CONFESSIONS

WHEN THE CHAOTIC SCREAMS OF THE WORLD OUTSIDE,

HAD CHALLENGED MY SANITY AND THREATENED MY PRIDE,

THAT'S WHEN I LEARNED OF MY FEELINGS REPRESSED,

AND THAT'S WHEN I WHISPERED HIS NAME AND CONFESSED...

I REMEMBER I AWOKE FROM THE VISION AFRAID,

AFRAID FOR ALL OF THE PROGRESS WE'D MADE,

AFRAID THAT OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS DESTINED TO FAIL,

FOR HOW COULD A LOVE SO FORBIDDEN PREVAIL?

BUT I KNEW THAT THIS SECRET THAT I COULD NOT HIDE,

HAD BEEN THERE FOREVER LOCKED DEEP DOWN INSIDE,

I KNEW THAT THE ANSWERS WERE THERE FOR THE TAKING,

AND I NOW UNDERSTOOD WHY MY HEART HAD BEEN BREAKING.

I DROVE TO HIS HOUSE LIKE A BAT OUT OF HELL,

SUFFERING WITH THE SECRET THAT I'D HAVE TO TELL,

CONVINCED THAT THE TRUTH WOULD SET BOTH OF US FREE,

I KNOCKED ON HIS DOOR AND I COUNTED TO THREE...

I BURST INTO HIS ROOM AND I SCREAMED AND I CRIED,

OF HOW I'D LIVED IN DENIAL AND HOW I HAD LIED,

HOW THE MOMENT I'D MET HIM I HAD KNOWN TRUE DESIRE,

AND HOW HIS VOICE TORE MY HEART...LIKE FLESH ON BARBED WIRE.

AND THEN I COLLAPSED...DEPRESSED AND EXHAUSTED,

AS HE STOOD THERE IN SILENCE...BEREFT AND ACCOSTED,

BUT THEN WHAT COULD HE SAY? AND WHAT COULD HE DO?

THIS WAS THE END...AND WE BOTH KNEW IT TOO...

AND THEN HE DID SOMETHING THAT I'LL NEVER FORGET,

FOR HIS VOICE WAS HEAVY WITH TEARS OF REGRET,

AND I KNEW IN AN INSTANT THAT HIS CONFESSION WAS TRUE,

WHEN HE SAT DOWN AND EMBRACED ME AND SAID "I LOVE YOU."

SEPTEMBER 1995 By Menes

-FOR JASON BRIAN BROOKS-

MY STRANGEST AND TRUEST FRIEND,

WHO I'VE KNOWN FOREVER & ALWAYS