Sunday, February 3, 2008

Since the last entry, I've eaten, started the next Trek E-Book installment (S.C.E. #03: Hard Crash), talked to Michael on the phone, and watched 6 more episodes of Battlestar Galactica. I watched "Epiphanies", "Black Market", "Scar", "Sacrifice", "The Captain's Hand", & (my favorite episode so far) "Downloaded". That leaves just the final 2-Part story from the 2nd Season.

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I read more of the Trek story; I have 77 pages left. I watched 5 more episodes of Battlestar Galactica. I tried to sleep, but couldn't quite get there. I chatted on gay.com for about an hour, and met a lot of nice people who respected that I wasn't looking for sex, but still took the time to compliment me - which was unexpected. I slept. I woke up once with some pain, but it went away and I got back to sleep. I just woke up again a few minutes ago. I need to get ready for work.

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   Monday, February 4, 2008

I was late to work last night. I shaved for the first time in weeks and was right on track, but then I got sidetracked by those Torchwood bigot 'fans' and then was left wondering if I even worked, as the schedule hadn't been finished when I'd left work on Friday. Still...it was so dead at work that we had everything done by 10pm. And Bryan sent me home around 11:30. I went to the grocery store before home. I chatted with Mollie & Michael. I watched a movie I rented ("Scenes of a Sexual Nature"), which I'd read about - it was odd with not much happening, and yet I wasn't bored. I chatted on gay.com for awhile. I watched 2 more episodes of Battlestar Galactica...started another one, but went to sleep after the opening credits, at about 8:30am.

I woke up around 3pm. I checked my e-mail. And found some Doctor Who news. Apparently the best bet for the season four opener is Saturday, April 5 - either 3 days after, or 4 days before the 2nd season finale of Torchwood. The new UK theatrical trailer for season 4 has already been posted in youtube. I've seen 2 copies so far. See those, here & here.

I chatted with Michael briefly. Updated some bits on my webpage. And now I'm going back to bed. I'm still tired, and I have the time, which is nice.

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I woke up around 8pm. I had a snack. I checked my voicemail. Jennifer Clemente & I have been playing phone tag for a few weeks now. Checked my e-mail but there was nothing of importance there. I'm all but certain that I'll be going to Necto tonight.

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   Tuesday, February 5, 2008

After the last entry, I went to Barnes & Noble, and Borders to look for new Who magazines, but they didn't have any. Then I thought I'd pick up "The Road To Dune" which has a story that I need, but there was a printing error in the copy they had, so I came home empty handed. But surpringly, Mark's comic order came in and I actually got a Doctor Who magazine before it hit the stands here, which is really rare! That cheered me up! Then I found a Torchwood article online that gave the rest of the titles for Season 2, plus some plot spoilers (which were mostly things that I knew or had at least heard rumors of). Awesome.

Season 2 of Torchwood goes somthing like this:

01 Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
02 Sleeper
03 To The Last Man
04 Meat (airs in about 40 hours)
05 Adam
06 Reset
07 Dead Man Walking
08 A Day in the Death
09 Something Borrowed
10 From Out of the Rain
11 Adrift
12 Fragments
13 Exit Wounds (finale)

After eating and reading my magazine, I changed my clothes and headed to Necto. I had a blast. I bought Charles a drink, as they'd mistakenly given him a 21 & over bracelet. I had 4 drinks myself. I complimented this extremely cute guy. I danced with these girls that I met. I danced with Christine. I met Jolene & Jessica, Danni & Caitlyn. I ran into Heath, who Mollie knows. It was all good clean fun. And good exercise. ;-0)

I'm home now (obviously), listening to music from Torchwood ("Ooh La" by The Kooks, at the moment). Still mostly dressed and smelling of the bar. I'll probably shower and eat, and maybe read a bit more, or possibly watch another of the movies I rented. I don't know.

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After the last entry I ate; I had eggs, toast and water; all of it good. I stayed up so I wouldn't get sick afterwards. I played a video game. I showered. I ordered the four Dune paperbacks that I didn't have, plus 3 movies. The books turned out to be buy 3 get 1 free, which was a nice surprise, plus I had a gift certificate for $47.95, so I only ended up paying about $18. I was planning on ordering the lastest Harry Potter dvd, but passed on it in favor of 3 GLBTQ titles. I so need to get some sleep before work now.

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   Wednesday, February 6, 2008

I had a headache last night, but it wasn't a migrain, which was really interesting, because I don't usually get them this mild. It was so tolerable. Weird. Today my stomach is slightly upset, but nothing near as bad as it has been in the past. I'm writing this off as a good day.

I've finished another Trek fiction installment since the last entry. And watched nearly all of Battlestar Galactica (just 5 more episodes left, including the Razor movie as 2 installments). My favorite episode of the 3rd Season (so far) has been "Unfinished Business", which will have an extended cut on the dvd, so I'm interested in seeing that.

The new Doctor Who magazine comes out tomorrow (in the UK), and there's usually new info online just after, so I'm looking forward to that. I need to get the new Buffy comic which came out today, though I doubt I'll venture out tonight. My Dune books will be here tomorrow (hopefully), and I'm planning on reading the first short story as my next bit of reading. It seems we might be getting 2 episodes of Torchwood next week (giving us glimpses of Jack's past - Ianto/Jack goodness - and the return of Martha Jones), though that's not certain, and even if we do get 2 episodes, we'll most likely have 2 weeks to wait for the next installment. I've downloaded Torchwood 2x04, which I'll watch with Mark when he gets home.

The roads are really bad from what I hear; freezing rain all day, and then snow on top of it.

Everybody drive safe out there.

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   Thursday, February 7, 2008

Mark made it home safe from work and we both enjoyed the new Torchwood. The new episode info from the latest Doctor Who magazine has already been posted, which was all good to know. Oh, and The Sarah Jane Adventures have officially been confirmed for 12 new episodes.

Later, my stomach was still upset, but still not as bad as it's been in the past. I'm cool with it, which is odd, I suppose.

Mark & I both finished the 3rd Season of Battlestar Galactica, though separately. I'll watch the Razor movie later. I would rate Battlestar Galactica as my 2nd favorite Sci-Fi show after Firefly/Serenity, which is high praise from me. To me, the Firefly series and it's concluding feature film are this perfect thing, which was then shared with some of my closest friends. There are no flaws in it. Battlestar Galactica is in many ways it's equal, or even better - yet it isn't complete, and I won't know how I really feel about it until it reaches it's conclusion. That being said, as it is, I can recommend it highly to my friends. My 3rd favorite sci-fi series would be Doctor Who & it's spin-offs. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, and Enterprise follow closly behind. Buffy/Angel would rank on that list too, except I don't consider them sci-fi. I'm hoping the 2 upcoming Star Wars series will also feature on this list.

I can't wait to dive into the Dune series when my books arrive tomorrow. I'm thinking of reading the Narnia books as well. I've read the first 3 chronological books, but never made it through the other 4. I'd asked for a boxed set of the series when I was in grade school, and gotten them for Christmas. I have fond memories of reading "Prince Caspian" (my favorite of the 3 I've read), at my grandmother's home. I started but did not finish "The Voyage of the Dawn Treader" which I found to be annoying at the time. I read "The Magician's Nephew" at random, years later - and was excited to learn that it was in fact a prequel, which any of the new box sets take for granted; the older boxed sets used to carry the 7 volume set in the order the books were published, which is rather different. Anyways, I might purchase some new copies of the books, as mine are boxed away, and are kind of crappy. lol

I haven't spoken to Michael in days. I haven't seen him in nearly a week. I think about him a lot. I miss him. But I don't know what I should say to him at any given moment. I'm kind of wrapped up in my own head; so many thoughts, and all so complex that I find it hard to express them. I sometimes wonder if this is how my father feels all the time? Did he end up getting lost completely? I think so. Though I think that on my worst days I'm simply breaching the edge of the dark forest where my real father was last seen. Sometimes I catch glimpses of him, but never for long.

Feeling physically ill, and terrible weather doesn't encourage me to break out of my personal shell.

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Before going to bed last night I viewed the Battlestar special 'Razor' and all it's special features. It was a good episode for the series and should (IMO) be viewed during the 2nd Season, between the episodes "The Captain's Hand" & "Downloaded" - it does set up something for Season 4, but the placement of the episode is a no-brainer, and it ruins nothing. So I'm done with Battlestar Galactica until Season 4 until April. I'll be sending my discs to Mollie next week sometime, or at least that's the plan.

I slept fairly well...though I woke up in distress. I've been ill all day. There have however been bright spots. I got to talk to Jennifer, and she helped me make some decisions and think of things in a new light. Also, my Dune books arrived and I starting reading the first chronological story (Hunting Harkonnens), which I'll finish soon. I may then dive into the first novel.

I've decided to begin an experiment with a drug that has been perscribed to me. The drug is an anti-depressant called Cymbalta, but it's not been perscribed to me because of depression, but because of the side effects of the drug which would be good for my stomach. My doctor told me to mess with the dosage until I found what was right for me, but I never got around to it, because the reactions I had to the meds were new to me, and kind of freaked me out. When you first take it, it makes your skin crawl for about a week (taking it everyday), but then that goes away, and it helps my stomach problems immensly. And while it doesn't prevent me from desiring sex, it does make it impossible for me to have an orgasm (or at least I've never had one while taking the drug). It was so odd for me, that I stopped taking the drug altogether. I like sex. And I just decided that if I had a bad spell with my stomach I'd take the drug, and then get off it again. But I don't think that's the best way to go anymore. Now I'm thinking I'll take the drug, and see how long it stays in my system...and go from there. I'll use that information to decide how often I take it, and hopefully I'll be able to get some kind of balance going where I can have my cake and eat it too, and not get sick from it afterwards. Wish me luck. I think I might need it.

Oh. And if I turn into a raving bitch, I apologise.

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   Friday, February 8, 2008

Not having a great week.

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Called into work. I'm in the exhausted skin crawling phase of my treatment. Hope for the best, but never ever expect it.

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   Saturday, February 9, 2008

When I think about things I get stuck. That's a side effect. I don't get anything done this way. I think about something and I'm lost. An hour or two ago I was chatting online with Michael. Then I was chatting with him and some friends on gay.com, and I started craving fresh Benny's Bakery's glazed doughnuts. I didn't think about it, I just told everyone I had to go shower and dress so I could get my doughnuts, and then I was showering and getting dressed and the minute I actually thought about stepping outside and warming up the car and driving to the bakery for my 4 glazed, I froze. I sat on my messy bed and stared into space for 10 minutes. Now I feel like I could go now...but I'm not sure it's in my best interest to drive. I know it's not. And though I feel like I could make there and back with no trouble, when I'm like this, I can be wrong; my abilities switch on a dime, and I'm not on firm ground here. It would scare me if I could bring myself to care.

I'm beneath the surface. I can see the other me up there, but I can't touch or feel him. When I can, then it will be ok to drive. But doughnuts won't be available then.

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I eventually slept. I don't know what time it was, but it had been light outside for a few hours. I had watched the extended cut of David Lynch's Dune, and I was already tired when I started it, but couldn't sleep. I woke up around 5:30pm. I sorted some e-mail. I laughed at Mollie's comments (thanks for that). I changed my mind about what I wanted to read, and began the Voyager segment of last year's Mirror Universe series; it seems like the right time.

I should go to the pharmacy, but I don't know that I have the energy.

I'd really like to fuck, and I'm sure that Michael would oblige me, but I don't know that I feel up to conversation. Oh, well.

I'm going to clean my room (finally). It's been beyond terrible for almost a week.

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Still haven't cleaned my room. But I did get some much needed work done on my webpage, so I do feel like I've accomplished something, which is nice.

I just remembered that I was supposed to take my prilosec like 8 hours ago. Fuck.

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