In parking lot on Longshore Drive,

Neighbor Boy was so alive

when asking me if I was queer -

I said yes -

then what I'd hear

would leave me shocked for hours after...

After shopping,

snow & laughter...

He asked if I would like to blow him -

Turned him down -

I don't know him.

We smiled -

I asked:

would he suck me?

still we smiled -

shook hands -

He fleed -

No...he fled...

English Major -

Can't believe I said...

But now I wonder

why a "Straight Boy"

asked this fag to

give him that joy?

Why he thought

he'd stand a chance?

What was the reason?

Circumstance?

And now my eyes flit to his windows -

To catch a glimpse of him without clothes -

For though I told him no way outright -

I was hard the rest of that night.

And he will move away

like he said...

These words may never reach his head -

But these words are done;

Though they were fun;

Words must sleep...

Put them to bed.

- For: What's His Name -