DAZE

These past few days have been all about questions;

Parting is all about questions...

Does he know that when he called

I had no idea what was coming?

Does he know that listening & telling him it was ok...

that I understood that he had to take care of himself,

without insulting him or even reaching for a comeback

was the hardest thing I've ever done?

And when he finds out who he is & becomes that...

What of the man I knew so briefly...

The one that I trusted...

The one that I loved - I can say that now - without doubt or reservation.

Does he know that as he becomes more than he is now I will remain who I am...

As I have through every incarnation that has greeted & left me.

I'll still love that man, though he'll no longer exist; if he ever did at all.

I Want

I Ache

The haunting pain

of all that floods my funeral days.