Sunday, September 25, 2011

Gen & Mark came home last night. It was kind of touch
and go. Like...we didn't haven't any arguments...exactly,
but she all but admitted that she'd called me a bitch
earlier (she's always referencing things that happened
when I wasn't around and then when I ask what she's
talking about she dodges and it's really obnoxious). There
were a few moments where I thought we would argue but I
never raised my voice or said anything rude. I've never
known anyone like her before...it's EXHAUSTING talking to
her most of the time because she's so reactionary and
acussatory that every little thing I say has to be thought
out and rethought out and I'm not used to bending over
backwards to not upset someone.

Beyond that, I picked up Charles and he so saved my
night! He made me laugh and I love his voice and it was all
good. Mark & Gen actually went to bed really early. We all
got up around 10am. Mark drove Charles to work. I
managed to have a conversation with Gen which was less
terrible. And then we all got dressed because Roger &
Donna (Mark's dad & step-mom were coming over) so that
they could go out to eat and meet Gen.

I watched the new Doctor Who...in sections, throughout all
of that, so I don't think I got it. I feel like I should have
loved it, but didn't. I have however watched the twist
ending like 6 times now, and the mini-episode that
followed it. I'm very interested in what will happen in the
finale. I'm also looking forward to all the mini-episodes
we'll get (we'll be getting at least 6, possibly 8)...the 6
final Sarah Jane episodes (which I've heard won't end
well...which is hopefully wrong) and the Christmas Special.
Then a big vacation from Whoniverse land - but I'll be able
to share the correct order with my friends at last :)

I feel a bit out of it. It's like 68 degrees outside so I should
go for a walk but I feel a bit ill, honestly. Plus I feel a bit
out of it in general. I think I might stay in and read. I feel
like...the last 24 hours have been sort of stresful for one
reason or another and I'd like to just relax.

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   Monday, September 26, 2011

I feel like my life is falling apart. Each day brings something
else to lose...something more that's ripped away from me. I
want to cut again. It started on Saturday. Yesterday was even
worse. I was ok for most of today...and then. A lot of things
are colliding in my head again and emotionally I don't know
how to handle it.

   posted by Bald Jason at 10:02 PM
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   Friday, September 30, 2011

Rough week. Not all bad, but the darker parts overshadowed
everything...making the brighter bits nearly blinding.

I got back in touch with an old online friend this week,
Jeremy. A nice surprise.

Mark is at Gen's. I'll pick him up on Sunday.

Shawn Foreman is coming over tonight to go to Necto so we
can talk and he can hit on boys. lol. My cousin Joy might be
there too. Shawn is probably crashing here.

Tomorrow is the season finale of Doctor Who, which I'm
looking forward to. I might hang out with Charles or might
go to gigi's bar...or possibly both.

Sunday I'm picking up Mark and he'll watch the new Who
episodes (there will be a mini-episodes on Saturday as well).

I'm doing laundry now. I need to do the dishes. But right now
I have to get ready and get my ass up to my therapy
appointment at 2:45.

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