WHEN I AM ALONE

I went to a wedding last Tuesday;

in my mind - - I did... I wondered calm.

I dressed in style with shiny black shoes

& my piercings glimmered in the moonlight,

& the summer breeze warmed & cooled me;

all at once.

I took the trash to the dumpster & wandered back.

Mark was late & the wedding kept me "sane."

The car was destroyed; my car; the car he was driving.

Mark was alive. Mark was alive!

The ambulance drove away & I was alone again.

I spoke...

I breathed...

I walked out into the night...

& the music came up

& I knew I would give him away.