I Don't Know

All dressed in black

Bald-headed smile

I noticed you from the start

When I first saw you dancing

I dreamed of a life together

Impossible to believe

Like a life not possible

The smooth reminded me of others

The girl stopped me short

So young and unknowing

I couldn't approach you

Too serious...

Too much to "lose"

Too much to gain

I know I'm fucked up

but logical just the same

So much involved in such a simple task

I have not taken that step

I wish I had so I could see you totally as you are

but it is too hard

So taxing

I don't know this life, but I want to learn

All I want is to share and be shared with another

Maybe I am ready and maybe I'm not

But I need someone to guide me

Someone to guide me to that place

I am so lost, I don't know where to go

I know where to go, but not what to do when I get

there

I feel like no one understands

No one really knows in those that I am with

So lost, and yearning

Searching

For a cause, a lover, a reason

Someone who can deal with me

Someone who knows what to do

Or at least where to point

Maybe it's all hopeless

Maybe not...I don't know

Anything would help and injure me

I don't know...

By Shawn Foreman

05/09/00