FRUSTRATION OF WORDS

When I write I understand that

my words & my ideas are not new -

That nothing is forever & that my

words will eventually fade from all

who encounter them & will leave

this world for no one to find.

My memento mori -

My writing is the experience

before I must die.

I seek to understand what

bubbles inside of me -

What no one can see &

yet all may perceive...

The chemical whirlpool within

that will one day leave this world

only to be recalled to sing again...

but not as I was - I will be gone.

But I write so that I may understand -

No one else can do this for me -

No one else can understand these feelings

urges desires fears & loathings.

No one can live my life

nor die my death

& in the end

these words were all that I had

to find the way.