Sunday, October 24, 2010

Slept at Michael's last night after plans with Felix fell through. Michael hooked up with Chris before I got there. The sleeping and cuddling was perfect. Michael & I left together around 6am; he on his way to work and me on my way to Meijer for groceries. I came home with all but a few items which they didn't have. I later slept some more; sleeping very well.

I woke up around 4:30pm. Talked to Michael on the phone. Read more Wicked. Did some Facebook stuff. Then went to Meijer with Mark, where I met Sean Wells in person. So odd to meet him face to face after so much trouble with him online (he's one of the guys that Michael cheated on me with) - for one thing, his profile online says he's 6'2" but at the most he was my height (5'8"), and possibly slightly shorter. He was nice though and we shook hands. We left Meijer and went to Rite Aid for perscriptions, then Kroger for the items I couldn't get last night, and finally Little Caesers; I ate crazy bread without taking a Reglan; the 2nd meal I've had in the last few days without my pills. It stayed down. :)

I chatted online. Ended up chatting with Eric [the cute boy we sat next to on October 15] on Manhunt; he seems cool and we might hang out sometime soon. We're friends on Facebook now at least.

Listening to some really interesting mashups. I don't think they're perfect, but they're far more interesting than some of the more common successes out there. Nice.

So sleepy.

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   Monday, October 25, 2010

Still awake. Read Oz related stuff online. Jacked off and showered. Took Prilosec. I'm still sleepy but I want to eat. That's a fairly simple sentence yet it's also profound for someone like me, who's relationship with food has been antagonistic to say the least. I want to eat. :-0)

Michael called. He's very sad. He's afraid that by moving in with his grandmother he will be losing me forever. I don't see it that way. In fact, if we're ever to reunite, I must be given more space, and more importantly, time to heal. Also, it can't be forced. If we try to force it, as we did last time, we'll be screwed. It's just got to happen. And though this is a huge change, my love for him continues to grow and evolve. There are many flaws within him that hurt me deeply in the past which I'm coming to love (or at least not be hurt as deeply by) as his friend.

Mark & I will be helping Michael move today so I'll most likely see the apartment for the very last time today.

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More phone conversations with Michael. He wants me back. I can only give him friendship. A complicated friendship tinged with a deep abiding love, but a friendship none the less. Anything more will hurt me at this point. I need time to heal, and space to find myself again. If he can't handle that, then that's his choice and I'll miss him, but I can't lie and pretend everything is ok when it's not. It's not. And I can't.

Blah. Tired.

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Watched 3 episodes of 'Brothers & Sisters' this morning and played a Majong game online. Funally went to sleep around 10am. I wanted to sleep earlier but it was hot in my room. I turned down the air. It helped.

Mark woke me up just past 4pm. We're getting ready to go help Michael move. Michael will stay here tonight. Then I'll help Michael move his stuff to his granmother's tomorrow.

Gotta go. I'm sooooo hungry but can't eat for fear of getting sick or passing out!

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   Wednesday, October 27, 2010

We made it out to Michael's apartment Monday night a little after 5pm. We went and picked up the moving truck and helped load it up, though Danny and Mikey did the heavy lifting - they didn't come with us to Michael's dad's house. When unloading the truck Mark hurt his back. :-0(

After dropping off the truck, Michael stayed the night. Cuddling was fantastic. He left the next morning. I might see him Saturday night. If not, then I probably won't see him until November 3.

I've been eating and sleeping for the last 24 hours. Not so much sleeping. I need to sleep a bit so I can take Mark to pay his life insurance. I'll sleep after I write this and brush my teeth.

I just watched the new Caprica. I'm really enjoying the way the different storylines are moving along now. So much of what is good about this show pays off in BSG that even with the loss of most of the characters, I think fans who's discovered Caprica on it's own will enjoy BSG. Looking forward to the final 5 episodes of Season 1 and possibly the series.

TIRED.

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   Thursday, October 28, 2010

Slept for a bit Wednesday morning. Took some pictures with Mark, then went to Meijer & to pay his life insurance. Came home. Took more pictures. Met Michael at the condo (he dropped off some stuff). Slept more after he left.

Caprica was cancelled. I was prepared for this. What I was not prepared for was them yanking it off the schedule until sometime next year so that the fans of the show have to wait AGAIN. Ugh. So pissed about this. You can read a bit about this & the new spin-off series in the works here.

I slept well today. I also ate without taking my pills, with no troubles (so far). I talked to Matthew, Michael, Jennifer & Travis. Going out with Jennifer, Matthew & Mark tomorrow night, bowling.

Playing Majong Dimensions.

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