I'm not a Xander,

nor a commander,

nor anything other than what I am -

Sam I am not,

I'm not cold or hot,

I'm not a shepherd & I'm not a lamb...

I'm not salvation

& I am not Christian -

I am not Pagan -

I'm not religion...

I am not hetero;

I will endeavor though

to love every one I know

with every decision.

I am sad & I'm gay;

I am laughter & I'm pain;

My world changes every day;

I'm insane without complaint.

I am only a lonely man -

I am a holy man -

I am a sinner

and I am a saint.

I am never alone

though lonely I am -

The ones that I loved;

they left me to stand here;

forever remember;

I was a part;

I was a member right from the start;

I was inducted in the circle of trust;

I escaped death through

the madness of touch;

I have recovered;

I had to adjust;

Now I'm under cover,

though not under much.