Sunday, April 19, 2009

We went out to Mark & Dan's. Played 'Apples to Apples'; 3 games I think. I won once; Danny won once; not sure who won the 3rd game...maybe we didn't play 3 times? It was fun. Then we got in the hot tub; everyone but Mark eventually got in. It was fun. I had a headache all night, and all of the day, but I've taken the maximum Midrin, so I'm sort of screwed. It was a little after 2am when we got home. Michael is now driving home, very tired. I hope he'll be ok.

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Just woke up, though I'm still tired. I went to check my phone for texts, but my phone was dead. It's charging now, and I just got texts. Mollie sent one last night to let me know she's getting a car next week!!! She's back online too, so I'm guessing that things are looking up for her! That's so cool. Michael texted me after he left last night to tell me he loves me. I hope he made it home safetly.

Friday night, Mark came in my room to talk about something, but I was sleeping so he left it. I asked him about that when we were in the car with Michael on our way home but he said it was nothing. Then when we got home and I was going to bed I asked him again, cause I knew that it wasn't just nothing and he told me that he was worried that he was going to lose me. This is interesting to me as I don't think I've ever had him express anything like this when I've dated anyone else...and Michael has been very inclusive of Mark, saying he never wants to mess up our relationship in any way, and including Mark in many of our plans. If anything, it would seem that this would be the guy to not worry about, compared to other men I've dated. Or maybe I'm misunderstanding him. I aksed what worried him about Michael specifically, and he said he'd think about it.

I had a terrible cough last night, and my head was killing me. I couldn't take anymore midrin as I'd taken the maximum, so it wouldn't have helped. I found that I had some cough syrip left from the last time I was sick and I took that. I hope I don't have bronchitis; I used to get that a lot when I was little and a doctor once told my mum that if anyone around me had it that I would catch it. It might just be allergies, or all the smoke I've been around; sometimes when I kiss a smoker it makes me cough later, I've noticed.

I don't know if I mentioned this in a previous post but I pre-ordered BSG 4.5 yesterday, along with the prequel comic to the new Trek movie, "Countdown". BSG should be here in July. Caprica will be here on Tuesday. Then we just have "The Plan" in November (extended cut on DVD no later than December I'd imagine, though I could be wrong). And then the Caprica tv series in 2010.

Anyways...my phone is charging. I'll see if I can get some more sleep.

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Never went back to sleep. Can't believe it's been almost 9 hours. I've spoken to Michael. He'll be here around 7pm on Thursday for Mark's 38th birthday. He could come tomorrow night, but unfortunately my hemorrhoids (disgusting, I know) are back, and they're worse than they've been in many years - like someone raping me with a butcher knife. Not fun. I think they're complications, but nothing to worry about really. So I'm just trying to stay comfortable.

Been working on discs for Mollie today. I've finished 4 so far, with several more to go.

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I played Wii Bowling for awhile. I'm slowly getting better, though I don't know that it has anything to do with skill. I have Pro Status now. I'll probably forget anything I've learned by the time I play again, but it was fun. It was a bit of a workout too for an out of shape old man like me. Nice.

Looks like I missed a call from Michael. I can't tell from the message if he's still at work, or he managed to get out early.

Mark left for work about an hour ago. I forgot he was working so I didn't go to the store earlier; he's going to stop for me on his way home, which is fine.

I miss Michael.

I miss Mollie. I have several of her discs finished, including BSG & a few DS9. I'll do the rest later. I hope to send these out to her this week, but her being online again could mean that she's moved into a new home, as she'd told me once that she was waiting until then - but things might have changed for her; I don't know. We'll see.

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   Monday, April 20, 2009

I bowled 250! That will probably never happen again, but it was nice. lol. I've spoken on the phone with Michael. Now chatting on AIM with Michael, Mark & my ex-bf Michael. I so need to sleep soon. I have more Mollie discs finished. yay!

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I went to bed around 2:30am I think. I got up around 11am. I've spent my day playing Zelda, Bowling, and working on dvds for Mollie. I've also spent some time with Mark, and chatting with Michael. Mark is helping track down some more TV for Mollie, while I get more discs ready. I have to go restart Mark's laundry while he gets some sleep.

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   Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I got several more discs done and played more Zelda. Zelda is fun so far. I had to do all these random tasks, then I had to save some children from this wacky demon horde. Now I've been pulled into some kind of alternate universe (after my friends were captured) and I've been turned into a wolf, and this freaky elf chic is helping me (I think). It's interesting. With the game play and the disc burning, I feel like I've had a productive day...or at least a fairly geeky one. My arm hurts from all the Wii Bowling I've been playing. lol

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I went to bed about 40 minutes after the last entry. I started a disc for Mollie first, and continued reading a Star Trek Voyager novel that I'd started earlier in the year ("Homecoming", the first of the Voyager Relaunch series). Then oblivion. I woke up around 9am, from bad dreams of being in High School again, forgetting my locker combination just as a host of other problems arose - though there were some erotic moments as well. After waking I just wanted to take some prilosec before going back to bed but I needed something to drink. I went to the kitchen to get some water and when I pulled the bottle of water up I knocked over my last bottle of wine (which I'd had a sip of the night before, and it was fantastic) onto the floor where it shattered. I took my prilosec, called Mark to see where he was (as I then noticed that Mark wasn't home and he should have gotten off work more than an hour before) - and it was while talking to him that I realized I was still half asleep as I could barely talk. He'd stayed after at work as he needed to go to the bank and they don't open until 9am; he gets off at 8am. He let me go and I started cleaning up wine and picking up a LOT of glass. I cut my right hand a few times, but only little tiny scrapes - it didn't feel good seeping wine into them though. Hell of a way to start the morning. And I really wish I had my wine!

Mark got home around that time and didn't seem upset with me for knocking something on the floor and breaking something, but this was perhaps because I sounded so pathetic and my hand was bleeding. The mess is mostly cleaned up I think. Mark told me not to worry about it, and that I should just let it dry and then vacume it when I wake up. Ok. I wanted to hug him, but I'm under strict orders (by him) to stay away from him as much as possible. Apparently there's a really bad bug going around at his work, and he's afraid that he might have been exposed and might pass it on to me. Blah.

Caprica and the prequel comic to the new Trek movie should both arrive here today. I'm really looking forward to them. I'm going back to bed now (if I can), just as soon as a start a new disc for Mollie. Hopefully the day gets better. I want to have Michael over later; perhaps we can watch Caprica together? He wants to watch BSG and that would seem a good first step.

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Caprica and the Star Trek prequel comic have arrived. I read the graphic novel while I was burning discs for Mollie. I liked it a lot and hope the books (which are around 5 years behind the events in the new story) lead into this.

I never got back to sleep.

I haven't watched Caprica yet; I haven't had the time. I still need to clean my room a bit and shave and shower...only I'm not feeling so hot. My hemorrhoids have been better the last 2 days or so, but they just started getting worse again...and now I'm bleeding. Ironically, I just saw my doctor about possibly having surgery to take care of them and he gave me the name & number of a specialist, but told me that it's not usually recommended that people have surgery unless there is a lot of bleeding from them. At the time, I pointed out that I had bled once when using a new medication on them back in 1994 / 1995 - but that I stopped using it and that I'd had no blood loss of that kind since then. Only now, randomly, I do. Weird. Does this mean surgery is an option? I don't want to have surgery if they are prone to coming back regardless of the procedure. But if I could have something done, and I wouldn't have to worry about these literal pains in my ass - AND I could still enjoy getting fucked - then I'd be all for it. I suppose I should make that appointment.

Michael was supposed to come over, but now I'm leaning more towards cancelling. I need to not move around or anything. Today is really, really sucking A LOT. And I still wish I had my wine (and I still need to finish cleaning the kitchen). Blah.

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I called Michael and cancelled. Now I'll start another disc and take a bath. Or that's my tentative plan.

I'm sad. I'm in pain. I'm bleeding. And everything mostly sucks today. :-0(

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   Wednesday, April 22, 2009

My Tuesday eventually got better. I cleaned the Kitchen of glass (or I tried). I cleaned up my room. I burned more discs. I did the dishes. Michael came over and I beat him at bowling, though not by much. Later Mark played him and missed only 1 pin in the whole game, beating Michael by over 100 points with a score of 299!!! Wow. My record is 250. lol

Later Michael took me to get tested for HIV but HARC closes earlier on Tuesdays that I thought and they were closing up shop when we arrived, so I was bummed. Michael took me to LC for food and back home. We watched the new episode of "Brothers and Sisters"; a series Michael had never seen before. It was a pretty cheesy episode, but there was a lot of gay storyline which I think he liked.

Mark left for work, and Michael & I cuddled. Later we had some more fun in my room. We wrestled and fooled around. I managed to forget how much pain I was in for awhile. But the best part was just holding him in my arms, cuddled up close and naked. It was perfection.

Later we showered and Michael had to get going. I was sad to see him go... I really wanted him to stay.

I'll probably go to bed soon. My ass is killing me. It doesn't usually hurt like this. It's usually very annoying, but the pain isn't this acute. :0(

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I couldn't sleep. I watched the first episode of "Charmed", which Michael loves and wanted me to watch. I wanted to like it. But I don't. It's horrible. I hate the butchering of the theme song; an ok cover of "How Soon Is Now?" by Love Spit Love that was on the soundtrack to "The Craft" - the original was by The Smiths - the theme version edits the song terribly - and as far as I know they use this version for every episode of it's EIGHT season run. I hate how none of the actors can actually act - with even the young woman from Picket Fences doing crap work - Alyssa Milano(?) came off especially bad, but part of that might have been the really horrific script. I hate the production that highlights how bad the acting is. I hate the words that are written to come out of the wanna-be-actors' mouths. And I'd read somewhere recently that in 8 seasons the series never had a gay character or storyline - and that's horrible - but what's worse is that the gays-are-invisible-series is apparently set in fucking San Francisco. Ugh. Michael reads my blog so he's going to read this... The thing is I know LOTS of gay guys who love this show...but I just can't get past the 'writing', 'lighting', 'acting' and the lack of gay representation in a series that ran 8 years, set in one of the largest gay cities in the world. It's just WRONG. I don't want to support it. I won't support it. I tried. I can see how people who just like girls who have magic powers might like the show, but I need more than that.

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I did get some sleep eventually. Slept well in fact. Good dreams.

My ass is on fire. I've not felt anything like this before, and I've had these kinds of problems since I was 4 years old...so 30 years now I've dealt with this on again, off again annoyance. I need to make an appointment to deal with this, but Mark said something about our insurrance not covering it unless it goes through certain channels and he's asleep. Ugh. I'm really suffering, and I'm very unhappy. I'm in pain. A lot. And it's really horrible.

I read about 100 pages of the Voyager book. Some of it is lame, but other parts are good. I look forward to reading a lot of great Trek this year. When the year began I was really stumbling to find things to read...and for now, I'm not, and that's nice.

I finished a few more Mollie discs. Just 8 more to go. About to burn 1 more.

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   Thursday, April 23, 2009

Happy Birthday Mark!

I took a nap in the afternoon - after the last entry, then read more of Voyager. I have about 22 pages left in it. Later I spoke to Mark, and Michael. It was all good. Later still I played more Zelda, which also rocked. I'm loving this game. It seems like a game that Mollie might love, and I always liked watching her playing those kinds of games. I talked to Mark some more and Michael, and now... I'm sleepy. I might sleep. I might watch Caprica. I might play Zelda. I don't know which will win.

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And I thought we had it bad in the USA. It's not perfect here, but it's better than some places. The gays have it SO MUCH WORSE ELSEWHERE. It's disturbing how revolting the people that hate us can be.

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I went to bed around 5am. I woke up around 11:30 with my stomach upset. Ick.

Before going to bed I finished my Voyager book. I also chatted online with my ex-bf Corey, ex-bf Mark Adams (who turns 24 today! Right Mark?) and a new guy named Jesse. Jesse is gay, 20yo, virgin, cute, in a wheelchair. He had a lot of questions about sex and he liked that I would talk to him about anything he liked and it was a really great chat. ;-0-)

When I started this entry, I swear the clock said 9am. I'm so losing it. lol

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I just read that the BSG movie "The Plan", which is said to be airing around November, will answer a question about the series that I've long wondered about. What happened to (the presumed Cylon character) Shelly Godfrey? For people who have not seen the series and are wondering why I didn't put spoilers up for that question, it's because there's no spoiler there. You know she's a Cylon the minute she's introduced...she's a copy of the first human type Cylon we ever see in the mini-series. Or perhaps she's not a Cylon at all, but an Angel of somekind? It's hard to say. Hmmmm. Looking forward to this. I've also read that a bit of the movie will take place before the mini-series. Interesting. That story that will shed new light on the early seasons of the series (in a film meant to be viewed after the entire series) mixed with all the amazing flashbacks in the finale seems like a really great way to end the series - and a nice one two punch to make fans want to rewatch the series with all the new knowledge (not to mention all the info that's just picked up throughout the series run). Really, really want to see this! It's also a nice parallel to "Downloaded" / "Razor" in which we also have an episode packed with important new flashbacks and then a BSG movie that sheds new light on old events; I like that.

I didn't watch Caprica last night. I'm trying to wait to watch it with Michael on Friday. I hope I enjoy it. It will be interesting to see Michael's reaction to it as he won't be tainted by any BSG Fan perspective as he's never seen BSG; he'll be coming to the universe with a fresh perspective. Then for him to see the mini-sodes that take place between Caprica and the mini-series (the 2.5 minisodes not placed in the extended cut of Razor) - and then start the series proper - well, I'm a little jealous. All the extended cuts will be available for him, assuming he even likes the series when he starts watching - perhaps it won't be to his liking. It is a very dark series.

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I traded texts with my friend and former manager - DJ. He had borrowed the first season of Buffy from me last time I saw him. He's been watching it with his son Jamie who digs it, which I know is nice for DJ; the whole sharing and bonding thing between them now is really rocking DJ's world. I guess his son Jamie likes Xander. They're on the last episode and want to borrow Season 2 soon. That's cool.

I also posted comments on a new myspace blog entry & new photos by ex-bf Sean Mobley. One guy beat me to a comment on one of his new photos, and it was this kid Donny, who's one of my ex-bf's cousins that I chatted with for awhile on myspace before. Makes me wonder if he met Sean through my myspace page or if he knows him through other channels. Such a small gay world we live in. lol

Mark is still asleep. My stomach is less upset now, but I don't know that I'll get anymore sleep. We'll see. Michael should be here areound 7pm to go out to eat with Mark. I wish I was rich so I could afford to buy Mark stuff at times like this...but I'm not...and thankfully Mark knows this and understands. I think he likes knowing that I would buy stuff if I could...and so in this instance it really is the thought that counts.

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I jacked off and took a long shower, flossed and brushed. That helped a lot. I should shave and clip my nails and stuff. But I don't seem to have that much energy today. My ass isn't hurting as bad as it has been, which is a HUGE plus, but I doubt I'm out of the woods just yet.

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   Saturday, April 25, 2009

This entry has retro-actively been incorporated into the next one.

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