Sunday, November 15, 2009

Some plans with Michael fell through thanks to an unexpected text message, and the sensitivity of my stomach, but we managed to have a good night I think...with new types of groceries for me to try, all chosen to fit in my smaller capacity mouth, then chat with Mark, Firefly & Euchre. Michael is shooting through Firefly; he's on episode #5 "Safe" (about mid-way through); there are only 14 episodes, plus the movie. After he's done with Firefly he's starting in on the Doctor Whoniverse (which gets a new installment today with "The Waters of Mars").

Speaking of the Whoniverse, I have a new theory on how Season 31 is best viewed, though I won't know for certain until the final unaired installments have made their way onto the airwaves:

Underlined = unaired.
Bold = Doctor Who episode.
* = The Doctor is referenced / mentioned.
** = The Doctor appears in some form.
^ = The Doctor does not appear, but there are references to a Doctor Who episode, alien or character.

01 Day of the Clown I
02 Day of the Clown II
03 Secrets of the Stars I **
04 Secrets of the Stars II
05 The Next Doctor
06 Mark of the Berserker I ^
07 Mark of the Berserker II
08 The Temptation of Sarah Jane Smith I *
09 The Temptation of Sarah Jane Smith II *
10 Music of the Spheres
11 Enemy of the Bane I ^
12 Enemy of the Bane II ^
13 From Raxacoricofallapatorius with Love ^
14 Children of Earth: Day One ^
15 Children of Earth: Day Two
16 Children of Earth: Day Three *
17 Children of Earth: Day Four
18 Children of Earth: Day Five *
19 Prisoner of the Judoon I ^
20 Prisoner of the Judoon II ^
21 The Mad Woman in the Attic I ^
22 The Mad Woman in the Attic II **
23 Dreamland
24 The Wedding of Sarah Jane Smith I **
25 The Wedding of Sarah Jane Smith II **
26 The Eternity Trap I
27 The Eternity Trap II *
28 Planet of the Dead
29 Mona Lisa's Revenge I ^
30 Mona Lisa's Revenge II
31 The Gift I ^
32 The Gift II ^
33 The Waters of Mars [Part I]
34 ?????? [Part II]
35 The End of Time [Part III]

All 6 of the unaired installments should be available to me by January 2, 2010. I should in fact have 3 of them ("The Waters of Mars", "The Gift I & II") in less than a week, and possibly the 4th ("Dreamland") in some form or another within another week after that.

Michael's asleep; perhaps I'll join him soon.

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Slept well. Had dreams of flying to Florida for Church trip. Bryan Alfaro was one of my roomies. The others were all party-hard fratboy types, who didn't like that I was gay. I was given a really hard time. Eventually wanted to fly home. Parts of Florida were bits of Milan... Janice & Mom, Grandpa and Doug helped me get a flight home. I found one of my roomies wacking off while I was leaving; makes me wonder if Michael was touching me - or himself; it might have been inspired by him touching me a few times in the night; woke up once with his hand on my cock, and another time with his hardon pressed into my underwear covered ass; I pretended I was asleep as my stomach was upset both times and I just wanted to go back to sleep. In the dream, there was some strange imagery with sky & water. I woke up with Michael climbing out of bed - but when I moved a migrain hit me - I took Midrin right away. Michael's in the bathroom; Mark is in his room. I'm here in mine.

Ugh. My head hurts. But hopefully the Midrin will help. I'm gonna have a snack. It seems to work better when I have some food just after.

Doctor Who later today! :-0)

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   Monday, November 16, 2009

Michael & I made love yesterday. It was nice. Later we watched 7 episodes of Firefly; he has 3 episodes left and then the movie.

I watched the new Doctor Who movie; the beginning of the end for the 10th Doctor. Basically Part 1 of 3 the next installment in this regeneration trilogy won't air until Christmas Day. Between now and then we have the final 2 episodes of Series 3 of The Sarah Jane Adventures, and the animated Who special, Dreamland.

I'm awake because I'm having really horrible stomach cramps. Or absoman cramps. Probably constipated? I don't know, but I'm in pain. I can't get comfortable. I can't help worrying about it as the last time I had anything like this I left in an ambulance.

It's really hot in my room. I have my fan blowing. Michael is in bed and I'd love to cuddle with him, but simultaniously want and don't want anything touching my tummy. I'm getting really tired though, and I'm really wanting to sleep.

Also, my jaw is not doing so great.

I have a doctor's appointment at 10:30am.

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Managed to get some sleep, though I couldn't get comfortable and often woke to wander the condo in pain. When I finally got a good patch of sleep, waking around 9am, I cuddled with Michael while Mark showered. My headache was worse, my jaw was still sore and my abdoman still pained, though it felt better with Michael's warm body pressed against it. I knew I should be in the shower to help with my headache, but as Mark & I don't shower together anymore that wasn't possible...and I also knew I'd have to get up soon for my doctor's appointment. I remembered the dream I'd had about lots of naked women, living and falling in love with other naked women; naked lesbians. Was I becoming a straight man? lol.

I got up. But I knew it wasn't going to work out once I did I was so disoriented from my multiple pains. I called the doc's office to see if there was a fee for cancelling and they said no, so I cancelled. I've been pain free from urination, off and on for a couple days - some days it's hurt while other times it's not - I've had no pain today - so perhaps it's clearing up on it's own. The other thing I was going to talk about with the Doc was my jaw, but I've already spoken to a nurse there who told me my insurance won't cover anyplace but UofM which can't see me for 14 more months, so that's pointless. Mark went to pharmacy and got our drugs while I took my last 2 Midrin and layed down - when he returned, Michael left for home, and Mark gave me some Mirilax for my constipation. I briefly got up and my headache got 10 times worse - monster migrain proportions. I took a 3rd Midrin and a scalding hot shower...later laid in the dark praying for oblivion. I got it. I dreamt of a mashed potato / bubble bath fight in our old barn, with random people from my life? Lee & Josh were there. Funny. I woke up pain free, and able to use the bathroom with no troubles. A happy ending.

Mark is gone to work. There was a voicemail on my phone from Michael that he left on his way to work. He watched 2 more episodes of Firefly ("The Message" & "Heart of Gold"), which leaves him with only 1 more episode ("Objects in Space") and the movie ("Serenity"). Nice. I'll see him tonight, most likely. He's going with me and Mark to my dentist appointment tomorrow morning - very early in the morning.

I find last night's Doctor Who to be very haunting. I'm not tempted to watch it again as it's obviously Part I of a much larger story and it seems odd, feels wrong to watch it without the rest of the narrative. But I'm haunted by the prophecies from "Planet of the Dead" and "The Wedding of Sarah Jane Smith, Part II". Who will knock 4 times? And what is "The Gate"? And what will the ending of last night's special mean for the remaining time we have with the 10th Doctor? The next special, which has not been named yet (though it's been revealed it will be 6 words long) is 60 minutes in length, while it's sequel ("The End of Time") will be 75 minutes long.

About "The Gate": the Trickster said to the Doctor: "Who are you, a man who has lost everybody, to talk to me of loneliness when The Gate is waiting for you?"

Russel T. Davies, the current show runner has been quoted twice by the Radio Times as mentioning The Gate:

"But oh, what a Christmas that's going to be. Let's just say that dark forces are gathering already. The Gate is waiting and life will never be the same again..."

&

"The Master's return is just the start of our biggest, most heart-breaking story yet. The Immortality Gate is waiting."

Hmmmmmmmm.

I'm going to eat.

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I shouldn't have eaten.

Mark just got laid off. Permanantly. This sucks. Mark helped build that company and made it what it is today...this just isn't fair. I can't imagine what he must be feeling or thinking. Mark still has Bitserve, and he'll be able to collect unemployment, and our car is paid off so we should be ok...only I was going to get on his insurance in January to pay for my jaw getting fixed. And the dentist I was going to see in January is out as I now have no dental coverage. I can't open my fricking mouth and I can't see anyone to get it fixed. :-0(

And now the vomiting begins.

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   Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Trying not to let the terrible events get me down, though they're worse than I thought (Mark's home business isn't making any money). I did have a nice idea about some stuff that Mark has in storage, which will hopefully help. People are offering their condolances and helpful hints...Michael is trying to help. I've shut off my webcam, which I wasn't using. Shutting of lights and stuff (both good for the environment and the electric bill. Michael is trying to help; even mentioned stopping at home for showers now to not rais our bills any. He's a sweet guy.

I tried to cook a mini-vegan-pizza roll but I burnt it to a cripy nothingness. I tried some non-dairy yogerty stuff, which I liked A LOT. I baked some organic sea salted fries, which also turned out well. I'm still trying stuff, even though my jaw is killing me, and we've got bills we might not be able to pay, and even though my food hasn't been staying down lately...I'm trying not to let it get ME down. I'm hanging in there.

I'm rewatching what I have of Season 31 of the Whoniverse, starting with the 3rd episode of Sarah Jane's 2nd Season. I didn't think much of it the first time around, but in retrospect I like it a lot more. The more I look at this season, the more I think it works really well. Just 5 more episodes and I'll have the whole thing - plust I'll have 17 (I believe) new Whoniverse episodes to share with Mollie:

31x10 Music of the Spheres (mini-ep)
31x19 Prisoner of the Judoon, Part I
31x20 Prisoner of the Judoon, Part II
31x21 The Mad Woman in the Attic, Part I
31x22 The Mad Woman in the Attic, Part II
31x23 Dreamland
31x24 The Wedding of Sarah Jane Smith I
31x25 The Wedding of Sarah Jane Smith II
31x26 The Eternity Trap, Part I
31x27 The Eternity Trap, Part II
31x29 Mona Lisa's Revenge, Part I
31x30 Mona Lisa's Revenge, Part II
31x31 The Gift, Part I
31x32 The Gift, Part II
31x33 The Waters of Mars [Part I]
31x34 ?????? [Part II]
31x35 The End of Time [Part III]

It's possible "The End of Time" is the title of 31x34 and the unknown 6 word title goes to 31x35 but that's not clear at this juncture.

I have to call Mollie now and tell her she has to return her phone - which means losing touch with her for a long while. She'll still have Kenny's phone to talk to us for free, but only sparingly. This sucks beyond the telling of it.

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I left a voicemail for Mollie about the phone. Michael got here and we watched the rest of Firefly / Serenity. The end of the movie always gets me. Say what you want about how great the show could have been if it had continued, as far as I'm concerned, it's pitch perfect as is. As long as a show has some semblenance of closure I'm pretty happy. DS9. Firefly. Pushing Daisies. Some of my favorite endings. Xena. Buffy / Angel. BSG. Those were a bit more muddled, but they were better than many other finale's I've seen. The Doctor Whoniverse will apparently never end, but I'm not complaining about that one as of yet.

I'm tired. I might lay down with Michael and sleep the 2 hours until I have to get up.

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   Wednesday, November 18, 2009

I didn't sleep at all before the appointment on Tuesday. My abdoman hurt; I was tired and hungry, but couldn't eat for fear of lack of sleep making my already crabby stomach puke anything on the dentist. It was quite a drive to the dentist. The staff there was very kind. There's a $700 bite guard there that might help me; they explained that the guard I have now (just as I had suspected) probably made my condition worse. They also have this treatment that's $4200 that sounds exactly like something that would help me - but of course I don't have that money and I'm trying not to be down about it. About my jaw being locked, they basically said my muscles are bruised, most likely from a series of stressful emotional breaks (which I didn't explain to them, but made perfect sense to me, Michael & Mark); the disappointing part was that it could take 3 months to even a year to heal... I could be stuck this way forever. And I wasn't expecting to hear that. I'm very stressed about that and trying not to be.

Michael is giving me a break from being around him. He knows that my mind keeps replaying his betrayals (despite his amazing behavior since then); he's giving me time to chill, for which I'm extremely grateful. Things have been terrible emotionally, and unsurprisingly, physically, since September 7th, when I learned the truth, and in retrospect, have been terrible since May, the (probable) first time he cheated; I just didn't know, which makes me look back at 2009 as my least favorite year in recent memory. The cheating. The STD. The unimaginable pain of the truth versus the lie of several months. The stress of not knowing my HIV status. The gallbladder surgery. The vitiligo spreading. Much of this seems to stem from September 7. Now there is Mark's job loss, and Mollie losing her phone / internet - so she'll be lost to me as well. Things are so bleak right now, it's amazing my body works at all.

I've managed to relax a bit I think. I don't feel like leaving the house though and I need bread. Perhaps I'll go later. I've learned that Kroger carries many of the items that I thought only Whole Foods carried, and Kroger is open until 1am.

Mark saw the new (11th) Star Trek movie, but didn't enjoy it as much as me. He said it was confusing and didn't move him as much as "First Contact" (the 8th, and last truly great film in the series). I was so impressed with the new direction of the films, which I think they pull off gracefully and with style - making a proper sequel to the previous 10 films while starting a completely new series...that I find it hard to compare it to the previous entries, who's accomplishments don't even approach such heights.

Doctor Whoniverse News. As known before, the finale of Sarah Jane Season 3 will air Thursday & Friday nights. What we know now is that the animated Who adventure, "Dreamland", will air Saturday, December 5! That's just 2 weeks from Saturday. Just under 3 weeks after that we'll have the Doctor Who Christmas Special on Friday, December 25 - with the final David Tennant Special airing just 1 week later on January 1, 2010 (the latter date has not been confirmed, though it's HIGHLY likely). So ends Season 31 of the Whoniverse.

But what of Season 32? I had originally thought there might not be any Torchwood in that season, but there are rumblings of 4th Season in the works. Season 3 got the best ratings and reviews for the series so it seems likely a 4th Season will follow, yet the end of Season 3 also brought an amazing amount of closure so Season 4 seemed both likely, and unlikely at the same time. Will it appear? Who knows, but the rumblings are a good sign that we might have further Torchwood adventures, rather than rumblings to the opposite, so that's hopeful. If nothing comes of this, I'm fine with Season 3 being the end, but if it continues, I'll happily be there to see it.

Sarah Jane? No Series 4 has been greenlit, but the people behind the show are writing the scripts as if it has been, and it most likely will, as this season has garnered higher ratings (and better episodes IMO) than previous seasons. It's also rumored that a 1 Hour Special is also in the works.

K9? K9 Mark I will be back in a series all his own. 26 episodes long, it's very dark, very kid friendly, and very sort of crappy but lovable in the way that Classic Who appears today. It's too early to tell if it's a hit or a miss. It doesn't seem to mesh well with current Who (and because it's made by a different team, it's pretty much forbidden from referencing the other shows) - and my guess is it's set in an alternate timeline. I'll watch the series though and try to see how it all fits together; hopefully it will improve and something will happen that explains the differences between this and the other programs; it feels very much like an alternate universe to me. The premiere episode is called "Regeneration" and plays alright. 11 other titles from the remaining 25 episodes would appear to include include: "Feast of the Merons, Part I", "Feast of the Merons, Part II", "The Last Oak Tree in England", "Sirens of Ceres", "Dreameaters", "Devil's Den", "Jaws of Orthrus", "Oroborus", "Alien Avatar", "The Curse of Anubis" & "The Fall of the House of Gryffen".

And what about the Doctor himself? We're pretty much assured 14 new installments in 2010 featuring the 11th Doctor. We know that River Song will be returning, and the Daleks - and it's heavily rumored that the Silurians and possibly The Cybermen will be back as well. Here's how it's rumored next season of Who (which they're calling Season 1 for production reasons - but will be Season 32 in my book) will play out:

01 "The Eleventh Hour"
written by Steven Moffat
directed by Adam Smith
Continues where the final David Tennant story leaves off.

02 ???
written by Steven Moffat
directed by Andrew Gunn
Monks?

03 ???
written by Mark Gatiss
directed by Andrew Gunn
A Dalek story.
Possible Winston Churchill

04 "The Time of Angels" [Part I]
05 "Flesh and Stone" [Part II]
written by Steven Moffat
directed by Adam Smith
The return of River Song (the crash of the Byzantium); possible return of the Weeping Angels.

06 "Vampires of Venice"
written by Toby Whithouse
directed by Johnny Campbell ?
rumored to be set in 1580

07 ???
written by Gareth Roberts or Amanda Coe

08 ??? [Part I]
09 "Cold Blood" [Part II]
written by Chris Chibnall
directed by Ashley Way
rumored return of the Silurians

10 "Vincent and the Doctor"
written by Richard Curtis
directed by Johnny Campbell ?
Van Gogh vs. a yellow monster (confirmed)

11 ???
written by Gareth Roberts

12 ??? [Part I]
13 ??? [Part II]
written by Steven Moffat
rumored return of the Cybermen

Question: will these be the Cybermen of recent years, or the Cybermen of old? ;-0)

14 ??? (2010 Christmas Special)
written by Steven Moffat

And that's what we seem to know as of now.

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   Friday, November 20, 2009

Slept ok last night / Thursday morning. Mark took me to my doc appointment. I've had no more pain in my penis since yesterday, but the next sign of anything I'm to call the doc's office and make an appointment with a urologist. She refilled my Midrin perscription, and also gave me some muscle relaxants to hopefully help with my jaw. I only just took my first dose; I hope it helps. I'm also to continue with ibuprofen, heat, and facial massage as well.

I spoke to Mollie on the phone last night; it was so much fun! But her phone is returned by now and she's lost the internet so I doubt I'll hear from her again anytime soon which has me bummed.

I spoke to Michael earlier. He's got tomorrow and Saturday off; I'll probably see him one of those days. He's seen the first 11 episodes of new Who: "Rose", "The End of the World", "The Unquiet Dead", "Aliens of London" / "World War Three", "Dalek", "The Long Game", "Father's Day", "The Empty Child" / "The Doctor Dances" & "Boom Town". I hope he's enjoying it.

Mark is at a party with some of his former coworkers. I hope he's having a good time.

My jaw is pretty messed up tonight; I can hardly open it. I'm pretty freaked out about it all. :-0(

I just watched the new Sarah Jane, which is Part I of the season finale. It features the Slitheen (which I'm sick of), but thankfully the story went in an interesting direction - I'd just rather they leave these aliens alone for a bit. The finale is on later today, with the next Whoniverse installment not airing until 2 weeks from Saturday (December 5); the animated Who Special, "Dreamland".

Don & his son will be here late tonight. Not sure if I'll be up for doing anything as my jaw and stuff have been so troublesome lately.

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Slept ok. Had a snack with my prilosec / reglan / muscle relaxant. Just saw a trailer for "Dreamland" - the animation looks crappy, but there was a shot of some alien spacecrafts which seem to confirm a proper crossover with Sarah Jane. Nice.

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