FRAGMENTS, PART IV:
REMEMBERING THE GIRL
How did all of my dreams
end like this?
Over before they could start...
He cheated & lied -
A part of me died -
I'd a terrible broken heart:
One to rule me
One to find me
One to bring him &
One to remind me
that not giving up on my little boy
Didn't mean to give up on myself
or my joy.
Broken times four -
Could I even the score?
Could not even hate
when it was him I adored...
But remembering the girl
who in dreams wished us well...
Remembering her made me weep
as rain fell
down from the heavens
that in dreams over water...
had graced & embraced us -
But now they shall slaughter...
Now they will pour...
Now they will weep...
Now they disturb the lovers
asleep...
Now they tell tales of dragons
& Faerie...
Now they sell stories both honest
& scary...
Now they gurgle at nothing
to laugh about...
Now they sing songs with nothing
to sing about...
Now they write truths which
strangers may figure out...
They begin without meter
until they have faded out...
Like:
"Little Jacky Draper's only
older brother Jim...
Loved to fuck his brother Todd
while singing songs to him."
"But Jim & little Jacky came for others
(on my birthday),
So Puff & I retired;
We had better boys to lay."
And those sweet spray of endings -
they are not sweet at all...
They are vomitous & putrid
though I've been lost within their thrall...
Remembering the girl brings
love & sadness to us all.
Remembering the girl means
remembering what it was to fall...
And when falling hard & fast like that -
when love is all that matters...
Your heart must crash -
In darkness smash -
Shredded by pain into tatters.
You're bruised & you're bleeding
& all you are needing...is lost in
that moment & shatters...
Into fragments & pieces;
and the pain never ceases...
But the love you still feel...
You know that it's real...
And you know that this love
is what matters.
Written By Jason Wright
DECEMBER 12TH, 2001
- For Travis Mark Kelley -