Sunday, December 30, 2007

My stomach really hates me. Actually, all my insides hate me at the moment; they want me to suffer and die. I think I might have a fever, because I'm cold, and I'm in my room (which is always warm) and the heat is on, and my vent is open. I was just feverishly sick like a month or two ago, and I usually only get that way once a year, if that - so this is unusual for me. Blah.

   posted by Bald Jason at 02:56 AM
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Ooh. I'm not sick. I'm just kind of insane! I started back on my meds for my tummy, and they make you feel like you're crawling out of your own skin, and can turn you into a raging bitch for the first week or two; they also have the wonderful side effect of making you almost impossible to cum. It's just not a great experience, but they do help eventually. So...that's kind of a relief; I just feel bad for anyone who encounters me.

   posted by Bald Jason at 05:20 AM
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I finished disc 3 of Battlestar, so I've now seen the first 12 episodes, and have only 5 left in Season 1. I'm gonna take a break from the show now, much as I'd like to continue, so I can get my Trek book read. I still feel sick to my stomach, and agitated, but I've been through this once before and I know it will get better.

   posted by Bald Jason at 09:32 AM
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I should be at work; I got out of bed ontime, thanks to Mark. But I still feel all weird, and now I'm dehydrated as well. Mark's mom was here while I was asleep, and left me a little gift basket with a stuffed snowman, a $10.00 Target Gift Card, $30 cash and a box full of candy. There were sweet tarts and candy coated kisses. I can't have the latter, but I had 3 of of the former...a half hour later while I was shaving they started coming back up. I'm back to being sick again, and I really don't want to bitch about it. I've really been sick for days, but have avoided talking about it. I just took more pills though, and hopefully they'll stay down. I have to wait and see before I can go to work. Actually, my new pills say I shouldn't drive, so I might have to have Mark take me in.

I read my book before I slept; I have less than 100 pages left now, which is good, as I want to finish it after I get home from work. Mark is going to watch the first episodes of Battlestar while I'm at work. He watched the 3rd Resident Evil movie, and I think we had the same opinion of the movie.

I want to go to Steven Ball's New Year's Ever party tomorrow night, but I'm worried that I'll be ill. I wish I could describe how these new pills make me feel, but... I start something, and then I'm sick of it right away. And I get agitated really easy. And I feel feverish for a bit... and then... that goes away after a week or 2. I've been through this before, so I know. I just... I think I'm slightly insane anyways. Like...I have this really amazing memory for stuff that happened years ago, but if it's somewhere I left my keys then I'm screwed. And if I have to remember something important about my body or something relating to my health - it's like it gets blocked out and I just feel stupid.

I'm not sure if my stomach is settled or not, but I need to slowly attempt to get my shoes on.

   posted by Bald Jason at 07:54 PM
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   Monday, December 31, 2007

Mark drove me to and from work. Work was mostly ok, though there were moments of lines filled with annoying groups of people. I didn't take a break. I went to the bank and the grocery store after work. And we just got home.

   posted by Bald Jason at 12:50 AM
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I went to sleep shortly after the last entry, and woke up around 4:30am I think. I read more of my Voyager book; have abut 60 pages left. I chatted with Michael online, then got something to drink. I'm going to finish the Voyager book now if I can.

I have today off. I might go to a few parties tonight, though the thought of driving around town on New Year's Eve, with all the drunks doesn't really appeal to me. I'll probably watch some more Battlestar later; possibly finish off the first season if I can.

I got an e-mail from my Aunt Debbie the other day. She's the one aunt on my father's side that I feel any kind of real bond with. The others are nice, but they feel like strangers...while Debbie feels like family. I'm not sure why that is. She wants to hang out. I was thinking maybe I'd invite her to come over on Wednesday, as my dad and sister are visiting. I'm not sure that would be a great day though. We'll see.

   posted by Bald Jason at 07:51 AM
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I talked to Janice this morning, and we're bringing our father here for the visit. Cool. And I talked to Aunt Debbie this morning as well. She can't make it on Wednesday because of work, but it was a nice conversation. She told met that the pictures of dad & me on my website made her cry when she saw them. She gave me news of my other aunts, and my grandmother. Janice & I later talked again about all this news, and I realized that I don't love our grandmother on our father's side. I don't hate her or anything, but she's never pursued a relationship with us, and for that I think she's kind of bitch. She treats my dad really well though, for which I'm grateful. She's family in name only though. Which is strange and sad.

I have this urge to watch the 4 Alien movies, but I'm not sure when I'll get around to it. I'd like to watch the extended cuts on the widescreen tv; I prefer the extended cuts of each film, though the 3rd one is a bit of a mess. Hopefully someday they'll pick up the pieces of that film and put them together so they make sense.

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:10 PM
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I woke up a little while ago. I feel kind of drained. Mark is watching Battlestar Galactica. I never got around to watching it myself today; that's ok. If I watch 3 episodes a day, every day between now and the day Torchwood starts up again I'll be done with all that's been released so far. Though something tells me I'll watch more than 3 on at least 1 of those days, and probably none on others. I'll make it work.

I should get ready. I should.

   posted by Bald Jason at 07:38 PM
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