IS THERE ANY MAGIC LEFT?

I didn't think that there was -

Magic I mean.

Josh asked me this in an e-mail

a while ago & I've meant to write about it

ever since - but something always came up;

This time I insisted.

I would have to say that there is Magic in the world -

though it seems to be so very fleeting that it tends

to exist more in memory than in reality.

This makes my heart sick to think on.

There are Magical moments all through my life -

that to think of these moments makes the others pale

in comparison.

Most concern Love, Surprise, Lust, or Loss - sometimes all 4.

Take Josh for instance -

I remember meeting him & my mind is sprinkled with

fairy dust glamour & I smile, ever so sadly.

Josh was/is a mystery to me. Josh I lusted for.

Josh said things that surprised me.

"I've wanted to call since the first night."

I'd say I lost Josh - but I never really HAD him -

He did pass through my life though - & still does

on occasion - though not with such pomp & circumstance.

& each time I feel something...

Maybe it isn't Magic...

Maybe just a shadow of a Magical moment almost 2 years ago,

when I met a boy my own age - who seemed to understand & knew

how to get inside.

So that is the Magic in my life -

It can bruise you if you're not careful,

It can breathe life into long dead desires in the wink of an eye,

It can tear apart your soul & not think twice about it,

It can be a heavy burden or light up your life like a small sun.

I felt Magic the day that I met you.

Does that answer your question?