My Parents' house -

a party in summer...

the boys next to me

were drugged up

when the cop exposed them...

I defended them of course,

but only to find Brian - my Brian

stareing back to me with those

amazing eyes of his...

I couldn't believe it.

He turned to go & I said "Brian?"

He turned & said "Yeah?"

with a half smile & tears in his voice -

& was there maybe a little anger?

I don't know because he turned -

went up North - outside a campground

to get back in his car & drive away.

I'll find him I thought.

I'll find him someday.

He'd be 25 now;

26 in July...

Been more than 6 years & I can't say goodbye.

- For Brian L. -