FORBIDDEN MEMORY

Last night

Words spoken

Made me remember

The bliss before my heartbreak.

The last time I had sex?

The last time I had sex was right over there &....

And then I remembered what I had suppressed.

Then I remembered what made me obssessed.

It was then that I froze though my friends never guessed.

Shawn in my arms & kissing my scars...

Shawn whispering how good my mouth was...

Shawn laying lust filled & tasteing too good...

But then Shawn lost his soul -

And then Shawn lost control -

He called me...

He killed me...

Or I wished that he would.

And now I remember the lightning that struck me...

Now I remember & want him to fuck me...

Now I remember him kissing my chest...

Now I remember & now get no rest...

Now I remember though I wish I didn't:

Because Shawn hurt me deeply -

He kissed me so sweetly -

Drove the knife in completely -

And now Shawn's forbidden.