In a moment of anger

that was long overdue...

I gave them a throw

while disgusted by you...

I shouldn't have done it;

it was childish & wrong...

But I'd been overwhelmed

& for ever so long...

Something had to snap

& something had to break...

And your loyalty to him

was making me shake...

The boy that had screwed you

in more ways than one...

The boy who spat on me

when he made you cum...

The boy who makes me feel

both jealous & sad...

Jealous of what?

I don't know...

But it's bad.

I feel like this boy is broken somehow...

I feel like I can't really blame this boy now...

I feel like this boy & my father are brothers...

Two crazy kids who take too much from others

to lose & to heal themselves though they don't know why...

All an excuse to live or to die.

He makes me so sad...

& I can't tell you why.

- For Travis & Jaret -