THE LOVING OF ADAM

In The Days Since I Met Adam Life Has Opened Her Eyes And Smiled...

A Cruel And Calculated Grin Of The Utmost Sincerity And Maturity.

Like A Rose That Has Blossomed Blood Red And Thorn Studded...

Her Petals Are Lush With Such Darkness And Pain -

Redolent Fear...And Lust For Destruction...

The Aroma Of Bliss In The Petals That Fall...

A Brutalized Path That Torments Us All -

We Were Assaulted By Unwanted Dreams...

Those Moments Of Wonder That Silenced Our Screams.

We Had Blue Sticky Smiles Pressed To The Heart Of Us -

The Display Was A Lie To Conduct That Cruel Chourus...

Which Drowned Out All Clues To Our Secret Identity.

But Our Smiles Were Toothless And Also Too Ruthless...

But Love Was Inspired By That Flash Of A Boy -

Our Quiet Closeness Was Our Pride And Joy...

But Nothing Can Conquer Our Need To Destroy;

Which It Did Germinate In Our Monstrous Humanity.

And Only Hours After That Confessional Autumn...

I Heard Music From Another Room

As I Thought About Adam.

And I Cried When I Learned That Life Was This Honest...

And That Love Was Life's Unfeeling Heartbroken Sister.

A Blind And Fearless Unfeeling Passion Whose

Seething Emotions Were So Fast And Furious

Beneath That Tempered Purity, That To Know

Her Was To Be Numb With Sensation.

Love Is What I Felt And Still Feel For Sweet Adam.

Not Sappy Theater Popcorn Residue...

But Harsh And Reverberating Madness

Of The Highest Order...

It Doesn't Make Sense...

It Isn't A Summer's Day In The World Of Lovers...

It Is Always Forever And Unattainable...

The Love That Colors My Everyday Life...

Both Before Now & After...

With And Within...Without Laughter...

For Without My Sweet Adam...The Tears Have Awakened.

© DECEMBER 13, 1999 By Menes

-FOR ADAM JAMES GRAM-

May Your Displays Crash And Crumble,

May Your "Friends" Learn To Love You,

May You Forgive Me My Failures And Let Someone In -

My Love Pains Me Still... I Will Love You Until...