BRIAN IS DREAMING

I cry

& I bleed

& I laugh

& I ache...

But none of my actions will make him awake

from dreams I am living...

From living this nightmare...

This world unforgiving where nothing is fair.

But Brian - he stirs as I smile & write this...

Brian is jealous when it's him that I don't kiss..

Brian is with me even though I'm not dreaming -

In a field -

I face south...

With my hands to my mouth...

And my face to the skies...

behind our closed eyes...

It is his name I call...

It is his name I'm screaming.

I invoke

& I cry...

I awoke -

said goodbye.

But the dream never ends...

& the pain never dies.