightly jealous that she gets to see him so often, but then again it might be detrimental if I did see him as often as she does. I think I'm starting to get a handle on the whole Jeremy/Jason friend thing. At least I am, most of the time. I still have my moments, but they are fewer now.

After work, I just wanted to go home. I picked Mark up, and he didn't need to go anywhere. He reminded me that we are in fact, broke. We have less money than I thought we did. It sucks.

I watched "Bride & Prejudice" when I got home. It wasn't as good as I expected it to be, but I'm glad I finally saw it. Mark took a few pictures of me. I have 1 roll ready to go. Another nearly finished. The black & white roll in Mark's camera has about 9 pictures left on it. I'll hopefully be taking another color roll at Necto Monday night, as Mark will be going with me, and Kim may join us.

So, we're thinking about having the larger party September 9. I need to talk to Carrie about it though; I don't want to ruin any of her birthday plans. We'll see how that plays out. She's given her blessing, but she sometimes says things, almost in an insulting way. Not that she's insulting you, but she says a nice thing, while saying it in a way to point out that she's not happy, or she's pissed off, or that she doesn't mean what she's saying at all. And I want to be exactly sure of what she's feeling BEFORE I set this in stone. You know? I don't want her to be hurt in anyway because of my plans.

After pictures last night, I stopped by Aut Bar, but it was so dead that I promptly returned home. I thought a lot of people might be at Oz, but I sadly don't have any cash to get inside! I chatted online, but my heart wasn't in it. I read. And then I slept. I woke up around noon again, and wrote this.

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I hate my new version of Adobie Photoshop. I can't even get the most simple things done in it. Half of the things that I used on a regular basis are just gone, or have moved somewhere where I can't find them. And many of the simplist tasks have become far too complex to be of any worth to me. Ugh! I just wanted to work on my webpage. And I can't. And it's pissing me off.

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   Friday, August 18, 2006

I did eventually get some work done on my webpage, Wednesday night/Thursday morning. I wrote 4 poems in that time, and got those posted. The final poem in that set, marked my 100th poem written in 2006. 2 of the new poems were inspired by Jeremy. I updated his page on my site, and updated some other things too. I also went to see my dad, but he didn't answer his door. I tried to go to bed early, but my acid reflux, which the new meds haven't helped with, was in overdrive, and I couldn't sleep, or do much of anything without suffering.

Thursday morning, I sent a long overdue e-mail to Jeremy. There was much on my mind, and we don't talk on the phone enough, or see each other in person, for all the things I'd like to tell him about. I don't think he reads my blog regularly anymore, which is understandable, as he's way busy, but I'm missing the communication we used to have, and that's ok. I sent him a fantastic, in depth e-mail, wich all kinds of things I'd had on my mind - and asked for a reply. And it was there, at the back of my mind all day.

Mark stayed home from work on Thursday. He got a lot of his shit done, and he talked about taking Friday off as well, so he could get the rest finished. I thought that would be great, because he'd get to visit with Janice and her kids, and he could take some great pictures of us all...

I worked on Thursday, and already sick of being sick, I stopped taking the new meds, and switched back to the old. The old ones were working when I switched, and there's no reason for me to switch when the old drugs are working; no reason to be sick, when I don't need to be. I was a bit worried for a second, about what the doctor would say, but then remembered he's an ass, and then never looked back again.

I worked with Heidi, and Jeff, Nate & Joe. Work was really dead, and we were way over on labor, so they gave me an hour lunch, which I took with Mark. After work, we got groceries, then when we got home, I watched more of Anne of Green Gables (the Sequel). Then I got up the energy to try my Dad again. Mark said he could go too, as he was done with his work, and so off we went. Dad was home, and brought his clothes that I've had in storage for over a year now. Dad's fridge was empty, and he didn't have any money. I gave him $10.00. I'm very short on money right now, which I'm sure I've mentioned, but I had to give him something. Of course he had us take him somewhere so he could buy cigarettes. We brought him to the condo, and he posed for some pictures with me. Then we took him to Meijer and Mark insisted on getting him some groceries. Mark was really great, and he was impressed that my dad was trying, as Mark had noticed through several subtle actions of my father. And my dad looked a bit better this time, than he did on our last visit. After groceries, I was exhausted, so Mark drove us back to Dad's where we packed away his groceries for him. Then he asked if we could give him a ride to Abe's (of course), which I did, as I knew how to drive there. Then I drove us to the Aut Bar, so I could see if R.M. was there, only he wasn't. Mark drove us home then, as I was so tired.

I checked my e-mail when I got home, and there was a brief response from Jeremy about the e-mail, saying he wanted to read his new poems, and send me a real reply to the message, but he had to run to work. The message was from the morning. I sent a response saying I looked forward to his real response. My left eye was hurting, but I thought maybe my eyes were just tired in general, and I went to bed.

The phone rang at 5:07am, but by the time I found it, they had hung up. The call was from Chris (Bryan's fiance), but I didn't call back right away, because my left eye felt swollen. Sure enough, I have a stye, in my left eye. My dad gets them really bad. I get them, every few months it seems, over the last year or two. I put hot compresses on them and eventually they go away on there own, usually after 2 or 3 days. They really suck though, and I find it hard to drive with one, because I have to squint at everything, and there's this constant pressure on my eye(s). Yuck. I'm glad I have 2 days off, to deal with them before I have to face work, but these things are so troublesome.

I called Chris back, and left her a message; letting her know that I hoped everything was ok, and that if not just give me a call back. I went back to sleep, but woke up several times, and applied a hot compress every time. I called Janice around 9am, when Mark announced that he'd be going to work today after all. That meant that Dad no longer had a ride. But when I was expressing the fact to Janice on the phone, Mark said he'd pick dad up for us on his lunch. So that's mostly dealt with.

Chris called while I was on the phone with Janice. Kayla had gone into labor sometime yesterday (I think), and they lost the baby. That's not exactly accurate, but I'm not clear on all the details, and don't want to publish them here anyways - long story short - there are strong emotions running rampant, and there's a lot of pain to go around.

I need to get ready.

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