POST-MORTEM FLASHBACK

I REMEMBER EVERYTHING!!!

I REMEMBER MY FATHER ON TOP OF MY SISTER,

A LAMB TO THE SLAUGHTER,

HER BLOOD ON WHITE SHEETS...

TRAPPED IN THE DARKNESS,

WHY CAN'T I HELP HER?

AT LEAST BE HER SHELTER?

THE DREAM CHILD WEEPS...

THE MEMORY SCREAMS: "PLEASE DON'T FORGET ME!"

AND MY BODY WON'T LET ME,

I'M DAMAGED AND BROKEN...

I STARVE FOR ATTENTION,

I STARVE FOR AFFECTION,

BUT MY CRIES GO UNHEARD,

AND MY WORDS GO UNSPOKEN...

YEARS ROLL LIKE THUNDER AND THE HUNGER CONSUMES ME,

THE SORROW EXHUMES ME,

BUT I'M DYING INSIDE...

MY WRISTS ARE SOON BLEEDING,

YET MY HEART STILL KEEPS BEATING,

AND AT LAST THERE ARE OTHERS,

IN WHOM I CAN CONFIDE...

I REMEMBER THE CHILDREN AND THE PROMISE WE'D MADE,

BUT NOT ONE OF THEM STAYED,

THEY FORGOT ME SO FAST...

FOR YEARS I'VE BEEN GRIEVING,

WATCHED AS EACH ONE WAS LEAVING,

I REFUSE TO FORGET THEM,

BECAUSE I AM THE LAST...

I REFUSE TO FORGET WHAT MY MOTHER DENIES,

I SEE THROUGH HER LIES,

AND MY SUFFERING EXPANDS...

I REMEMBER WHAT WAS,

AND SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN,

I REMIND HER OF THIS,

FOR I AM THE DAMNED...

AND WHEN I AM GONE WILL SHE TELL THOSE THAT KNEW,

THAT MY WORDS WERE NOT TRUE,

THAT WE WERE NEVER A TEAM...

WILL THEY FORGET ME AGAIN,

WHEN JUST A MEMORY I AM,

WILL THEY BELIEVE WHEN SHE TELLS THEM,

THAT I WAS ONLY A DREAM...

I PRAY FOR THEIR SAKES THAT THEY'LL ONE DAY FORGET,

FOR THEY OWE ME NO DEBT,

THEY SHOULD BELIEVE HER BECAUSE...

MY HEART WAS A COFFIN,

FILLED WITH THINGS BEST FORGOTTEN,

TORMENT AND SORROW,

THIS IS ALL THAT I WAS...

EXCEPT FOR MY SAVIOR,

FOR HIS NAME WAS LOVE.

© MAY 6, 1996 By Jason Wright