So the cable is gone

& so is my cash...

No more new Buffy....

Just me & my stash...

My friends are dying

in & out of my mind...

Two months/10 years,

Still out of my mind!

Inside I'm screaming

though no one is hearing...

Inside I'm cutting

without interfering...

Outside I smile

while inside I'm crying...

I know I'll survive...

No point now in dying.